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It has really been a long time

2011-10-31T22:48:00.000-07:00

I have been travelling like a dog lately and have not had the chance to blog very much. Also with the family here, I find it hard to even have time to write.

It is a painful pleasure to have the family here as it makes me feel complete and also makes me happy deep inside. With a 2 yr old or in fact with any kid, your life is always full of fun and entertainment. But then of course, having a child any where in this world is not cheap and it is even worse in Sillypore because things are really getting expensive here. Imagine, we took the LRT (and got lost) and to travel 2 stops, it cost us 1 plus each. Wow... I thought public transport was supposed to enable to public to travel conveniently.

But in so saying, it is getting bad... With the prices of COE going sky high and not looking like coming down anywhere in the near future, public transport becomes necessary. However, what makes the pain even worse is that we have to share our space with people who take this as a transient stopover to either go back as a rich person or to go to an even better place.

This immigration policy is really silly and it has really got to be controlled. I read with some trepidation that we have almost 2 million foreign nationals who call this little dot home. That means the local population has been diluted by half (we were 4 million strong before) and this is scary.... But then of course, like any logical people, we just hope that it will not affect us too much.

Wake up and look at the sky and smell the flowers people, the sky is falling and the flowers have thorns. We are getting out numbered and out classed in any and every way. So we really gotta work hard to make our own little heaven in this hell and try to find a happy life for ourselves.

This is blasphemy to the extreme!!!

2011-09-06T18:40:00.000-07:00

I am not sure what or why our esteemed first PM was thinking, however, switching from the Queen's English to American English is really a slap in the face to those who went through the system and did our dues. Yes, everyone speaks American english and yes most of the movies are from US. But heck, there is nothing wrong with the english coming out of UK and it sounds better. I lived overseas for so many years and I still speak Singlish and I am proud of it. I really would not like it if my daughter started to speak like and American.

I know that there are many who consider it as a previlege to speak with an American accent, even with fellow countrymen who are speaking normal english. It may be a badge of honour for them... but I am not one who is into such shit and I really do look down upon such people. Especially if they have only been abroad for a short period of time. (I do consider anything shorter than being overseas since young or for less that 5 years as short hor)....

I am just wondering if we have our heads screwed on properly for such a wierd contribution.... Man..... if thats the case, we might as well adopt everything American... then you will see the problems rising...

Times are changing, but have they really changed

2011-08-30T19:39:00.000-07:00

I am being reminiscent about life in our little dot. The political environment has changed a lot and people are becoming more vocal. More and more are also beginning to want a change in the way they are beign treated However, has much really changed? Like the just passed elections, almost eveyone was in disarray and had their own choice of who they wanted to be their President. However, what choices did they have and in the end who was chosen?

The ruling party has claimed an overwhelming endorsement that with the closest loser and the winner, they have garnered over 70% of the total votes. However, did they not say that the President is not supposed to be linked to any party? So here is where the oxymoron is, will we ever be able to have a non political President? Haizzzz.... Sometimes I really just wish not to be involved with all this.

Life is not the same...

2011-08-16T20:38:00.000-07:00

Do not worry, I am not the type to sit down and cry.... Although I have many health problems, it is allowing to be more healthy in my lifestyle. You cannot imagine how many ways I can cook bitter gourd nowadays and also the pleasures of brown rice. But also to be able to run 2km. I started running a few days ago and even though legs are telling me to give them a break, I do feel much better and sleep much better.

Anyways, all this is beside the point. The point is that we have to live as long as we can live and this is so that we can be with those whom we love. It is really silly in my opinion to try to make sure that in death, those who live on are well taken care of. Insurance and other measures are at most something to fall back on, but if the living are unable to look after themselves, then they are most probably better off dead.

This is how I plan to teach my kid. She has to learn to take care of herself and be able to live a normal life by herself. If it means she has to understand hardship, then so be it as life will not be as easy as when being a child and being protected and pampered by a parent or parents.

They are back in Japan now and they should come back in end September. However, I will be very busy and tavelling around, so I do hope that I will at least be here to make sure they land safely.

Why is this so?

2011-08-04T20:25:00.001-07:00

Recently, due to the derisiveness of the GE, there have been people online claiming like they are super brainiacs that they know better than others. They always claim, (sometimes with vulgarities) about the 60% who voted for the ruling party.

Why is this so? Why is there such an abundance of superiority attitude? Do they even consider that 100% will convert? Do they know the turmoil this will will cause? I am not a supporter by far. I am also not a fan, but in the great words of a learned man, if we cause a revolution, are we ready for the consequances? A whole new team who does not know anything or have not tried their theories. Imagine the investors from foreign lands going..."Hold on... lets wait and see what happens"...

Yes we need to change things. Yes we need to have some fundemental changes in almost every aspect of our lives. But the change comes from all of us and within us. The opposition is going a long way to initiate this and time will slowly tell.

What happens if today the ruling party has a fundemental shift and starts to work for the people and with the people, will then the 60% start to laugh at the 40% who voted against? Please lah.... lets just all work in our own little way to make our own little lives a bit more better for ourselves.

The cold war continues

2011-07-28T22:53:00.001-07:00

As mentioned in my previous entry, the cold war between the other side and mine continues with my energizer not calling me and my sister only speaking in terms of work.... But you know something??? I really do not care what they think. The very fact that they do not think that what they did was wrong and are not repentant is something I feel very personally insulted about.

It is not that I do not love energizer, but we cannot spoil her and let her feel like she is the prima donna and especially after what she did, which was in the first place a really silly thing. My monster does stupid things and sometimes it ends with falls and so on... I do not rush to her aid as I will and may not be able to rush to her aid in time. She has to learn how to fall and pick herself up.

And in fact nowadays, she tries to do silly things like standing on the bed and jumping and so on. She even tries to climb onto the chairs and be spiderwoman.... Fall and go splat lor.... Learn that it is dangerous lor... If not, do you think she will ever learn? I can tell her fire is hot and it will burn, but if she don listen and gets burnt... we just have her cry and explain to her that "we told her so".....

I am getting old and we cannot promise to be there when she get older. Even my wife has no guarantees that she will live to see monster grow old. I am even worse.... So we gotta train her to look after herself and for her to be able to support herself and be strong mentally.

Anyway, you know, the energizer just loves going to the doctors to see if there is anything wrong with her. But at her age and even at my age, the more you go to doctors, the more problems they will find. I went to the doctor about my usual prostate probem, and ended up with a fear that there might be cancer at the prostate and also a diagnosis that I have Type 2 diabetes.... Most people will curse and swear and feel that they are so poor thing.... I only went "knn.... why the holy f**k did I bother".... I do not want to be called poor thing and it defeats the purpose to moan and groan... Just find a way to solve whatever problems you have lor. Other people and everyone else has their own problem.... How much more do you think they will be able to bothered by yours? That is why I really love the Japanese movie Departures.... It makes death looks so honorable and in a way beautiful.... I am not afraid of it and like I mentioned so many times before.... I will even asked my old fren death, "What took you so long to come for me... my friend"

A very depressed person

2011-07-18T21:13:00.001-07:00

This is the picture of the scratch on my monster's back after my energizer tried to run her down. It was a long and uglier scar on the first day. I really just do not understand how my sis and energizer can be more worried about the old and not those who are still young and living. It is like energizer's use of money. She is a black hole when it comes to money as it is never enough. If you give her $100, she will ask for a thousand and she will spend it all. I have no bloody idea where she is spending it as she never has anything remaining at the end of the month. Oh yea... do not expect or even hope to find a pot of gold lah.... She spends it all lah.

So now comes the most painful decision.... do I keep trying to maintain the old when my child is asked to forfeit her share or do I try to be diplomatic? Well diplomacy is really not an option because I have already had many clashes with the energizer many times and for many years and it will lead to no where. My wife is already becoming irritated (to put it mildly) that I have to pay for energizer's medical visits and also any operations and so on and also give her money whenever she needs it and she is also taking from my sister. And also she is losing her brains.... So what do I do? If no one wants to admit to the fact and I am the only person who is thinking for the future and the family's future, then I am finding it a very difficult task and the only thing I can do now is to just withdraw and to cut off all connections. If not, I will face another bankruptcy and another round of being poor just to make the energizer feel good and it will not be fair for my family.

And being around the energizer is now not safe for my child as she may be innocently trying to play and energizer may take it as something else and do something silly again. In the end, it will be another drama and my sis will then try to assuage her own psychological problems by trying to play up to the drama and it will just make energizer feel more like being the drama queen that she is... I am at a loss now.

Its just like the newspaper said

2011-07-17T19:41:00.000-07:00

It is sad, but our elderly will have to die in foreign lands. This is because elderly care in Sg is becoming too expensive and also in some ways unmanageable. Take my energizer rabbit for example, she keeps wanting to see doctors and to have something wrong with her so that people can say "poor thing" to her and perhaps be a bit nicer to her. In the end, it willsad cost us a bomb.... My question is if something is wrong with her, then how? She has already had cancer and is having diabetes and high blood pressure. Her natural lifespan may be for a few years to tens of years. She already has Alzheimer's and her mental aspect is also going off. So do we pay to maintain a coconut husk? If not will the gahmen make noise or the coconut make noise?

It is really really sad. And what is sadder is that I have 2 people on the other side who are weak, egotistical and do not really have a clue what they are doing in their lives. On Sat, wat happened was that my monster was playing near a table, near my sister. My eyes were on her and I guess my sister's was too. My monster was bending down and suddenly my energizer rushed to push my monster away because she thought that monster wud hit her head. Energizer missteppes, fell and hit the front part of her head on the table and started a whole drama that lasted into the night. Claiming that she felt faint, wanting to die and so on. In the end, I did a preliminary check and she was ok. She went upstairs to her room and even said she was hungry. No one even bothered about my poor monster who was tangled up in a heap of legs and was really damn confused. My sister was panicked, wanting to send energizer to the hospital and so on. Come on, people hit their heads all the time. If you lost consciousness or started to vomit or if your pupils are not dilating properly, I would be worried, but if after the initial state of confusion, you seem ok, there is no need.

After I got home, I found that monster had a big scratch on her back and lucky she did not hit any table leg or chair and having 50kg's rushing on her may have broken bones and so on. If people bend down and were about to bang their heads, all you need to do is to advise them or alert them. Not rush at them like football tacklers and then fall into a heap with them. Well the other side's drama continued well into the night like I mentioned, with energizer now saying that she had a bad dream and so wanted to be brought to a hospital. My sister, being an idiot, did not bring her to a normal clinic, but decided to bring her to Mt E, A&E. The dr said that she was fine. (I am still fuming because this is the umpteenth time my medical decision has been countermanded by an idiot who does not know anything about medicine). Then the dr was a bit worried about energizer's blood pressure and wanted her to remain under observation. So she started to fume and ho and hum and made her blood pressure even higher. For goodness sake... she does not even take her medications religiously!!! In the end my silly tried all means to find some medical professional to see if there is anything wrong with her (energizer). Erm, the dr already said nothing was wrong. It is just that someone with dementia saw the wrong situation and reacted and had a fall... Then being guilty, and wanting attention, of course, it ended up in this way.... So now my friends.... I ask you.... WTHF..... and when they went home, old crazy had left her bag at the hospital.... Why do people not just understand the situation and just live with it?

I am now afraid of my mom because she has shown that she is incapable of lookign after my child and may even cause hurt rather than harm. And as her dementia continues, she will be more of a problem not only to all, but also herself. So I am really really stuck. She cannot control money, seems to be spending heaps for no rhyme of reason and yet is unable to see any reason. Is the gahmen going to help us? I doubt so.

Its getting more difficult to blog

2011-07-13T02:04:00.000-07:00

Lately, after blogger has been incorporated into Google accounts, I have been having trouble getting in.... darn!!!

Anyways, latest on my rabbit is that she has just gone for an eye op to lift her skin over her eyelid higher instead of it drooping over her eyes.... But..... the thing is that it cost me 4k in Medisave and 700 in cash..... Worth it??? The jury is still out on this lah... She has had droopy eye for a long time already... Jus look at my pics... I have the same eyes!!! Anyways... money down the drain to make someone feel better... haizzzzz

But she has actually shown that her mental capacities are actually slipping because she told the nurse that the blood pressure machines the hospitals were using were not accurate.... yea right.... Which ones are more accurate???!!! Ossim???? Lives are dependant on those machines.... Just because it does not give a reading you are happy with, it is not accurate???

And then she was again asking if she could take her meds and so on, but when I looked at it, she was being selective because some were pretty full strips and some were pretty well taken..... Then when she went home, she had already forgotten how to take her meds and was applying the meds for her eyes the wrong way.... Pretty soon, she will be eating shit and rubbish and getting lost if we are not careful.... But then of course, my darling sister will say that she will look after my mom and so on and in the end leave it to someone else to pick up the shit.

Life is funny, but in the end, all you can do is laugh.....

Haaaa... I am tired

2011-06-27T19:15:00.001-07:00

You will have to be patient with me because I was travelling a lot lately. I was in Europe as I mentioned in my previous post and was supposed to be in KL, but fortunately it was cancelled almost at the last minute and then I went to Myanmar.... Yea right.... The new Burma..... You cannot use your credit card there at all!!! And the exchange rate for the USD has 3 rates.... The gahmen one.... where the rate is 1USD to 7kyats.... then there is the trade rate which hotels use, which is 1USD to 700 and then the black market one... It is a wierd country, which is so rich and beautiful and yet at the same time, it is so backward.

Well anyway... I was only there for 3 days and that was almost the max I could stay there. I am not an elitist, but I really do value communications and was kinda lost without my wife and kid and couldn't hear from them which made things so much more unbearable.

In some way, I am really tired of flying around and also being away from the family. Every good bye is painful and every moment away from my family is hard. Haizzz... but we all gotta put the bacon on the table and be able to enjoy the fruits of our labour... so no choice.

Its been a long time

2011-06-14T23:44:00.000-07:00

I jus got back from quite a long trip of almost 2 weeks in Europe, being in Stockholm, Fribourg and Geneva.... Eating salads with the E-coli problems being a worry and a lot of potatoes and meat.... I am Asian... so I prefer my rice and soya sauce... hehehehehehe

The energizer also came back from Scotland... sick as a donkey with the flu and as always complaining about how poor thing she is. But she is getting from strange to stranger... She all of a sudden said that I must not sell the gold that I have in some umentionable places because they are her wedding items.... Yea right... who wants to touch them and also because they are part of the fengshui of my home... Why wud I want to sell them off???? Maybe she is trying to say that she does not have enough money but then hey.... she just has to learn not to spend so much... She claims that she is not spending... But hell... she is still playing mahjong at least once a week and with her concentration span... I do not think that she will be able to win very much... losing is much more of a possibility.

Anyways, wife and daughter are now officially PR of our little red dot and my second kid, if it is a son will have to do NS..... I seriously have nothing against it.... It will only be 2 years and also it has become so soft that I am sure that it will be a breeze... In fact, I think that being at my home will be more of a challenge as I run a very tight ship and am very fierce and strict... No nonsense from my kids and they will do what we want them to do. No deals and horse trades and or trinkets to make them follow..... Even now, my monster is not really allowed to drink soft drinks and or to take sweets and so on... On the odd time, I may allow her to enjoy chocolate by way of cakes and so on... but she is not allowed to take chocolate as it is.

I think that we have to provide the right environment for them to grow the right way... Not to hope that they will come to their senses and be good people. This I am sure is part of a good upbringing.

Why is my family so wierd???

2011-05-18T20:40:00.000-07:00

You know, if the Simpsons were real, I think that the situations they face every episode will be very similar in wierdness to mine.

Why do I say this is because on Mon night, I recieved a wierd call and it went like this..."Michael???? Ah good morning.... no no no... I mean good evening".... and I was already starting to go "WTF??? Who the f are you???" then he handed the phone over to my energizer rabbit..... Aweeeeee.... f!!!!! Then she was asking if my sis was already as she could not get to her.... So the silly idiot did not want to bring her phone because she did not want to spend money, but she borrows someone else's phone.... What a freaking pest!!!!! Come one... she does not have to go on holiday and worry about my sis or me and if she wants to worry, then do not go for a silly trip!!! It is as simple as that.... OMFG!!! It is like the time when she took money from my nephew to pay for her bloody chinese medicine!!!

And when I complained to my sis, she was complaining how poor thing she was because energizer started to call herself Maria because she was doing the cooking.... Eerrrrmmmm... that is why I always freak out when energizer comes to my house to clean it because she will come back and say that she is so poor thing.... She is like a kid... and to top it off, we do not need her to do any cleaning...... Haizzzzzz...... Then sis was complaining how my energizer treats her and her family and you know something??? What can I say, the old bag is just wanting some attention, but she will not get any from the silly sister of mine.... For me.. I am fair... I treat everyone fairly and that is why most people will find it difficult to pin something on me... I live that way because if I say that we need to save money, we will.... If I say that we have to live a hard life, we will... But not the other side and that is why we have such a wierd family....

I came back to another country

2011-05-10T23:51:00.000-07:00

I went to Sepang during the weekend. I picked up the eneriger rabbit and we went to vote... I will still not say who I voted for though.... And then sort of kept her company for a while. Then I rushed to meet my frens and we went to KL together.... It is fun when you drive an evo because it is meant to speed... 180 seems like 120... but of course if you use your brains, you know that it is a bit fast and so we took it at a leisurely pace.

Then on Sun, it was tracking in Sepang and it was fun fun fun.... After the event, I rushed back by myself because I needed to get back fast... Well when I came back, the political landscape was different. A veteran was voted out, we lost 2 ministers and a little girl came.... The opposition won a GRC, which was the first in history and I..... stamp stamp stamp my feet... do not know what to say.

But no matter what, life still goes on. My wifey and monster will be back next week and I have already turned my car back to a normal drive.... No matter if we vote opposition or PAP, it will still be the same... Many people are fearful that if they give the wrong vote, they will suffer and it is of course part of the way the gahmen controls us. But if I apply my usual frame of thinking, even if our vote is not secret, so what? We write to MP and he says I voted for the opposition and he will not help? That will be descrimination. We vote opposition and we do not get upgrading? So what? Our slums will never be as bad as some of the other hell holes I have been to in my life. So nothing really gets me afraid and since I live my life of only relying on myself, it really does not matter if I do not get anything from anyone.

A really Big Dilemma (Purely fictional of course)

2011-05-04T18:58:00.000-07:00

I am in a Single ward, so it is a one on one fight. I am tempted to vote for the original because he helped me to get a PR for my wife and I also want upgrading for my home... But the big question will be that if the opposition come in, I will also have seem to have not voted for them. Now if this is the case, then will they come back and asked me why I did not vote for them??? It is quite an interesting question.... isn't it? Heee heeee....

Of course it is purely fictional as I will vote where my heart is and of course it will be a secret even to you guys. But seriously does it matter who comes in? We will still be taking our transport to work and also be living our lives in our dreary towns. Got upgrading? No upgrading? Got better transport or less price increase, it will always be cyclical. Yes, due to certain pressures, price will increase and sometimes this can be mitigated by gahmen measures, but seriously, will it really change?

What needs to happen is us. We complain of not enough schools and roads and so on. We talk about not enough space in MRT and so on, but it is all because we peg everything to profits. So of course to get the most bang out of what we have and also to be as profitable as we can, any enterprise will try to be as miserly about spending money and yet wanting more profits. Schools are being over-run by FT's.... well then we should build more schools. We have too much competition for limited jobs.... then create more jobs lor..... The opposition claims to want to take out reserves to give to our people, but then why draw down on our reserves? Why not open it to private enterprise where it will be profitable for all? For example schools.... I am not talking about those privates that are so posh that we need 5 figures to just go in... But a private school catering for students. Since it is a private enterprise, the gahmen should not need to invest too much. Just ensure that the proper codes of conduct and accounting measures come in. The school has to decide how many students it needs and how much fees to make it profitable. Then the number of teachers to give a good education so that the name of the school rises and more students want to enrol.

It is like roads and cars and so on. Build more roads? We already have too many roads. What we need is better infrastructure. Have a train station within 200m from your home and many companies providing different services. Loop lines, point to point lines and so on. Private enterprise will be left to find out its profit point and also its own value added service. Then you will see that it is so convenient that we do not need cars and are happy taking trains or buses.

How come I have to think about all these things??? Maybe I should be a politician??? hehehehehe

Its been a long time

2011-05-03T19:18:00.000-07:00

It has been such a long time since I last blogged, I guess it is because I am tired and also busy. I do not know which is worst, being tired because you are busy or what? Anyway, the elections are around the corner and I am sort of glad that I am in a Single Member Ward, this means the fight is more straight, one on one... mano o mano... I really would not like to be in a GRC where you may support a certain person of one party but not the rest.

As to who I will vote, I will be keeping that secret. But seriously, I will only say one thing and it is something that I learnt so many years ago, you may be in hell, but you can make your own little heaven in whichever hell you are in. I lived overseas so many years and have seen so many hardships, so I guess I can say it with confidence.

As for the other parts of my life, when it comes to my energizer rabbit, she is really sucking the life out of me... She went to the eye specialist and now has to undergo an op to lift the skin over her eyelids. It is true that as you grow older, your skin is not as hard and muscles not as firm and so the op is to make her eyelids a bit tighter and she can see better.... It will cost 4k!!!! She is going for her trip still and she is thinking that next year, she wants to go back to Korea again........ Even my sis is kind of out of money because everytime the rabbit sees a doctor, either she or me has to pay.... She will go to another specialist tomorrow and I had to give her another 200 bucks.... good god... that is 400 bucks on top of her trip money and the bullshit about her trying to save money is just as I mentioned... bullshit because she was playing mahjong almost everyday during the weekend!!!!

I know that humans love to pamper themselves... But this is getting crazy... She does not understand that if you want X and there is limited resources, you will have to sacrifice Y... I am again going into debt just to give her what she wants. But this time, if the banks come knocking, I will allow them to make me bankrupt and then make my case to the gahmen that their policies really stink.... Forcing us to look after our parents and not helping and then after that if our parents are the high maintenance types... we will be left without any money to buy a coffin and to give them their last rites... I am already at that stage... Saving burnt out because of her op.... and her constant need for money and then again for her unreasonable fear of dying.... If she goes to a doctor, they will definitely say that she needs treatment for something... and who pays for it.... That is why I said that I am living with the undead... A vampire of the human kind... God bless me... for no one else will,.......

Where is Karma... Where is justice?

2011-04-11T18:48:00.000-07:00

There was a news yesterday of a mother who is addicted to gambling and threatened to throw herself off the building if she were not allowed to go to the casino. In the end, she lost a few hundred grand and is not even repentant. I am not saying good or bad.... but I am just saying that there are really some people who are really suffering from their parent's frivolousness and foolishness. My energizer??? Goes around telling me she has no money, wants to go on holidays and yet does not want to save. She claims to want to save and is saving... but that is yet to be seen.... Also, she had some blood in her urine and also saw a doctor and found out her liver is not doing well. Yet she still wants to take TCM and I ask myself why? Because she is afraid of death. But why does she want to hold out and live a long life? When all she does is spend and say that other people are so much better than her. But just like the article... how come the old do not mind sacrficing the young for themselves? Now the woman's children will have to be in debt and they will also suffer....So like our case, when she was short of money... she even took from her grandson just to go to the TCM sensei.... OMG!!! How low can you get? Just don't go lah... You so afraid of dying but at 73.... the only thing that is confirmed is death. What else is there? A second youth??? Maybe second childhood where you are so demented that you become a child... which she is closing in on now... I told her that TCM is killing her because though it may help her... in the end... it is medication that is not in any controlled proportion and you cannot determine the exact active ingredients... In Taiwan... already there are a lot of people who have kidney failure and the reason was attributed to kidney failure... I am not sayin that she should not take... but seriously... how long more does she want to stave off death? So I do hope that the government allows the building of the nuclear power plants... so that it will be tendered to the highest bidder who will hire the lowest paid worker and this worker will have no idea which buttons to press and blow the whole thing up and then we all end up dead... then at least my living hell will stop.

Wierd isn't it?

2011-04-06T23:48:00.000-07:00

My sis sms'ed me and told me my Energizer rabbit was having blood in her urine.... Hmmmm.... well, she has been spending huge amounts of money on Traditional Chinese medcine. They have been known to kill not only your kidneys, but also your liver.... So scared out of her shit, she went to see a doctor and the doctor says her liver is in trouble....!!....?? Helloooooo.... what about the blood in the urine????? What liver?? So what if her liver is gone??? Haizzzzz..... And the thing is now I am advising that she does not go for her trip to UK or where ever because unless she is certified that she is ok, I do not want her to be sick somewhere and we need to medivec her back to SG... good god!!! Why are people so silly??? I know her reason for wanting to take the TCM is because she wants to live longer.. but at the price of what??? Kidneys and liver? Dialysis for the rest of her life? Money down the drain again I guess...

What will hurt you most?

2011-03-31T20:40:00.000-07:00

Sending your family into a hell or not having them survive this hell? Hell, is there a difference? For me, I have to send my family back to Osaka tomorrow late evening. Some of you may say that I am crazy, but then I have no choice. They have to go meand they have to go. We just have to make sure all our emergency plans are set in place and we all know what we are doing, which makes things a bit difficult because when it comes to Mother Nature, how many of us truly understands her. But in the end, having a glow in the dark child and wife, may not be such a bad thing after all. Imagine the savings in electricity. But in the end, we all live by the rules we make and also by the choices we make. We cannot go back and hope that time will be reversed and that we can undo our mistakes... So if my daugther glows in the dark or wife gives birth to a 6 headed hyrda, so be it lor.

Sometimes I ask myself "why"??

2011-03-29T19:24:00.000-07:00

You know, you look around you and you see misery, you see suffering. You feel sympathetic, but only for a while. You look at others and see faults, but do not see your own and in the end, the question will always be why? Why did we become this way? It is as profound as it is simple. The ego of man is the downfall of man. We had a lady call up telling the heartlanders not to go to Holland Village, an area full of ang mohs, because heartlanders are not cultured. Perhaps they push or speak loudly or are vulgar... but I can swear to it that event the most cultured being can swear profanities worse than a drunken prawn can. If rich means being cultured, again it is a misnomer because you may be rich, but you need not be cultured. You may read Tolstoy and the Illiad and Odessy.. but are you cultured? It is in the mind lah I tell you. How you bring yourself and carry yourself is the true worth of your own. No matter how rich you are, some people may be richer or as rich, but they do not want to flaunt it. So ego is mankind's downfall. Those who have power but are unable to share it, those who aspire for more when they have enough and so on... It all makes us crazy doesn't it?

The world today

2011-03-16T22:04:00.000-07:00

I am filled with dread when I think of my family going back to Japan in Apr... What will happen if another earthquake were to strike or they find it difficult to buy food and so on. But then they have to go back because of a lot of reasons and I guess that this is where the strength of a person and his love for the family rises. Can we let our loved ones go to hell knowing that we can do something about it and also wondering if it is the last time you will say goodbye?
I do not make decisions easily and also I weigh everything before making one, so I guess they will go back unless the situation gets much worse.

As for the radiation leaks, if my monster can glow in the dark, it will save our power bills by a lot and also if she has 4 arms, she will be of much help... Or maybe I will use it as a way of getting money from the gahmen's of JP and SG... heee heeee... since they have not been allowed to get their PR here, which means they have to go back.

But seriously though, it was a big and bad situation and many others are still suffering. I feel that such a big disaster only serves to bring into mind that nothing is permanent. Not money, not status and not possessions. Now the rich also have to line up for food and they are also likewise unable to have electricity as and when they want. But talking about electricity, as mentioned in my prevous posts, we really really should not even consider Nuclear power generation in Sg... because they will be operated by the lowest paid people, who most probably do not have any idea what button to push. Why is because it is not cheap to build a plant and our bills will not be lower and yet we will have a chance to glow in the dark.

The world is coming to an end!!!

2011-03-10T18:16:00.000-08:00

First of all, my monster has been sick with fever for the past few days and we are now making sure that she takes her meds and that she does not fry her brains.

As for the world coming to an end, the reason is simple... look at the number of volcanoes and earthqaukes that have been happening... It is a sign for sure. But then what do we do about it? Well, we sure as hell have not found a new planet to move to and even if we did, we do not have the capabilities yet. Unlike the silly show 2012, I do not think there will be anyone building any arks in Tibet and even if they try, it will be something that will be almost impossible to hide. I am not into the conspiracy theory, so I feel that sooner or later, any secret will come out.

Talking about arks, how the hell are we gonna build an ark or several arks big enough? Having 2 animals of each and 2 people of each race and so on.... There was a mention that if we had animals in the same ark, they would also end up on our dinner table... Well that is so true. If I were hungry, I would be looking at the cow and wondering if I were to have a fillet mignon or to have shabu shabu with it.

As for having 2 of each race, why not have the most beautiful (female) of each race and I will procreate with them instead? Good idea huh?

But seriously though, back to realities. There was once an ad that says that we live in an island with limited natural resources. It is true. Though our planet is big by many standards, it is still an island. If we shit enough in it, the stink will become harder to hide as time goes by and if we cut down all the coconut trees, then sooner or later we will not have any coconuts left. I am sure that my energizer rabbit will remain alive long enough to see this, but then the question will be if she wants a coconut, will I have to cut it down for her??? hehehehehe

When it rains... it pours

2011-03-09T17:35:00.000-08:00

Oh yea... I am not talking about the real rain, but I meant good or bad luck.... The monster has been sick for 2 days and I gotta bring her to the doctors. She has been having a fever and I think that it is time to bring her to the docs before she fries her brain.

Then of course, the energizer rabbit wants money to go for her Scotlant trip and if I do not give it to her, she will still blackmail my sis for it. She claims that she is trying to save up, but then her going to the traditional medicine doctor every week and spending at least 150 bucks is something that she can save. She is 73 and has been able to go to Turkey, Europe and this year Scotland. And every time she goes, she says it is her last because it is not that she does not want to go anymore, but because she thinks she is going to die... But like the energizer battery, she goes on and on and on and on ......

If she stops seeing the TCM dr, she will be able to save the money for a trip easily. But then again, for someone with dementia and is child like, how can you explain such things? It is like me telling my monster that taking a sticky icky liquid that tastes like it squirted from the asse of a donkey is good for her... She ain't that stupid.

But I will request that she bring back some money and also show that she is trying to save so that I will consider giving her something for next or else, she can go and blackmail my sister all she likes and wants.

The world is going crazy....

2011-02-24T00:03:00.000-08:00

No I do not mean to speak about certain Current Affairs happenings in other parts of the world, I am talking about our little red dot.

The prices of things are really getting out of hand. COE is 60k for a 1.6l car... My god... that is almost the price of a bloody car which is already priced at twice the price of a car you can get at some other place.... Ahem.... guys... you are paying at least 300% of the price of a car in Sg. So why be so proud??? Your evo and your lambo and so on are waaaaayyyy over priced and you can only have it for 10yrs!!!

Our homes are not priced at 200k and above for new or old flats as now they have the arty farty BTO which you will have to wait 3 yrs for and pay for it the rest of your lives........ Somehow... as I have been saying for the longest time... There is really something screwed up about our lives here...

2012 is really coming!!!!

2011-02-22T19:12:00.000-08:00

I do not mean the year because it will come no matter what... but I mean that world destruction will come. Look at all the political upheavals, deaths, earthquakes and volcanoes that are happening in the world now. Perhaps people are becoming more unstable and therefore starting to go crazy more easily. I do not know the reason, but it trully fills me with dread. It is not dread of dying and going to another plane of existence, but then it is for those who live and survive. For me, I am a survivor and therefore even if there is no power or no forms of entertainment, I am still ok. But what about my family and so on. (Oh yea... I am not mentioning the energizer here hor).

In the end, we come from ashes, we will go back as ashes and that is the way things are meant to be.

The luckiest person in the world

2011-02-21T18:12:00.000-08:00

You know something? My energizer is the luckiest piece of pie in the world. After losing her husband, she had survived so long and so well. Though her mind is slowly slipping, but then she is supposed to be a happy bunny... Why??? She has no worry in the world and is actually travelling the world. Thsi year she wants to go to UK... Last year she went to Norway and so on and the year before last it was to Turkey and so on... Good God... no wonder I call her the Energizer rabbit... she jus goes on and on and on and on and on and on ..... haizzzzzz...

So she popped a question, can I pay 2k for her trip??? 2 fucking k...!!?? Dats like how many months worth of savings??? At the end of the mth if I have 500 bucks saved, I am already a lucky bastard.... And guess what I am not getting any tax benefits to look after by law this old bunny....!!! Of course she says that I need not pay for her other expenses, but it will come back and bite me in the asse if I I were so stupid to believe her. She has no ability to save and or to plan her finances, so she will need at least 500bucks for her food and other things. I will apportion 2.5k for her, but I just hope that my sister does not tip the boat and give much more... The big problem is that how the bunny can think of spending so much is really beyond my comprehension and further to this, how she is not even half sorry for doing it. She knows we get shit upon everyday at our work. She knows we also have to live for the future while she is just as happy living for the now. Last year she claimed that she would not have any more trips this year and so spent all of any money we gave her. This year I will demand that she keeps some as next year will be much harder for us to give her a bloody trip every year.

I'm Ready...I'm ready

2011-02-21T00:41:00.000-08:00

Following the famous Sponge Bob's ever enthusiastic motto of being ready, I feel that I am.... ready for what??? To re-submit an application for my wife's PR.

It was actually pretty interesting. I appealed to the MP who appealed to to ICA. So we recieved a letter from them last week. My wife called up and said we recieved a letter from CIA.... "CIA"??? Uhhh.... I haven't been to US for a bloody long time.... And why would the CIA want anything to do with me? Don't tell me its one of those "I am the managing director of a long forgotten african bank and I have 30 million to spend"... So I confirmed if it were ICA... She said yes.... Then I asked her if the envelope was thick or thin.. She said thick... So a wave of hope washed over me... If the appeal did not go through, then it would have been a thin single sheet saying "Rejected".... But lo and behold, it was a stack of forms we had to fill in and resubmit... So since I was gonna resubmit... I better get everything ready and filed and copied and so on.... So I am ready now.

But going back to ICA and CIA... it is beginning to put a bit of doubt about my wife... Is she dyslexic? Not putting them down hor... Just like reading God and Dog... I am just a bit worried... Is it genetic? Because my kid is speaking in tongues still and what if it is because her brain is jumbled up? Hmmmmmm.... Well she will have to fend for herself because Daddy ain't gonna be there man... hehehehehehe

The only thing you can't escape in life is death and taxes

2011-02-17T18:07:00.000-08:00

Actually I can think of a lot of things you cannot escape but lets keep to the traditional ones lah. So what does that tell you about life? There are some things that are inevitable and some that you can avert. The worst thing comes when yuo get used to something in life and you just cannot live a life without it. Money and power does come to mind. For me, I try to live a simple life and try to keep things simple. So for me, if I have none of the money or power, it does not affect me at all. Some people who get used to it just cannot live on anymore or will try to hold on to it and keep it at all means. For this, I am not saying it and pointing it at any party either living or past.

I had a guy who was like a mini Hitler in a company I worked for in Japan. He was just a normal employee supposed to help out in the warehouse and to learn and earn and then if he proved himself worth it, he would rise in rank and also power. He was the elder brother of the company president, but all he ever wanted to do was to be an actor. He sucked at being an actor and had a face that a dog woudl run away from, so his career was pretty short. In the end, he made life terrible for all because he would always try to push people around saying that he was the brother of the president and so he was a senior and so on. But power and money are earned, they are not given and even if they are given, it will soon be spent. For us, we all have our mini hitlers and Paris Hiltons who are either too rich for us or too power hungry, but in the end, if we live our lives as we feel is right, then there is nothing any one can do to make us less happy.

Waaahhh... we all got more money wor!!

2011-02-14T20:55:00.000-08:00

According to the news lately, we are doing much better, the average income of an average household is 5k wor..... Before or after CPF ah???

But seriously, in our present world, what is 5k? Maids need at least 1k a mth now because supplyis short and everyone wants to work for an ang moh who will give them freedom and not work them to the bone. So that leaves 4k to feed the family. If the family has a car, they now only have 3k..... And if the children need to go to school and so on, that leaves 3k..... If they have to give demented parents who have no knowledge of the value of money.... They are now left with 2k.... Have I mentioned that I have not yet mentioned food and so on hor...

Are we really better off? Or are we worse off? How many people are really having troubles fending off being hungry or without something in the end of the mth?

So now we have a scenario of an average family"

Husband and wife comes home.... "Mommy... I want a new PS2..... " (Our eyes start to roll to the top) "Son... I need to play mahjong and since you are now in the average class of people and earn 5k in total a month, you must at least give me 10% and also must pay for my medications hor...., If not I report to gahmen you not looking after me hor".... Now eyes start to roll behind the eye socket liao...... "Sir and maam... can I have an extra day off and some pocket money to meet my sayang in the forest??""... You should be about to be ready to jump from the nearest opening liao.

But of course, there will be some who will be shit happy.... "Hey... I got 5k so lets spend 10k...!!!" Its like that, we love to spend and look good... As if we are afraid that people will look down upon us if we have no money.... Well let me put it this way, when you have no money and need to borrow, it is then that people will really look down upon you. If you live a simple life and not splash or brag... you fall and no one will hear you at all....

It brings back to memory someone I loved and how she was claiming that we were being damned cheap because we ate almost everyday at food courts and hawker centres.... Hello..... going there by car... fuel and car park? Eat one meal per person ate least 7 bucks liao hor.... Times 2 people will be 14 bucks liao hor... and add the other things... each time we go out, it can be up to 50 bucks hor.... Times 30 days you need 1,500 liao hor.... Haizzzzz.... Cheap means eat at home and being thrifty about wat you eat my friend.....

Well hope you guys enjoy being in the "average" percentile and enjoy yoru 5k, because it really does not go far these few days.

Chinese New Year

2011-02-06T17:51:00.000-08:00

Maybe it is age, but the Lunar New Year every year only fills me with dread. Dread of what crazy things my mom will do and or what else is in store for me. Remember the year before last when she suddenly told my aunty that she would not go over for reunion dinner or last year when she got the time and day wrong for my daughter's introduction lunch and I spent a bomb and no one came? This year was more or less the same thing too. She loves to be a "leader" but she really sucks in leading. I know this sounds like almost everyone we know, but it really grates me in the private parts when she does this.

Seems like she got the timing of the lunch wrong and one of my cousins brought her family, who were sick down with empty stomachs. She also asked my poor biggest aunt to follow her around like a little puppy on the first day, visiting 4 places. My poor monster was shell shocked by the end of the day. Seemes really like this year, her dementia is appreciably worse. She is getting grumpy, testy and so on and even speaking more in tongues, (eg talking nonsense). The worse is yet to come I guess. I only hope that we all do not suffer too much because of that.

She was even bragging that she may go to Scotland with her relatives again this year and my jaw dropped and my heart went "wee weee wee" all the way to the pig market. My god!!! Last year when I threw a fit about her not saving the money we changed for her for her trip, she said that she will not make any more trips. Why do you think I keep preaching that saving for the future? Or even preparing for the future? It will come and when it comes, it will bite us so hard in the asse that we will not even have time to say whoppee!!!!. She is already spending a fortune every week and month with her chinese medicine and her mahjong and yet she wants to go for trips and so on. She knows that we all may be out of a job in the near future, but then in the end, just like my sister, they do not know the devil that is stalking them. Even my sister had a grand and big lion dance and dragon dance ceremony. Easily a few k..... and she is claiming that she will lose her job in a few months... Haizzzzz... Would it not be better if she saved her money for her future?

I swear to you my friends, they are my only worry in life. Because they really are quite unable to make any reasonable choices in life. They are always in lala land and then when the shit hits the fan, I have to do the clearing up.

The oxymoron of Life

2011-01-26T22:14:00.000-08:00

You know something? It is kinda strange. Ever since the beginning of time and education, it has been proven that those who come from educated families do have a leg up. It is not because the educated value an education more, but when a child comes and asks how to do a quadratic equation with multiple variables, you will not have the dad jumping out of his HDB flat... I will be very tempted to jump though because I am just so bad in Maths.

Also it is something the children will want to follow. If you only knew A,B,C, your kid will be happy really soon that he knows more than you. This is especially so for families who have noth graduates for parents. So why only now does the gahmen say that children of families from good schools have an upper hand?

But let me ask you this question than... is it really true? So what of the better schools take in children of their former students and so what if they draw better teachers? It may be in the genes that a kid born of be?

Better educated parents may have slightly more inclined genes for study, but not in the Sg context where education is still predominantly memory based till the child is way too old to use his or her brain to think things out. I would like to say that parents from normal schools should take heart. If you show a love for learning, a love to study and to help yoru children study, they will still do well and they will still go for higher education..... on the premise that you can afford hor...... hehehehehe

As for those who have gone to good schools and have gotten their Uni certs, their masters and so on, if you prove to yoru children that they can be butt stupid and rely on you to give them your company and your wealth, they will then become half baked potatoes who will not strive for a higher education and then you will see how they face off with the elites who have lists of certs likes an SPG with a list of credit cards from her various boyfriends. What is the use in that?

Life in Sg

2011-01-20T18:23:00.000-08:00

It is interesting, life here in our little dot. We get peanuts for pay and everyone other company head is claiming we are too expensive. Hey, compared to many other countries, we are still cheap hor... But living here is not cheap... Just consider this as an average:

Salary: 5k
Take home: 4,100

Car loan: 800
Fuel: 400
ERP 170
Car Park HDB: 90
Food per day: 10 Per month 300
Road Tax per mth: 150
Insurance: 150
Housing per month: 300 (top up for CPF shortage)

What you have left: 2,360

If you have a family and have to pay the bills and utilities, you can easily take out another 1,000 at least.

Now then friends. This is if you are careful with your spending and also you try to save, because if you notice, I did not put anything for luxuries and so on. No eating out, no partying and so on. So you make your own calculation.

It is not cheap to live here and probably you will have to hire a maid to assist you in your household chores while your wife has to go out to find a job. A maid's base salary will be 450 soon and the government levy is around 300..... That excludes her food and so on..... so my frens... if a household does not have 5k a month.... you are well and truly screwed....

Are we being productive enough??

2011-01-17T19:41:00.000-08:00

This is a good question huh? Now our fertility rate is like 1.16?? We cannot even produce enough to replace the people who will kick the bucket in a few years..... and we work 12 hours day plus and yet not earn enough or do enough to make our paymasters happy...... oooooohhhhh... we are indeed in a pickle huh??

Imagine, wife says "dear... lets get naughty"... and you are hunched over the workstation trying to complete the darn report by tomorrow or your ang mo boss who does nothing at work will be angry... "Not tonight dear... got work to finish".... Even if you wanted to be naughty, she will most probably say that she is too tired because she has had a tiring day running after your little one because child care is way too expensive.... Seems like a vicious cycle huh?

But still, I actually have it quite easy lah... At least I will not get any ahem ahem even if I do not have any work to do and am really feeling randy and robust... hehehehe... Isn't it a coincidence??? But hey... why the hell do I care because I am always too tired anyway.

However, in being tired, I find that going home and being with my family makes me feel so much more alive and happy. It is tiring to run after the little monster, but then she is such a beautiful little monster. And it makes me feel very happy and secure to be home in a place where I can be myself and talk to a person who understands me and cares for me like my wife.

I am blessed.

How not to bring up your children

2011-01-13T22:10:00.000-08:00

Through the recent years, I have been bemoaning the upbringing of the younger generation here. From kids who come from families so rich that they are given exotic or powderful cars even before they turn 18 to kids who do illegal things and their parents condone it. Please let this madness stop... They are our future and if things turn out this way, I would rather not have such a future. So many children, teenagers are so spoilt rotten that they do not even consider about anything other than themselves. In their lives, they think that the whole world owes them and not the other way around.

Just take the example of a kid who posted on twitter his exam papers and instead of being repentant,now posts that he is driving his mom's company cars without a license. As a parent, I would be incensed. Yea... maybe he will inherit the business one day and he does not have to worry about his future. But then lets face it, right is right and wrong is wrong. When my monster does something wrong, she gets it from me and my wife. No matter how cute she is. When she throws a tantrum, we make sure she learns not to do so again or we will be very angry. When she bangs things or drags things that makes noise that will irritate others, we stop her in her tracks. Why??? It is because of the simple fact that we do not want someone else to do the same thing to me.

Now, if this mother allows her rather ugly son to do as he wishes, then one day, if something happens to him, he crashes into someone or gets himself killed, she will rue the day she ever was so lax on him. And it is true for all parents. The kid who crashed into the taxi driver and killed him, he may not be repentant now, but one day, he will have to pay for it. Just like the idiot who killed the Mazda sales girl, he is now a criminal and will not be able to get a license for the next 9 plus years. If course he can drive without a license or plan for the day he can get his license and his parents can get him another powderful car, but hey, if he crashes and this time kills himself, doing justice for society, his parents will be jolly sad...

Ladies and gentlemen, it is still not too late to repent. It is still not too late to bring your kids back into the fold and to teach them proper values. In this society where money talks and walks, money is not everything.

2011

2011-01-06T17:54:00.000-08:00

No I will not say that 2012 is getting closer and besides, it is the end of 2012 that we have to be worried about, so we have another almost 2 whole years. But in a way, I look back at 2010 and look forward to 2011 and have a sense of almost bewilderment. My kid will be 2 this year... my god!!! has it been that long? This year, we will give her a cake and candles to blow out, not because we feel a need to do so, but I feel that we should celebrate 2 years of her life. She is now a really cute young lady. I will post some pics and vids as and when time avails.

I spent 3 weeks in Japan and it was such an experience. Being with your family is a nice thing to do. I do not understand how or why some people will want to find love outside of their families because it is all there for you. My kid was kinda strange with me on the first day. Maybe because she was used to being with her mom alone in Osaka, but by the second day, she was as happy as a monkey drinking rum and happily playing with old daddy. I do mean that I am an old daddy because if I need to run after her, I will usually ask my wife to do the running.

But she has grown so much through the year. In Dec 2009, she could barely crawl and was able to respond to stimulus, but not in any intelligent manner. Now she is running around and she is showing her ability to understand things both said and unsaid. And she is damned smart, when she knows that she has done wrong and I am pissed off, she will run to her mom, but then she gets it from the mom because as parents, we agree only to be together on all decisions. We do not disagree on anything, especially on how our child should be brought up. This is actually good because we have actually seen how one party tries to be the nice guy or is the nice guy while the other is the stricter one or worse if both are strict or nice. We try to align ourselves to her behaviour and ensure that across the board, she does not do anything wrong and or bad.

How this new year will unfold for us? I really have no idea. For me, I am not afraid of the future as it is still unkown and also undecided. It can be anything I want it to be. It can be as good as I want it to be, or it can be as bad as I want it to be. Even for a bad situation, it can be good if I look at it in a postive way or it can be the worse thing that has ever happened.

Well, good luck to everyone and I wish all a Happy 2011

Taking a long deserved break

2010-12-23T05:47:00.000-08:00

I'm in Osaka now taking a long break with my family. I guess that its been a long and hard year and it will be another hard and long year next year. But hey, we're all gonna die in 2012, so its ok.... if the shit doesn't end nxt yr... it will still end the yr after next right? Now that is what I call being positive.... hehehehehe

Anyway, like I was saying, its gonna be a hard year next year because my company just merged with another company and also because we will see new changes in management and so on. But you know something? (No I will not mention 2012 again)... it really doesn't matter. With or without a job, I will still have to survive and I have been surviving since a long time ago. The only thing is that now, with a family, things do get a bit more dicey as I am now responsible for more people. But like I said, I am always open to throwing people into the deep end of the pool to make sure they survive. I will not be mean to my family, but I will also not be too nice.

And as for my other family, the headaches will never cease, so I will not even bother to mention it anymore.... I will just take it like a bad dream and just pretend that things are all well over there and if not well, who the hell cares.

We went back to wifey's home town of Akita... It was cold!!! 2 degrees C in daytime.... that is colder than some freezers man... I was in hog heaven because I love the cold. But it was a bit too cold in the nights. Coming back to Osaka, where the temperature is a more agreeable 14 degrees C, it almost seems like living in heaven. That is why I really do not want to go back.

But I still have a life back in Sg... sob sob sob... My really good friend in Thailand did ask me to go back and work with him when I was there just before I came to Osaka. But the big problem is that I still face the same problems I had many years ago, when I was there... the pay may be good if I were living there... but it would not afford my living in any other places.

I have said many times before, you have to make your own little heaven in no matter which hell you are in. I do hope that all of you take heart and do have a great Christmas and Happy New Year.

Life is so strang sometimes

2010-11-29T16:50:00.000-08:00

You know, whenever I come online, it is only to complain and it is really not a good thing. Last week, the energizer rabbit called and asked for $100 because she wanted to play mahjong. I could not go anywhere as I was getting my car fixed. Then today she called and asked for another 50bucks. In life, if we have none, we try not to spend it. That is the law of life. But seems like our friend is stuck in a blackhole and there is no time for her. She even wants to go to Bangkok with her friends and so on and guess who will foot the bill?? In the end, she will then say that she does not spend money... But her weekly mahjong sessions, in which I am pretty sure she is losing, her outings and so on, all needs money. And the thing is, this hell will just go on and on and on... till the day she pops..... I will not wish for when as this is bad karma.

But seriously, it is getting ridiculous as she uses at least 150 a week on her silly tradional chinese medicine and then her mahjong and that is a lot of money. Yet she can claim that she does not have any money and does not spend any money.... wow..... no wonder the government is so afraid of our aging population.

But on the bright side, I will be leaving soon.... I will be going to Thailand to train some people and then hop on a flight to Osaka and be wif my family. They are my only joy in life now. Even my monster is growing well and she is now talking... but making no sense whatsoever. And it is a joy to go home and be with them. It may be tiring, but in it is the feeling of belonging to somewhere and someone.

Of course I will also try not to spoil my monster and therefore will keep her in check. She is a really willful and really daring little girl. She will even go into a dark room by herself and not be afraid. And when we go out, she will even walk by herself in her own direction. Call it daddy's pride, but I feel that she will grow up just fine.

We really live in a wierd country

2010-11-08T23:59:00.000-08:00

I was actually around the neighbourhood where they had the "bomb" scare, (near my office) and it was really a non incident. Why do I say it, the smoke was damned thin and it looked more like some idiot may have left his cigerette lit in his car... Only a really busybody will go and have a look and then report to the police..... But then coming from a country where we thought someone being hacked to death (RIP) was a halloween trick..... So what can we say... some more... if we anyhow report police, dial 999, and it was not something important... we would have a really friendly visit by the police after that.... Is it worth it?

So as you can see, we do live in a wierd country. Where caring is past and we are also past caring.

1 in 10 Sillyporeans Obese wor....

2010-11-07T21:37:00.000-08:00

I am one of them and do you know what??? It doesn't matter to me!!! Its not that I like being fat or unhealthy, but the issue is that how can I be healthy enough to exercise and eat properly when I am being worked to the bone, crushed by work and yet have to go home and help to look after my baby? Of course, people can say..."You only need to work out 15-30mins a day!"... Yea right... if I had 15 or 30-mins, I would love to use the time to exercise when I could be sleeping or shitting, which I find is a much more comforting endeavour than sweating and pounding it out.

And the very fact of being fat and unhealthy then brings into mind an oxy moron or a paradox, how can we live longer and work till later if we are not being healthy? Chicken and egg mah.... Imagine working till we are 68..(the question is whether we can live till then or not hor) and then having to work (being competitive and also the best at what we do) and then having a family and then having whatever else.... Holy shite... really do not want to live much longer man!!!!

Imagine Mr. A, who has to hold his job down, work till late, then go home and his wife shoves him his child because they are too stingy or poor to afford a maid... He looks after the "bundle of joy" till his wife has finished her daily beauty regime, with her facial and her whatever shite... (it takes a bloody long time hor) and she is now fresh and happy to take over the baby... Then it is the poor guy's turn to do his thing..... By that time, it is past midnight and the ghost of sleep beckons.... and then he wakes up at 7 to go to work because the CTE is always jammed and his boss decided to have an office where parking is a bitch.... Then he works till he is half dead. And what does the gahmen want him to do??? Work till he is really dead!!!

Oh yea... to top it all off... even if he dies.. his CPF may not come back to him hor.... Haizzzzz... what a life we all live..... And some more the girls all want 5C's.... yea... like I can be bothered to even give half a C when she can't give him anything in return.

Chuckles.....

Shit happens, though it is not supposed to..

2010-11-07T20:00:00.000-08:00

I will not stand here on a moral high horse and talk about how the recent mix up in samples caused the wrong child to be placed with the wrong parents. I will also not stand here and debate the rights or wrongs of IVF or AR. These are forums to be left for others.

But one thing is that instead of pointing fingers are finding out who to lynch, I personally feel that the most important thing when something goes wrong is to sit down and think about how and where we go from here. It is like this weekend, my baby had the worst weekend and by default so did we. She fell from almost everything she sat on, came out with a few bruises and even a broken lip... So do I point the finger at my wife and say that she ahs not been doing here job? I will also have a part to blame in this episode too... right?

So as mentioned before, how do we go forward? And like I also said, "Shit happens". It breaks my heart to see my child cry or hurt, but in a way, we have to allow them to get hurt to learn. Just like my kid loves to pull put drawers and slam them back... Well, she slammed and clamped her fingers a few times... If she don learn that it hurts, then she will bloody well slam till she learns that it is 1) Stupid to slam things... 2) It is also painful if you slam your own fingers... Call me a bad dad maybe? But then it is the only thing to do, for even if you say "NO!!!" till you are blue, if she does not understand, then she will never understand.

Anyways, so back to pointing fingers. We should have a systemetic and cool approach of how problems should be handled and how they can be faced.

Hello....ween

2010-10-31T19:41:00.001-07:00

Well it is an American tradition and I really have no idea why we wanna dress up like ghosts and ghouls when we already have enough traditions of our own. Perhaps some people feel that it is fun for the children, but for me, I feel that it is just another way or excuse to waste money and time. We were a British colony, not an American plant, so why do we have to adopt every western thing that comes by?

Anyways, I am really burnt out. At work, its been really busy and once home, I have not been able to be slack too. I try to help my wife in looking after the baby, so that she will feel at least less stressed. We refuse to have a maid as having things easy is only an excuse. If our parents can look after us without maids, we will jolly well try to do so without maids too.

Anyways... will post longer when am more free.

Oh great... things are getting more expensive again.

2010-10-25T21:29:00.000-07:00

It is actually a vicious cycle, things go well, people start to spend and this spending starts to reduce excess capacity and therefore the price goes up. But as the prices go up, people start to ramp down on their spendings and this in turn affects the businesses and thus pushes things into another downturn.

There was an article that now inflation is around 3.7%... Really??? No joke??? Are you sure??? What can we buy for $10 now? I remember a long time ago during my very mentally troubled youth, $10 could still buy a lot of things... Now, if you give a kid $10... the kid will say,"Uncle... save your money lah...." So how much is the true inflation today? How much can we buy for the amount we still have? People are not getting richer and especially the sandwiched generation who earn enough that they are not considered poor and therefore have no safety net. These are the ones who are really suffering nowadays. You may say, "Waaaaaahhhh you earn $3k ah.... coooollll"... But like the little kid who asked you to save your money, the girl you are interested will also say don waste your time. It can't buy you a house or a car and these are 2 of the important "c"s that they want.

Even if you earn 10k, it is not really a big thing. For some of course it will be a big thing, but seriously the spending power of average joe is really getting smaller.. But of course my little energizer does not understand such terms. She is like the forever ongoing bull market... Everything is fine and dandy and great.... (sighsssssssss>)

So anyways, ERP is going up.... Just like COE is going up..... prices are going up...... might as well think seriously about opening up a bread shop because I am sure that to save money, people will have to start to love eating bread. Nothing wrong with bread, but have you seen the ridiculous prices of some of our sandwiches????? And also I had such a bad experience at BK last weekend. Ordered a large ice tea, the server tried to flog off a medium coke... and when I tasted it, it was so sweet an ant will have an immediate orgasm and die on the spot. Then the sausages patty was so over cooked that it looked like the shrivelled lungs of a smoker who does 40 sticks a day.... it did not taste much better though.

And to top off the whole experience, when I brought the drink back to the counter, no one even tried to placate me with another drink. Not that I am that desperate for a drink that can make an ant orgas and die on the spot though.

Anyway.... I am really getting tired of all this shit... You get shit service, you are treated like shit.... but don worry, I do not think that I am shit... hehehehehe

My baby is a big girl

2010-10-24T20:36:00.000-07:00

This is the newest vid of my little girl. She brings tears of joy and thoughts of bewilderment when I see her each day. How did she turn out to be like that? She now does not drink milk from a bottle and wants to feed herself. She is a happy child who is quick to laugh and smile, as long as she has enough sleep and also to eat... I am contented.

My Baby is growing

2010-10-10T22:41:00.000-07:00

Here are the latest pics of my monster. How she has grown in the few months I have not seen her. I guess that this is the time where the most changes happen and if youare not there to be a part of it, then you will most probably never have the chance again. But in a way, as adults, there are times when we have to make certain sacrifices. Not for drama and or whatever, but for the sake of the family as a whole.

That is why sometimes I really get very fed up when people do things they know they should not do and or do not think when they do certain things.

Anyways, I had a really tiring weekend. I guess I was already building up to a burn out, so I slept mostly on the weekend and really took things easy. I even fell asleep really early last night and only woke up at 7. But I know I was snoring a lot becoz I had such a sore throat when I woke up. That is not a good thing as now I really have to worry about sleep apnea. But then again, we will all die one day, so I am not afraid of dying.

Not like my energizer rabbit who is so afraid of death and yet does not know how to enjoy life. I guess that when you are weak psychologically, you are really never gonna be happy. I told her how unlucky I was this year and she said that she was even more unlucky... When I told this to my wife, my wife could not decide whether to be angry or to be surprised. My energizer has already lived through cancer not once but twice!!! She has already been to Europe not once but twice!!! She has nothing to worry about except when to be hungry or sleepy. Yet she still insists on going to her traditional chinese medicine and paying at least 100 bucks a week!!! Imagine how much more money she will have if she does not spend so much? And in the end, who suffers? It is us, we have to save more so that she can have more. But of course, in so saying, I am liable to be listed as a bad child. And most probably the gahmen will also look badly on this. Hey man, I had my power stopped last week because when the Singapore Power tried to do a Giro, I did not have sufficient funds in the flipping Giro account and they did not tell me that Giro did not go though. I am living on hand and mouth each month with the usual worries about where can I stretch each buck. Baby needs to be fed, wife needs to live and I also need to provide. And yet I manage to do so almost every month. Not like some people who just take and take and take. And yet the gahmen is not helping us. My taxes grew by 100% this year. From 300 plus to 600 plus... So in the end, almost 1k of my salary goes into such unseen things... Damn it is expensive to live in Sg.

Well enough of raging on... It is like throwing yourself at a brick wall, it will not work out. I just hope that seriously things will change for the better and that my bad luck does not affect my wife and child too much.

Can you live without the person you love??

2010-10-04T22:48:00.000-07:00

This question is a wierd one no doubt, but for married couples who have been together for years and years and each beign the pillar for the other, what will happen when one leaves? For my energizer rabbit, she has never really loved anyone but herself. Of course she truly loves my father or she would not have devoted her life to him, but in a way, it is also a question of how much more you love yourself.

I asked myself this question over and over. What will happen if I were left in this world without my wife or baby. They are my world and life and so to carry on without them will be unthinkable. But with life being so fragile, death is only a stone's throw away. People die of diseases, accidents and so on, so what if??

I think that I will be very lonely, I may carry on, but I will not die just because they have died. It is a difficult concept, but being the head of a family, not only of my own but also of my father's has made me really cold. It is like the docu-drama on Discovery channel, where the family of Cpt Phil Harris is struggling to continue and the eldest son has to balance between his duty to the father and family and also being the son. It is difficult. The others blame him for not shedding tears and not being emotional and yet if he is, then the whole family will falter. And I guess it will be the same for most other sons or eldest born. To them goes the most difficult task and the most painful task. Bringing the family forward, changing and also growing up really fast. For if they do not do so, then the whole family goes.

I can cook, clean and live my life. In fact now, I am also living a life mostly without my family. It is not through a whim of fancy, but a calculated move for the future. My sis says that she wants to send her son overseas, well...isn't it similar to my experience? But she will never do it because she treasures them too much... and in the end, may stiffle their ability to grow. Her eldest may want to become the leader of his pack, but then again, he is definitely not ready... For me, I will teach my baby to be independant and to be able to cope by herself. Now she is dependant on her mom, but one day, she will be alone.

So can you live without the person you love? If you say "yes", then you are not loving the person enough.

Of life and death

2010-10-04T01:29:00.001-07:00

These few days, I have been watching really touching movies and documentaries. A movie was by Matsu Takako, in which she lost her daughter and the other was the documentary on Discovery channel. Death is all around us, the moment we start our lives, we are just heading for death. There is no escape. But how you live or die is completely up to you. You may be born into wealth or poverty, but how these conditions change, will also change you and how you adapt to it will also be a change.

I do feel sad when I see death, no one shoudl feel happy. But then again, whether the person who goes leaves behind a whole lot of shit or a lot of wealth is another thing altogether.

Mrs. Lee, the wife of the MM has also passed away. RIP.... RIP...

But then again, the living should go on living and go on to make their owns lives. Just like my own Energizer Rabbit, I have to be ready for her passing also. Whether it is soon or it will be blue moons later, it doesn't matter. It is only a matter of when and how. But to be frank, I do hope that it is a sudden and unforeseen one as this should make it easier for my sis to handle. If it is a prolonged and painful death, then seriously my sister will spend all she has just to try and make things better. But the thing is, I am cold and emotionless at times and I feel that the living should have a chance to live. Not to spend everything we have on someone who is old and has already enjoyed a good life. But then again, that is just me I guess.

Ahhhh memories

2010-09-07T18:47:00.000-07:00

You know, I was called a grandfather just yesterday.. It was actually an attempt by a fren to sorta protect me bcoz there are a few frens who like to egg people for races... And I am not one to race, especially drag... It is only once in a while that I will even consider.. So my fren said "Do not tell grandfathers how to suckly milk, we have been doing it longer than you have".... Hmmm... so I am a grandad... Just after my baby daughter is born... interesting.

Anyway, I read somewhere that the army is changing its training policies... interesting.... During my time, which was slightly after the cruel initial years of NS and not quite the same paradise as now.... it was really tough... Initially, my greatest fear was for Road marches (flat foot mah) and SOC.... Dang... imagine walking for 24km when you are as flat footed as a duck..... But you know something... after 2 and a half years, it does not seem so scary anymore... Even the SOC is not so scary anymore... You run 50m.... clear 11 obstacles and then run another 600m to the end point with your tongue and other parts dragging on the ground. And you are supposed to finish it in 9minutes.... yeaaaa... right.... Here's my take on the 11 obstacles.

1) Low wall (1.83m): In Hokkien terms.... Long piak.... "ram into wall"... hey I am short.... With only 1.55m.... how the hell am I gonna climb over a 1.8m wall... Some more... so many goondoos have jumped off from the same place that there are depressions where you jump... so it is no more 1.83m.... I swear!!!!....

2) Parallel Bars: Pant pant gasp gasp.... now 2nd obstacle.... Again... for the height disadvantaged... just getting onto the bars is an obstacle in itself..... "Quick... give me a stool"...kekekeke.... But it was easy once you were on because all you needed to do was to lock your elbows and just slide your hands down the bars..... The only gud thing I never had to complain about was that the bars were spaced too far apart... Maybe because by that time, there would not be many fat soldiers and so the bars could be closer in....hwehhehehehe

3) Stepping board: That was easy lah... jus step on a board and jump over some barb wire.... and since the course was used so often and goondoos fell into it quite often, the barb wire was quite flat anyway... But then the issue was dat the length of the jump was quite difficult for a short guy with short legs....

4) Swing trainer: I call them the monkey bars..... Old uncle here is a monkey... so no problem lah... but by the time I had done the first 2 obstacles and since it used a lot of arm power.... my arms would be more like rubber bands already.

5) Low rope (3.5m): Yea right.... It was never 3.5m and also I am only 1.5m tall.... 3m is already nosebleed thin air territory for me man... But the good thing was that the rope was thick and having something nice thick and long in between your legs...... uuuummmmmmmmm

6) Horizontal Beam: Dats a set of zig zag beams a few metre above the ground... Youare dizzy... gasping for breath and now you have to climb and walk???? But since I am not afraid of heights... it was ok.... jus don't miss or you will fall.... hehehehe

7) Swinging Bridge: Thats the one where the bridge is suspended and you run on it and cross it... The secret is to not go while someone else is on it.... Some sissies will even put a foot out to stop the bridge from swaying first.... But for me... already half dead liao.... who gives a heck....

8) Balancing log... Thats where there is a horizontal log around belly height (chest height for me) and you are supposed to crawl over it.. I literally ooze over it because my dragging tongue is already lubricating the pole... But seriously it is not that bad lah.

9) The gate.... another really silly obstacle in which there is 2 poles, you climb over the top pole and then use the bottom pole to hold and jump down... Not too bad lah....

10) Jacobs ladder: Man this is scary... where you have to walk up a set of logs formed into a pyramid and walk down... You are already tired, dizzy and almost half dead... miss one step and you fall through or worse.... get stuck... hehehehe

11) The ramp.... where you run up a slope and over a dead drop wall and some barb wire.... The important thing is to get as much air time as possible.... but for me.... bouncing into barb wire will be nothing new.... hehehehe

Then it is 600m of pure sprint to the end...... with your tongue dragging on the ground.... your arms also dragging because they are already too tired.... and oh yea.... we did it with the harness they call the SBO and helmet and rifle.... so it wasn't easy... But doing it often enough makes one not fear it... It was more of a hassle.... hehehehe... but life was much harder last time man....

A lot of China pilots use falsified resume wor....

2010-09-07T01:46:00.001-07:00

Hey, if we go through with the nuclear power plants, we will surely glow in the dark.. After all, the company which will win the tender will be the most expensive and yet charge us a bomb for the power and also use the cheapest labour to build it and run it... So if a China man comes with a Harvard Phd in nuclear physics, we gotta be careful liao.... It is just like SBS and SMRT who hire bus captains (the drivers lah) who can barely speak English well enough to communicate with the passengers... So if something happens and a complex series of instructions in English is issued to alleviate and impending leak of nuclear radiation... Mr. False resume will most probably not be up to the par... Man we are really gonna glow in the dark.

Actually it is also better lah... we glow and we will not use money on power... hehehehe....

But seriously folks, it is always the case of trying to be something you are not. You or your frens or a 100 other people may get away with it, but one day, in the end, someone will get caught and the whole stack of cards will fall. It is like people who see themselves are car gods or race gods and vrooommmm down the street and veer in and out of lanes... They will one day get into trouble and they will have to bear the consequences. If you do not know what you are doing, you better not pretend to know lor...

So take the scenario of the falsified resumes..."Er.. Mr. X... Have you flown a wide body aircraft before?"
"Yea.... If a bus is a wide body aircraft".....
"Hmmmm... I hope he was joking"..."but his resume puts that he has"..."Ok Mr. X... welcome to the YYYAir Company"

Then on the first day of training.... Mr X goes "Dang... this thing is BIG!!!" "Hmmm lets see... where is the gear stick ah???" (The other pilot will also be going..."I hope he is joking") But history has proven that being a pilot does not need any qualification... Look at the character that Leo De Caprio palyed in "Catch me if you can"... The guy was self taught..... Dang.... we are gonna glow in the dark....,.

WTF!!??

2010-08-26T22:25:00.000-07:00

Yea.... I get that all the time..... I got home from a really tiring work trip to KL. I was having stomach problems and my left foot had just suddenly decided to swell up and be painful... I knew that my energizer rabbit went to my home the day before and I entered with quite a lot of trepidation... Goodness knows what she did... and then I saw it..... "Dope"!!! not again... She had thrown almost 2litres of oil I had in my deep fryer..... I immediately called her up and asked her 2 questions.... 1) Why did she throw the oil away!!??? Which she said it looked dirty... uuuhhhh... the non stick fryer is black... how wud she know and the bloody oil was only used once!!!!! Aaarrrggghhhheeeeeeedddd!!! And then I knew I shouldn't have asked.. but I had to.... 2) How did she get rid of the oil??? Which she said she jus poured it into the sink!!!!! Holy mother of the sacred cow!!! If the sink got stuck, I wud not only have wasted money on the oil, but a plumber to come and clear the clog.... That is why, I am really appreciative of my energizer trying to help... But help she is not doing.

It was like the other day when she came and started to complain that the wicks I was using for my Buddha's lamp was old... I saw her trying to light the darn thing and then putting it into the wick holder... Of course it will not burn properly unless it were innundated by oil in the first place... So as you can see, she is not using her brains and yet still hopes that she is being of help. Let me be the first one to say this ok... If one day we find her at the bottom of my flat or someone else's please do not say that I have been mistreating her or someone else has ok? She is demented and is having Alzheimer's... Her brain is not functioning anymore. Imagine throwing away 2 litres of oil!! And jus down the sink... though she claims to have used hot water... it will not be effective if she is not careful.

So if she is at my place or some other high rise places and she decides to go downstairs... at the present moment she is still able to remember that she has to use the lift... but there will come a day when she will just jump down in order to go down... After all, her brain is not functioning any more.. And for those who wish to dispute this fact, let her live with you for a few days... and you will find out the extent of her "disability" It is easy to criticize... but hey... when you are living with someone who doesn't use her brains... it is worse than living with the reincarnated zombie of Ahmun Ra...

Free Food???

2010-08-22T23:02:00.001-07:00

I have to step into the fray too as I feel that we have grown too spoilt for our own good. There was a recent article about a food blogger who demanded free food after enjoying a buffet for 4, inclusive of his 3 frens... Hey... who the hell are we? Are we so miserable that we have to ask for free food?

This is the amazing thing I feel I really cannot understand about my fellow countrymen. Why do we feel so great about ourselves when we are actually just a small speck in the great big ocean? Compared to a lot of other countries, we are actually very small. Not many of our local talents have become legends overseas and our brands are also pretty insignificant in the global setting. So who the hell are we??? I think that if the blogger was even employed by the Michellin group to give his views of food, he would demand free travel just to go to a restaurant!!!

And in the end, who is the ne laughing? Outside people looking in and saying what idiots we are... Small little fries or flies trying to be smart... But how many of us are actually smart and how many are actually socially smart? Look at it this way, we try to bully everyone else, but we are such chicked when the chips are down. We try to blast and blow, huff and puff but in the end, we get no where... So who the hell are we? I do not post this in a cynical way, it is just a ponderance of our insignificance and yet our yearn to be someone we just are not. For me, I would like to be Mr. Nobody and Mr. Nothing and not be in the limelight. For being in the limelight may not be such a great thing.

Here we go again...

2010-08-19T23:15:00.000-07:00

You know something dear readers?? Its kinda strange that we have to have a gahmen campaign to do something... Remember in the old days???? Courtesy campaign... Road safety campaign and all the jazz... And what do we have in the end????

1) Courtesy campaign: Yea... since the 70's with the lion, how much more courteous are we? Oh yea... maybe the new citizens did not go through the campaign so we are almost as bad as where we started.

2) Road safety Campaign: Now I do not think we even have it... but hey who cares??? If one is killed, we will just jail the driver and import someone else... no los mah... and if the driver is influential or rich, he can drag the case for years and then get a soft slap on the wrist like several idiotic drivers who have caused other road user's lives...

3) Savings Campaign: Oh yea... don let me start on that man.. I still remember being forced to buy stamps and so on and open POSB accounts.... now... if u don have $500 minimum balance, u get charged till in the end, the account is closed... So much for saving hor... I don even have money to eat at the end of the month.... seriously....

4) Speak Mandarin campaign: Yea... now ask or speak to any kid who is 5 and above and he will not be able to speak his native dialect well... He will also not be very good in his second language but for some great fluke of nature, they will be able to speak like an American or some other ang moh... even though they have never lived abroad!!!!

So now there will be a new campaign... Get married campaign.... Yea right...... First of all... lets break down the cost.... those poor sods have to pay their study loans.... try to get a job (and with their unrealistic expectations, they are in for a sad surprise)... Then dating... have to pay for every damn thing.... go out to eat and so on... money grows on trees in Sillypore lah... The girls also have unrealistic expectations of god knows how many c's and the guys expect the girls to also have at least 1 c...a "C" cup... so the distractions carry one....

Then if they do decide to get married, they gotta have a wedding ceremony where all the relatives want to have their say on who comes and who does not come and what to eat and where to have it... It may even turn ugly sometimes... Then there is the payment... who the hell is gonna pay for 100 tables??? Sell your butt in Changi for the rest of your productive years also not enough to pay back... Every lim ah kau and tan ah ter will bring their goldfish, grandaunts and whoever the hell they think want to have a good meal and only give u $50!!!!

After marriage... now deeply in debt... both have to work like hell to make enough money to pay off the debts.... Husband comes home late... wife is too tired... So the break down of the family begins as the couple drifts apart... If they shot gun and have a kid... even worse things will happen.... Still in debt... now they have to sell all their furniture to pay a doctor to look after the pregnancy and deliver the kid..... Then after that, the clothes... diapers... milk... and all that shit.... (Oh yea... u may be asking.. where the hell are the parents??? Well to be frank... they have either run away or they have already been sent to old folks homes to prevent any further headaches to the selfish couple)...

So now the couple is even more deeply in debt and up shit creek without a paddle.... We have not gone into the toys, the schooling and so on hor... And guess what... All we get is a campaign hor... not money... not assistance nothing hor.... Haizzzz.... what a wierd place we live in... and like I said... here we go again.......

Tired like I don't know what..!!

2010-08-17T19:51:00.000-07:00

My aircon has been on the fritz for the past 3 nights now and I have been slowly gettin back to my roots... Hey I was born of a normal family and there were a lot of luxuries that I did not enjoy till a much later date. I am of course not afraid to say it as there is no shame in saying such things. It is only because now Sg is such that people always want to look like they are better than others that saying things like we were normal people seems like a bad thing. Of course, there are some who will purposely say that they had a simple and probably normal upbringing to ensure that they hit a note with the "normal" people, but hey... please do not think we are all stupid.... I will not name names or point fingers lah... But it is true... with the new generation of young ones, I am sure that not many are able to withstand hardship. Though they may pretend to be able to do so and or they may say that they can, but hey... like I said.. me no stupid.

Well beack to my story, so I carted in all the fans I have in my place and made do with what I could... That is what a "normal" person would do mah.... right? And I am waiting for the repair guys to come and have a look and then see if they can fix it and how much it will cost. I will not ask them to make an emergency trip just to fix my aircon as that will incur extra cost.... and for what?? I will not melt and die.

But it is interesting to see how far we have come and how difficult it is to go back to where we came from. During my young days, we all shared a common TV... so daddy was the one who decided what we should watch and when we should watch. Nowadays, the young ones have their own tvs in their room!!!! And also their own air con and so on.... By all rights, most parents do not think about how by giving their children everything, they are actually setting their children for a fall... Imagine one who has never ever.... ever had to do anything hard.... How do you expect them to be able to survive? They were brought up to be the first and they are used to being the first...in the end.. if they are not? Like my fengshui master mentioned.... he knows of a client who was rich beyond imagination and he lost it all. His daughter went nuts when it happened because she was so used to all the comforts... So ladies and gentlemen... please do not mistake the real world for the reel world or some lala land make believe world. You gotta be able to survive when the chips are down and you are faced with a straight flush when you are holding on to a four card pair. It is when you are at your bottom that you can say that you are a survivor and not "in theory" I can survive....

Hmmmm why my luck so bad ah???

2010-08-15T21:06:00.000-07:00

Maybe I used up all my luck for the conception and birth of my monster, but I have been really unlucky lately. It is not the type of ill fortune that will kill a person, but it is more the type of ill fortune where the sufferer will most likely wish he were dead...

Not a joke my good friends, let me tell you about the things that have been happening and you can make your own decision. Since the beginning of this year, my luck has been really bad and things have not gone smoothly. Some idiot loan sharks painted my doorway, but I was't the guy who borrowed the money. It was a few doors down, deeper into the corridor. I called the cops and they said they would send someone down, but did not do so. I had to go to the police post in order to lodge my police report. And to top it off, the cop who interviewed me said that it was most probably because I was living near the lift lobby and they needed to paint someone there so that anyone coming out of the lift will know that someone did not pay money.... Well my only gripe is that why the bloody flaming F can someone be so stupid? But then again, they are already stupid to borrow from a loan shark from the very beginning.

In the end, a few weeks ago, I bought industrial strength solvent to get rid of the splashes because I have already painted over the red areas... (not completely) and now just have some paint spots on the ground and a little more touch up to do. The industrial strength solvent is so strong that when it was placed on my plastic table top, the color on the table top started to run and the plastic warp.... And guess what??? When I opened the can and pried open the lid, there was a loud pop!! And the thing went into my eyes..... I ran straight for the kitchen tap... banging into the kitchen doorway and did a pinball.. banging here and there and then finally reached the tap..... It really hurt.

Then another few weeks ago, I found a nail in my tire... Luckily it was found in time and the patch was cheap... My tires cost 300plus each..... dang sports cars..... So I lucked out on that because I managed to get it patched cheaper.

Then again, I lost both my marriage band and my lucky ring... Not at the same time, but on different occasions.... I usually put then on when I leave and when I get back, I take them off and put them on the dresser.... So in theory, to lose them will be quite difficult....

Then 2 weeks ago.... while driving... I found my aircon in the car really hot and had to top up the gas... That is like the 4th time I topped up aircon gas in the 2yrs I had my car.... Somethng is definitely wrong!!!

And last night... both air cons in my home went haywire.... I am hoping that it is gas because if not, I will not be able to afford any new stuff... Why is it like that ah????

Its kinda funny

2010-08-10T21:22:00.000-07:00

Our country is really damn funny. We need foreign talents however it is difficult to get in and also even if you do get in, you will find a lot of descrimination. Why?? Because my family's application has taken over 4 months and we are still waiting Do I have a problem with money?? Not really lei.... But never mind, all the other things aside, I was just thinking of a possible scenario....

As it has been splashed in the newspapers, we may go nuclear... Yea right... I just hope that the utility bills will go down. We are getting more self sufficient in water... because we are drinking shit water... and yet our water price is shit high.... then if we go nuclear, with such a small country, if there is any accident, we will all start to glow in the dark and not need any more lights..... hmmm maybe that is the idea from the start.

Hey... who will be manning the consoles? FT's who do not speak speak English.... Just like the bus drivers who can't even explain where their routes are... So the chance of an accident??? Pretty damn high... If there is an accident, we all just glow in the dark lor.... Haizzzzz....

You know... sometimes I just wonder... Why........

Much ado about nothing

2010-07-22T18:34:00.000-07:00

Actually I am just amazed at the way some Sillyporeans think. When shit hits the fan, someone must be blamed. Someone must take the fall. Take for example, if lets say a company is about to close down, the staff will scream bloody murder and ask what the company can do for them, it is not the other way around where we ask, how can we help to keep the company afloat.

Talking about floating, it is such a joke when everyone has to come in with a word on the recent floods.... We have been having floods all our lives.... Remember Paya Lebar??? It is low lying and is prone to flooding... So many cars got stuck there. Yet it is only when Orchard Road and other seemingly pristine places get flooded that people want heads to roll. Well.... FYI... with global warming, the sea levels will rise and guess what??? Sillypore will be under water anyway.... We are actually pretty lucky in the sense that we do not have any hurricanes, earthquakes and or other natural disasters.... So it is like... even in a black out... people will call the police... Hey.. I have been to earthquake prone places and I can say that it is an earth shaking experience.. hehehehe

So the big thing is not whose head will roll, but what can we do to get things better? That is the main thing. Just like a deer on a road staring at an oncoming car... Will it just stand there and go... "oh shit car coming!!!"? or try to avoid and or run away.... Haizzzzz... sometimes.... they jus have their heads stuck up really wierd places....

Life and Death

2010-07-15T19:17:00.000-07:00

I've been having bad migrains for the past few days. I have them once in a while... like every few months and when it happens, I can't really do anything about it. But then the stakes are also much higher now with my monster and family depending on me. A sudden fear actually struck me that maybe my brain tumours came back though both were benign. What will happen if something bad came back? A lot of times, people will ask me what will happen to my family or what will they do? But for me, I am a practical guy. I do not want to burden them. I will want to go as soon as I can to spare them any more pain. Pain from seeing me suffer and having to pay to see my life extended. Maybe it is just me.

But that is life and that is death. Monster came into my room this morning and was looking for me.... She is really noisy when she crawls, so I know she is coming in. Sometimes she will also make noise of excitment and we know that she is wanting to play. In many ways, I look back and thank god and all above for giving me this opportunity to have such a period of happiness. I can and will go happy.

For me, I have no fear for death and as mentioned, I have seen death so many times. I am not afraid of the beyond, be it in hell or be it in a place where there is nothing. It is a new existence. I guess that is just me. But seriously folks, just be happy with what you have and be satisfied. I am truly happy and satisfied now.

"Mommy, Daddy are we rich?"

2010-07-13T18:12:00.000-07:00

That was a topic of conversation on the news lately. What will you do if your child throws a tantrum and asks for the latest Iphone? Or the smallest laptop? What happens if they ask why are we driving only 1 car or live in a HDB?

My answer to them will be that we are bloody poor!!! We do not have anything and if they want something just because it is cool or because they are being laughed at for not having it. Just like my monster now, she wears hand me downs and as much as possible, we do not spend too much on her. We can buy her all kinds of games and all kinds of toys... But knowing her, she will only get tired of it in a short while. Do I feel any worse off not having a condo? Do I feel any lower than other Sillyporeans? No I do not think so. I am able to afford what I can afford, give what I can give and love where I can love. I can say that it is the intrinsics that makes us rich and not the material things. I go home and everyone is happy. We yap away through the day and talk about everything. Monster will grow up in a well mannered and loving home and family. That is one thing no money can buy.

She will learn to be a good person and also be a good person. Are we rich? Yes we are the richest family around if that is the case. Happiness and completeness is all that is important. Material things??? It will all fade away.

And that is why my dear readers, you will find that I am a very different type of guy.

Tiring times... tired man

2010-07-13T01:44:00.000-07:00

Have not had much time to blog these few days because work is really getting busy and at the same time, the moment I step home, I turn into loving hubby and daddy.... Hey... wait...isn't that supposed to be the way??

Anyways, so I will spend a bit of time doing my daily prayers and then helping wife to look after the baby. On weekends, I will try to do as much cleaning as I can, from the washing of toilets and floors to bringing them out for meals and so on... Then come back and I will try to prepare meals for the family. Why? Because I want my wife to be able to have some rest. She will not need to worry about the household things and also does not need to cook and is able to get at least a bit more rest.

For me, resting will be done when I am dead and am resting for eternity. Hehehehe

They will go back on Aug the 10th on and should come back in October. Wifey will have to handle the baby on her own, but she will also go back to my in-laws for a while and I guess it will be a change for her and the baby too. My in-laws have not seen baby for over a year already. I guess these are things we all have to sacrifice and that is what being human is all about. It is about hope, striving and also making sacrifices. Of course everyone wants to have a good life and no worries, but this is not really practical I guess.

Well, that's all for now... Byeeesssss

2010-06-10T22:49:00.000-07:00

Has it been that long??

2010-06-10T21:17:00.000-07:00

It seems like ages since I last blogged.... But then I have been truly ever so busy... I have been to Kuching, KL, Barcelona and Seoul.... Almost a new country every week.... Some people will say dat I have a good life, travelling around all the time, but then the big problem is that while travelling, a lot of other costs come in... the biggest being opportunity. Baby turned 1 on he 27th and I was lucky enough to be there with her... Nothing changed much, but she has grown so much smarter or at least visibly so... She now knows how to even get off the bed almost by her own self.... And this is scary because this means we have to be extra careful. But in so saying, the big problem is that sometimes you can be careful, but other people just are not able to be so. Just take the example of my energiser rabit... She came to my house yesterday night and while I was carrying baby, she grabbed her and almost made me lose my balance. I do understand that she wants to hold and hug her grand-daughter and admittedly Tina is quite nice to be held... but then, she also has to consider that the safety of the baby is at stake. I have already asked wife not to leave them alone as my mom's reaction time may not be fast enough to control the monster. Anyway... here are some other pics of monster for you.

The Energizer Rabbit....

2010-05-23T19:43:00.000-07:00

As I mentioned in the title... she just goes on and on and on and on and on.... if you get what I mean. So now peeps, I am faced with a dilemma, I have a rabbit who will go on and on, but she is spending vast amounts of money because she thinks she is going to die..... But she has no will to die.... She just called up and said that she does not have to see the onco doctor anymore.... So wat does dat mean? Her time with the maker is and will not be so soon.... Perhaps I will go first at the rate I am going.... In the end, my sis also has a part to play... She is over compensating with my mom again. Just like with her kids, she allows my mom to have anything and everything and in the end, my mom does not even realize how dire our straights are. I only had 4 bucks in the bank last week!!! Can you imagine this? Why is this so? Because I had to chip in to pay for the air ticket, give 2k worth in Euros and also help her to pay for her chinese medication. Imagine how much it is to just keep her alive? And this is without any other complication!!!

I am not being mean, but my mom is already demented and does not have a good grip of reality. Imagine, she says that she has to spend all her money because when you bring the money back, you will lose out on changing it back... WTF!!! If we are talkin about having only 20-30 Euros left, if you want to spend it... fine.... You are talking about hundreds or maybe thousands.!!! And she has to spend it all??? For the love of god and all that is muighty... does she not know how hard it is to even save $1??? I have to worry about how to get money to pay my bills and to feed my baby and she spends it all like it is water!!! And must use it all up wor.....

Imagine, when I only have 4 bucks in the bank, I will have to consider how to stretch it for the next few days and so on.. She does not need to.. She has 2 rich and high salaried children who will be her personal atm. She has no need to save... but we must as responsible children make sure she has enough and not too much... For a child (since she has alzheimers) there will never be enough. I gave her 900 euros which is equivalent to 2k sgd... she went to buy all the bloody useless T-shirts and so on so that she can brag to everyone that she has been to bloody Europe on a bloody holiday and paying bloody cut throat high prices for pieces of shit... Did she even think of how her poor son or daughter had to save to give her that and how she should be thanksful and try to save some in return??? No bloody way.... and no one is helping me in this.... I will say that if this does not stop... I will put a stop to it!! This cannot go on... It is just like the last time when I nearly got bankrupted bcoz she kept taking and taking.... It will never be enough, but she is not responsible because she is like a child.... Haizzzzz

Its been a while

2010-05-20T18:57:00.000-07:00

Hi Peeps, It has been a while, but I have been overseas and have had a lot of work and also a lot of things that need to be done at home.. There is never enough time. As you can see, my little monster is now getting to be a big monster... And she is getting pretty damn smart too... I am not being a proud daddy trying to flog his baby off ok? She learns things damn fast. So wat has been happening in my life... pretty much nothing because everything else is happening... But in the end, something happens or nothing happens, what happens? I am in a philosophical mood because I am tired. Hee hee... I will load more vids of my monster as soon as I can.

Another Passing

2010-04-25T18:50:00.000-07:00

My uncle, the second son of my grandfather, (my dad was the third) passed away last week on Wed. I was away on an overseas work trip and managed to rush back in time for his funeral. It was a simple one, as any funerals should be, but I am just hoping that my cousin will now find the strength to fill his dad's shoes and to bring the whole family through this time and to the future. I say this because it is not a joke to be handed such responsibility and to have many dispute it. The mother will of course say that now she is the eldest and the most senior and therefore should be the leader and the other sibblings may not want to listen. Leadership is not a power invested in someone, but is gained by someone. I am using my own example because I faced the same problems when my own dad passed. I did not want a power struggle and am glad that it was avoided. Now I can safely assume my postion without much hassle from anyone as all the relatives now can see that through the last few years, I have grown into the role. My mom is now getting more senile and unfortunately she is proving it to all. She was calling Nick, my cousin Mark. She kept telling his mother "where is Nic?? Mark is here"? Man... sometimes it does feel like it is an uphill climb and the one without the stamina will ultimately be lost.

Death is not a problem, it is being alive that really does make things hard for all of us. In Dying, we go into another plane of existence. Though I do not really believe in an afterlife or what, or even heaven and hell, I do believe that we will exist in another environment and in another way.... It is the same with the universe... It started with a bang, will die and will restart again... In all its vastness...

I do wish my uncle peace and do hope that now he is happy. I am glad that we did have our chance in Lunar New Year to show him my daughter and family and for him to put his seal of approval on the way my life had become. I live by the tenets of my own beliefs, but I also apply a lot of beliefs and principals my dad has taught me and I guess that this is what I will pass down to my own children.

The Bane of old age....

2010-04-05T01:47:00.000-07:00

What is the worst thing about growing old? Growing old of course... It may sound like a joke, but a joke it is not. You get old, the things you could as a strapping young man gets less. You get more serious and chronic sickness and yet your responsiblities get more. What is so good about growing old? I have no idea my friends.... Especially in our little red dot, where we only have at most 2 children, imagine the strain we have on them as we grow old and are unable to look after ourselves. In the years gone past, we had 5 or 6 children... Even if some died due to not being cared for properly, there will at least be a few... Now our little precious ones... we have no spare tires and therefore we over protect our little ones... Now that will not and does not equate to our little ones protecting us ok?

Further to this, imagine, now each side of the coin, (our little ones) the husband and the wife have to take care of both side's parents... Dat means 2 children looking after 4 parents... if they are only children... My GOD!!! How can we afford??? If you take the example of my Energizer Rabbit... you will understand.... If she goes for 10k trips every year, imagine if you have 2 sets of parents??? You cannot favour one or the other.... And if they are divorced and take seperate trips... you are really well and trully screwed... You can say good bye to any life or leaving anything for your kids because you have to look after your parents... And then you will see that the children will also have to fight... Over assets??? No sir!!! Over who can claim tax relief for looking after the parents....

Wake up people... we are well and truly being screwed here!! Nothing against old people... I love them and do my bit for charity every few months or so... But hey.... that is because I can afford it.... (but not for long man)... I wonder if giving to the energizer doing my bit for the old... At the rate she is burning money... she is doing enough for at least 4 people.... Haizzzzz....

But a bit of good news... My little monster seems to be able to say "Daddy". Well it would have been much simpler to teach her how to say "papa" but seems like stupid wife thinks that it is cooler for a half japanese to be able to say "Daddy" instead of papa and she also thinks it is easier... But stupid monster, as always, fails to respond according to demand... Not like pay TV... she will say "mama or daddy" only when she feels like it or when she is in one of her booms... Booms as in when she is in a mood to do something and keeps on doing it... Just like when she waved goodbye... she was in that bloody mood for a few days and kept waving to everyone... but when we asked to wave to her grandma or aunt, monster will not do so... Humph.... Gotta sell her on ebay soon man.....

Family ties are closer in HDB families wor!!!

2010-03-29T19:45:00.000-07:00

Ok lets break down the statement into its various components and examine it closely shall we?

We do we want to stay near our parents? The answer is simple mah.... So that we can have someone to look after our kids when we go out and play lor!!! Some more, since we are giving those parents of ours an allowance, (which has to be higher than the pittance the CPF or gahmen gives hor) they jolly well take care of the breed that we have created... Its their blood anyway... and which grandparent will not dote on the grandchild... unless of course if dementia is one of the underlying problems... Then in that case, leaving the child with a parent can be hazzardous.

Why do we want to stay near our parents? So that we can scrounge on them mah!!!! They cook and we go and eat.... our children also got good food because our wives can't cook for sh*t!!! Most of them even after having taken home economics do not know how to cook!! So instead of giving our children fast food or other outside food, we eat at our parents lah!!

If we live in landed property, are we not close to our parents? Of course not, we are rich and can afford landed, do you think we want our parents to be a part of this luxury???? That is why we are not so close... We can afford a bevy of maids and a fleet of cars... Why have hanger-ons???

So this is so for any country... Even in Japan, my sis in law blows into my in-laws place, drops the kid and then goes off for her sessions with her frens... So go figure lah....

Monster Stands!!!

2010-03-28T21:29:00.000-07:00

As you can see here, the monster can now stand on her own... Though not very well and also not for very long, but then it will not be long before she starts to walk.... Oh my goodness.... I am really in for it now.....

Anyway, back to the recent hoohaa about the allowance of the use of CPF for investment purposes. You cannot please everyone huh? When it was not allowed, people used to complain and ask for it, but when they lost money, they again complain about it. But personally, I do think that allowing us to use CPF for investment is a sound choice because if we were to leave it as it is, the interest will be low. Of course, compared to current bank rates, it is higher, but compared to other devices, it does not really compare. But safety and also long term is one thing we all must be aware of. Further to this, the guy who lost over 300k or so is the only one to blame. He should be getting frequent updates if he is investing so much money and make a decision where his level of gain or loss is and decide to cut when he is in the uncomfortable zone. I do not believe that the value of his investment will downgrade by 300k over night. If I were losing money, I would be ready to cut my losses man.

So I do understand sometimes the postion of some people, but the prime motivatin is greed and individual interest. However, instead of the small picture, we should be looking at the larger picture and how we can and when we can use our CPF money to better benefits. It is no use leaving it in the bank till the end of time. And I mean this literally. I do not think I will be able to see that money, no matter how small because now the draw down age is 60, it can and will go to 65 by the time it comes to my turn. And I am hoping that I will still be alive by that time. And of course, now they require that we must put a certain portion as ante before we can even hope to pass it to our future generation.

Haizzzzz.... Life....

Children dream of doing what men do and men do what children dream

2010-03-26T00:34:00.000-07:00

This is an interesting topic, in the sense that there are boys and there are men... Please do not mistake what I am saying, I do not mean physcial age, I mean in terms of maturity and security. Boys usually have ego problems and security issues. Even if they are attached or married, they will usually be the cause of a lot of grief, either to themselves or the people they are with. Take for example, a boy will always try to make themselves look like they are poor things. "Oh, I left my wife because of you", or, "oh I love you and will not look for anyone else". There are also "boys" who will take every opportunity to show that their privates are more endowed than others.... Both literally and figuratively hor...

So I was just reviewing my own life and I guess that all I can say is that I have been there and done that and it does not matter to me much anymore. There was once when I would modify my car so that it will be the fastest or the most powerful. But now, I am just happy having a powerful car that many many boys will dream of driving. I have a wife who is beautiful, but in another way, she also cares and loves me for what I am and not for what I promise to be.

Of course, as age comes into play, what used to be important is now not so important. As we get older, our priorities also change. But of course, I know yahoos who are older than me, but not as sensible too. It takes all kinds of people I guess.

So back to the topic, many boys dream of driving a hot car and a fast chick.... or was it a hot chick or fast car??? At that age... does it really matter? But to be realistic, both will have a cost. I saw a show where there was this girl who strung 2 guys, a loser type, but really nice guy and a suave playboy type who sweeps people off their feet. Guess who she fell for and the end result? So like I said, children dream, but the mature do.

2010-03-24T23:25:00.000-07:00

My monster likes to say "bye" and wave.... But the big problem is that she is doing it to almost everyone.... And when we want her to do it, she will act blur... I am just wondering if we gave her too much DHA or AHA when she was still in the stomach... Damned... she is too smart for us some times. Most other kids will be like pets... "Doggy sit!" and they will do so.. mine is like.... "hmmm let me think about it first".... heavens....

But it is interesting to have a kid and a lively one at that. But even no matter how cute, we will still be firm... She, like most other kids will start to cry when they know that they are doing something we do not approve and they will start when we say no... We just let her cry and tell her in a nice a way... "we told you not to do it, so don bother acting cute... crying will not get you out of trouble mate"... hehehehe

But then no matter how firm we are, there are some children who really really do not know the difference. I am speaking about my energizer rabbit now... She keeps calling me and saying that now the Euro is slightly cheaper so I should change some now... Oh yea... uuuhhhh.... did she even consider if we had the money to change? And how much will be enough? If I were to change 1k sgd, it will be 500 Euro... she will think it is very little... but then if we change more... how much more will be enough. And even if she accepts the amount, of which it will never be enough, she will always say... "oh yea... to change it back will mean losing money" and she will try to use it all. She does not know the value of money and or how to save... All she knows is how to spend... I am just wondering how the hell people become like that... And the gahmen is not helping us to look after such people.... Only one family member can apply for the looking after parent tax break... Give me a break man.... Anyway.... time to look at baby and just calm down.......oooohhhhhmmmmmmmm

Goodness Gracious!!!

2010-03-14T23:36:00.001-07:00

Just wanted to surprise you guys... Actually nothing really happening, but then again, nothing needs to happen before I need to blog... I am a chatterbox and a talkative guy, so please bear with me... Anyway... seriously though, I have been thinking a lot about friendships and so on.... You do not know the true nature of a person until you have been together. Sometimes, it is only a short while and sometimes, it takes years and perhaps even lifetimes before you really get to know the person you think you know... Sometimes it is good, sometimes it is bad... but hey, if you take things as they come, then nothing bad will come out of it.

Why do I choose this topic... it is because in my long long life, I have seen and gained and even lost some friends. Sometimes it is due to bein in a different continent, country or even part of the same small dot, sometimes it is because our circles do not cross anymore and so on. But then I asked myself this question, will I be more sad if I lost a fren (as in he or she passed away) or wud I be more sad if I lost a frenship? This is a deep deep question, as I would say that I would be more sad if I lost a friendship rather than to have lost a friend. A lost friend could be due to a lot of things.. accident and so on... but it is something that we will have to live with... A lost friendship on the other hand is something that we will have to live with in plain sight of that lost friend... Lost me??? Its ok... hehehehehe

2010-03-10T22:55:00.000-08:00

She is starting to speak... But gosh darn... she said mama first... officially.... biatch!!!

2010-03-09T19:22:00.000-08:00

She is not even 10mths old and she is now playing and holding her own bottle... (Tears in my eye....)... I am so proud....

Will you tell???

2010-03-08T22:46:00.000-08:00

No silly... not about affairs and so on... But if you know someone is going to die... Will you tell them? Of course everyone dies... but then if you knew that something someone does or if you knew that the end result of something will be the end... will u say it?

Why do I say this? Well, take for example the Energizer Rabbit... She is taking chemo... she keeps braggin about it to one and all...She says that if she does not take it, she will die... Does she not know that taking it will also kill her? It is a poison... In a way, it will kill off the cancer cells, but it will also kill off your normal cells. And then lets face it... organ failure is a common thing in old people... She is 72.... how much longer will she hang on?

So the root of the question lor... if you find someone who is in a situation similar, even if it is a fren who is taking drugs, living dangerously or what, will you tell them? If you do, will the fren appreciate it? Or should you just give up and forget it?

Is there a heaven? Is there a hell?

2010-03-08T21:58:00.000-08:00

This is a scene or idea that has played out for centuries... Eternal damnation or eternal happiness. What is it actually? Is it real or is it just some thought?

Why I ask this is because recently in the news, there have been many great icons of society falling by the wayside.... Why do they stray? Is it because of the need for heaven now on earth? Will they go to hell for what they have done? If you were a fren to them, would you have advised them to do other things? Well, basically, heaven or hell, in my opinion, it is all based upon yourself and also your own morals and beliefs. People can stray, people can fall by the wayside, but they must always have a chance to come back into the fold... Or they will spend their time in living hell. Some people do not care, some do not even know, but in the end, it is their lives. For me, I face my own hell on earth and sometimes I tell myself that even going to hell may not seem like such a bad thing after all.

Its all in the mind I guess. Some people who are in shit situations are happy and some who are having the best of all worlds are not... Its funny lah.

Good God....!!!

2010-03-03T18:30:00.000-08:00

You know guys and gals.... there is no God!!!... Just joking lah... But seriously though, sometimes, when things are really bad, it is the time you ask yourself if there is a higher being and the reason why you are in such a shitty situation.

Why do I say this??? Well, the energizer rabbit is demented.... and she does not know the value of money at all!!! She spoke to me last night and said... "My MRI will be about 900 plus and then my chinese doctor will be 100 plus so you must get ready 1k plus for me on Friday".... Yea right and where the hell are we gonna find that money? If she spoke with a bit of apologetic tone or shows that she is trying to save money... I still will be a bit more happy... But she just throws money into the wind and yet expects us to pay for it!!! Imagine... she wants to go for a trip to Oslo and whereever for 14 days... we will have to pay for it.. She crushed her finger during Chinese New Year and cost another close to 1k!!!! If she doesn't die... we will all surely perish!!!! And that is my gripe in life... Who will help me? Where can I find help? In Sg, medical is so expensive and even if you have Medisave, it can be wiped out so easily... Then what choice do we have but to wait for death?

And even if we could afford it, the family reserves will be so whacked that in the end, there is nothing for the survivors.... Everyday, I worry about not even having enough to pay for her funeral... My stupid sister will definitely want to have a flash and show... so it will be another big bundle... But then of course, the question will be when Energizer will actually go? At this rate... it does not seem all that near.... And to make things worse... she is losing her mind and yet not doing so fast enough... If she is a vegetable and is in a vegetative state, it will not be so bad... but she isn't and will not be there for a long while.Hai... life really stinks... and the thing is nothing can be done about it....

Monster Crawls.........

2010-03-01T21:51:00.000-08:00

Hi ya'll.... Well monster can crawl now... and you can see from her vid.... She is getting to be quite good at it... Well, I guess that everyone has to grow up right? Some fathers will feel sad when their daughters grow up and do not love them anymore, some will even feel jealous, but I am not sure how I feel or will feel, but I am sure that I will feel very proud of her as long as I bring her up properly, and to be a responsible adult and member of society. That is the most important legacy I can leave for all my children, not money or property.... But it is also because I will not be able to leave much behind too.... muahahahahaha..... But seriously, as mentioned so many times before, we can accumulate all the wealth and so on while we are alive, but we will still turn to dust when we die... We go back from where we came from..... Now remembering such roots, material things do seem less important. Maybe some will feel that material things and perhaps having fun is more important, however, these are only temporary... Imagine if you have all the looks now or all the beauty now... if you grow old and have nothing else, what else can you rely on? Or all the money in the world, but no happiness? I guess the ability to have a good look at yourself and then be contented with what you have is important... And it is a difficult skill to have....

Budget??? 2010???

2010-02-22T20:00:00.001-08:00

According to the news, now there is a "new slew" of tax breaks for us poor things.... But then...... is it really? Bigger tax breaks for families living with the elderly.... Ok... but if let us say... me and my sis... we are both looking after the energizer rabbit and she is costing us a royal bomb... Both of us pay or her medical and her chinese medicine and her leisure activities... do we both get the tax break or only one??? Of course only one lah!!!! So why are we happy? I am not.....

Now the wife can also get a tax break if she is working... whooppeeee.... Hey... Sillypore is not a cheap place to live in ok??? How much we earn can be spent just like that.... So why not give more concrete support??? Of course it will go down well with the more financially challenged portion of the population, however... we are really the sandwiched crowd.... Not earning enough to be comfortable and yet earning too much that we fall through the umbrella.... If you think that earning 5k a month is big money... you have to pay for a cancer stricken mother whose medical is easily 1k a month.... And then your own family which is another 2k.... and so on... what are you left with???? I do not spend and yet I am struggling.... Having to pay for car and so on.... but then of course, people will say... take MRT lor... yea right.... just try that with the monster and you will want to drive... hehehehe

Its all about cash and how much of it you have... I want to have more... but can I get more? I want to save... but then everything is so expensive.....

Do our brains grow in our butts???

2010-02-18T17:14:00.001-08:00

Why do I say this? Well the silliness of some people are really defying the sense of logic... Which means to say... they are silly beyond logic. I am not sure if it is because of the upbringing of the child, they grew up stupid, or what... Why is it I am ranting??? That is a really good question... However, as yesterday's news shows... some guy came to Sillypore in the hope of winning fortunes and lost everything and he went to the airport to steal things and was caught... Yea... brainiac man..... Not gonna say "No money don gamble" but will just say that only gamble wat you can afford to lose. And if you lose, just walk away lor..... Dat is why some people cannot go very far in life, because they are unrealistic... For what they are or have, they want more.

Take for example a young punk I met many years ago... He had just come out into the working world and he said he wanted to buy a beemer... I asked him what his salary was and he said it was about 2k... yea right... unless he is the son of some rich man or the ladyboy of some rich woman... he would not be able to to afford the car... it was lucky he did not say a Lambo or Ferrari or I would have bust a gutt laughing out loud... Just like I also knew of some of my frens who ask me whether they can get 10k salaries.... Yea... even with a Masters.... guys... u gotta do your time and climb up... That was why I mentioned that you have to make a base before you can build a wall... There are no 2 ways about it....

So some people may be dirt poor and shit out of luck... well boo hoo... but then the problem is... so will many other people... It is how you climb out of this hole that will matter how deep or how steep the walls are. We can dream... that is how we make our future... But then we must also walk the journey... Chairman Mao once said... The journey of a thousand miles starts with one step... But he omitted to say that there will be road blocks, detours, backtracks and so on.... So guys... lets start walking ok?

I swear!!! No more CNY

2010-02-17T17:30:00.000-08:00

Well sports fans as you may well imagine, the mass orgy we had for CNY. Old energizer rabbit was at her best and showiest. But that is another story for later. Tina was such a great actress, but there were times when she was tired and cranky. But the after effects was that when she got home, she was too tired and could not sleep and or did not know what to do about it. So now, because we have done our first year and introductions, I think next year will be left for some other baby to show off... No more for me... So I will be going off the some nice and quiet place to have some nice and quiet time.

In terms of giving out red packets, I must admit, I was lucky this year because we were really too busy to really give out any. Most of the time, I had to look after the family and so was not too free to really calculate who gave what and how much... heee heeee... good deal huh??? But then of course, the energizer really took me out for a lot before and after the celebrations. Before the CNY, she had to buy her chinese medicine a few weeks in advance, so I gave her 500. Then on CNY, I gave her another 200, then she broke her finger trying to get out of my car and I had to give another 500 for her treatment.... And guess what sports fans..... She wants to take a 14 day holiday to the Nordic countries and she just said to me... she wants 2k from me and 2k from my sis!!! Uuuhhhhhh.... did she think about her cost during the travel??? even if she were happy with just 100 a day, the expenses of the trip will be at least 1.4k!!! She goes around showing her chemo meds, her chinese meds and claiming that she is so poor thing, and how much it costs... but does she even feel a bit sorry for spending?? Man... I wish the government will do something for elderly people like this. Even help in medical fees will be a great stress reliever. But then of course, in this country of ours, only those who can afford it are smiling, while those who live in la la land are quite oblivious of the situation we are all heading for.

Oh yea... I did say that energizer broke her finger right??? She must have placed her finger in between the door and the body while she was closing my car door... But just like her cancer... she was not really able to explain what she was feeling and also what was happening. Imagine the pain of a fracture, and yet, all she was screaming about was the blood... It is the same with the cancer... she only said that she has blood in her stools... which is common sometimes... She did not say that it was continious and so on... She also showed her dementia when she actually told all her frens and relatives to come for Tina's buffet on the wrong day and at the wrong time... !!!! Thus almost no one came and I had so much food wasted. And to top it all off, she then thought that it was another day... She is really living in la la land right now... And it will only get worst... The only option will be to care for her in as best a way as we can. However, there will come a time when she will need 24hour care as she will not really know what she is doing. A person with Alzheimer's dementia will slowly lose all brain activity till they become walking vegetables... I am sure that our gahmen is afraid of that as this will throw a great strain on our society, however, these are people who helped to build our nation. Without our moms and dads, we will not have a Sillypore to live in.

Anyway, so back to CNY, well I am really still trying to recover from it as it has been a whirlwind and busy time. The only gud thing is dat I bought a playpen and also some other stuff for Tina and that is all I need in my life, to go home to my family, to see them well and happy and I am happy.

Hmmmmmm

2010-02-07T23:36:00.000-08:00

Its gonna be CNY this weekend and it will be a hell of a busy one... with the reunion dinner, the visiting of relatives and the introduction of Tina to one and all... I am sure that my little energizer rabbit will want to show off to all...

Speaking of the little monster... she scared the s*it out of me and nearly caused a divorce.... Well... kids can do that lah... Wife was having her bath, I was watching TV and then I heard a scream and wail... and found baby on the floor... She had evidentally put too much weight on the railing and it folded down.... Of course no one wa at fault... Baby was supposed to be asleep so that we can have some down time... But obviously she woke up and tumbled to the end of the bed and then tumbled off it... No major damage that we can see... but wife was like shocked into a coma and I was furious because of that. The railing can be folded... but I told her to make sure it was at least clicked... she did not do so because she was afraid that the smallest sound would wake up the monster... well wake up the monster did and she must have put weight on the rail and it folded.... For me... I was frightened.. but as long as there seems to be no damage or need to wori, I can put it aside and then go on.. wife was like quiet... withdrawn and really sad and of course that did not make the baby's mood any better.. Imagine dropping off a bed and then having a parent look at you like you were dying... Even if I could not think.. I would be very worried... hehehehe... So that really made me angry and set off a whole night of anger... hmmm... maybe I need anger management???

Anyways... last call home seems like monster is normal and is no worse for wear... We have put foam mats on the floor and will now make sure the railing clicks.. and I will buy a baby monitor to put into my room... Maybe I can hear them cursing and swearing at me when they think I am asleep too.... hmmmmmmmm devious huh????

Is it February Already???

2010-02-03T19:15:00.000-08:00

Man!! Time has passed so fast. It is already Feb and I am still no where near what I need to do and even further from what I want to do. I have been applying for PR status for wife and kids and it is such a stickler... There are some countries that do not have birth certs. Hey, it is true. Some countries are not a fanatical about race and so on as Sillypore.... So now we have to ask the Japan side to send prepare the family census and family rolls and then we have to get it translated into English over here... Man... I am having a lot of problems with wife because of this now... She is angry because she has done nothing wrong and is from a "higher" class country and therefore she feels insulted at this treatment. I hear ya babes... it stinks to high heaven... I think that if she were a white woman with a loud voice and is from the US, they will just close one eye and allow her to come in.

Talking about that, why are some people so caught up with the western way of life anyway? Is it so superior to ours? I feel that there is nothing wrong with being Asian or for that matter being me... But you can see how some guys or gals flutter at the sight and sound of a white man... Of course... there are some who like black too.. but that will entail a whole new different story altogether. But I do feel really insulted by both the whites and those who love the whites.. There is nothing wrong with yellow or any asian colour.. There are some asians who are far richer than the white. And oh yes... if some of you are thinking in the naughty spectrum and think that a white body is better than an asian... you are sadly mistaken ok??

It is the quality of the person and not the quantity my frens... And I am glad that I am of quality.

But back to the main topic... hmmm what the hell is the main topic anyway?? Oh yea... about applications for any position.... So how come dings and dongs from other countries can come in so easily and not some??? I was pretty pissed off yesterday and nearly wanted to send my family back to Japan and just ask them to stay there. I mean sometimes it really is damn stupid and because of this stupidity, I feel so frustrated... Maybe we ended up with the wrong end of the gene pool huh??? A place where people are assumed to be stupider than other and yet try to act smarter and better and yet we are all part of the same old system.... sighs.....

2 very emotional phrases...

2010-01-26T17:27:00.000-08:00

Hey sports fans... I was really in a deep state of thought. 2 ladies who had a deep deep impact on my past said 2 things. One said "I think I hurt you more" and the other said, "love you". The first was my ex... she hurt me a lot... but in so saying, so did I... so there is no use going back into the past and saying who hurt who and why... It is only to look at the future and not to hurt anyone else. Then the "love you" was by a long long lost fren who I really hurt so badly so many years ago. People change and whether they are good or bad, they should be given the chance and the opportunity to show that they have changed.

I was a really bad bad person who did not care about anyone or anything in the past life... But through experiences and through lessons, I became the person I am now... though there are still a lot of areas I have to change, I guess that I am almost there in my journey.

So my blast from the past is still coming and it feels really good.

Settling Down

2010-01-18T22:40:00.001-08:00

Hey... Been a while since I last blogged... dats bcoz have been busy with work and family. What else can I say? With a family here now, there are tonnes of things to do, to buy and to prepare.So the last 2 weeks were spent shopping during the free time, trying to get baby back home before the sun goes down and she turns back into a monster and then work... Man... I have no life anymore... sob sob....

As to those who think that I do not help out at home, you are sadly mistaken.I cook and clean like the best of them. In fact, during the weekends, other than playing around with the monster, I try to cook and clean the house. At least wifey will have some time off. It is not joke trying to look after a monster you know???... hehehehe

Baby in Singapore

2010-01-11T18:45:00.000-08:00

Hi all,

We got back to Sg on Wed last week and it has been a hell of a ride... Imagine trying to settle monster on one hand, buying things we need for the house in another and at the same time your other extended family members. At least the extended side gave me some time off or I wud have been split apart.

Oh yea, we gave our monster a hair cut too and now wifey is complaining that the hairstyle makes monster look like a boy.... Hmmm... I do wonder who's fault will that be... I am only responsible for half the genes... hehehehehe

Anyway, baby is in town and she is the life of almost everywhere she goes.... Everyone says... so cute!!! At least no one says "poor thing" which is what I hate. So now I am wondering how much she will fetch if I were to sell her on Ebay.. muahahauahahauhaha..... I am such a mean bastard... but then seriously, life is such that we have to be mean... if not, we will have a problem. Good people are always the underdogs.

The Last Samurai

2010-01-07T05:56:00.000-08:00

Hey, I am sure most of you heard about the story, though it depends on which version you watch, the one in the 1970's, or the recent Tom Cruise one. It doesn't really matter because the story I wan to tell you is the story of my last samurai. Tina is a Komatsu and also a Yeo. That is why her name is Christina Komatsu Yeo. One of the many many reasons why this is so is because of a lot of politics. First is that I want her to be a Japanese citizen, so a Japanese name is better. However, Yeo-Komatsu can also be just as good. The reason why I allowed it to be so is because she is the last of my wife's father's line. The Komatsu line is a line of land owners with quite a bit of power in the olden days. Now, my father in law has 2 girls. The eldest, whom I married and the second who is married to another Japanese man. The sister is the 13th descendant, however, she has to adopt her husband's name and their son will use the husband's name so the line ends there. I allowed my Christina to be a Komatsu first so that she can be the 14th generation. Hey, that means land and so on for her ok?... And of course being a Yeo, she will also get whatever I have left for her.

So she will be a happy pickle when she becomes of age and is able to accept everything that is hers.... But then she will definitely be the last of the Komatsu line because if she gets married, she will have to adopt her hubby's surname and the child she bears will have to take that name too... As for Yeo, well, there is always the chance of a second child... Only thing is... hehehe... whether I want to have another or not... hehehehe..

So I will have to train her well and make sure she is smart and stable enough to enjoy her life in the best possible way. A spoilt child will surely be the end of any line and name.

Marriage in Spirit

2010-01-04T20:43:00.000-08:00

Hey.... I did not say marry a spirit ok?? I mean what happens if you only marry someone in mind or in spirit? Why I say that is because of a very beautiful love story that I know.... (Oh yes... it is not me and I am never so lucky!)

I know of this guy who is in another country, he was spoken for and was supposed to marry gal A, but he fell in love with gal B also. Being a great guy that he is, he supported and loved both with all his heart. I feel that it depends on the intention of the love and the spirit of the love. So anyway, he saw Gal B through college, and even helped her to open a business. Even when he got married and had a child, he still loved Gal B. But he never loved Gal A any less. He would make sure that both were happy and were well taken care of.

So can you fault him? Was he womanising or leading someone on or hurting anyone? Is Gal B making use of him? I really cannot say anything, but then as long as everyone is happy, why rock the boat? Sometimes people get together and for different reasons. But as long as the reasons are ok and do not hurt anyone, I believe that it is ok... But guys or gals, do not go out looking for another boyfren or girlfren jus like dat ok?

But I feel like it is the spirit in which a man is allowed to have a few wives if he is able to love and care for the wives on an equal manner... Because sometimes, the other gal may need a helping hand to get somewhere. And if left to her own devices, she may never make it. Perhaps I am wrong, but if done in the right spirit.. it shud be ok... but my dear frens, I am not talking about anything wrong here ok... So please do not quote me hor.

A little kitten lost

2010-01-01T21:27:00.001-08:00

I saw a little kitten by the side of the road, it ws cold and shivering and was mewing pitifully. So I brought it home, fed it and loved it. Now after it has grown up a bit, it has run away and is now free... Well dats life I guess.... hehehe

No matter whether it is a pet or a fren or anything, life is such where circles come into contact and then go out of contact. For me, I am a practical person who only lives for the moment. In this new year, I will start a new life and so I will be a new person.

New Year is Coming!!!

2009-12-28T17:42:00.001-08:00

Although it is not mentioned with as much alarm as "a meteor is coming" or "the ice age is coming" or even "holy f**k, my mother in law is coming", but I guess as it is, it is quite an important event that will be met with quite a lot of trepidation.

What do I do for the new year? With my wife and baby coming for almost completely, (they will spend a few months back in Japan) and so many other things to do, and also me beginning to feel my age, I am quite looking forward to 2010.... with a bit of alarm.... Don't wori, I can always hit the snooze button with the alarm in no time.

I guess that is what makes me different from a lot of people in the sense that I can switch off if I really want to. For anything... from feelings to even wanting to do or not do something. Well anyway, not much of an issue there.

You know some people will start to list down their new year resolutions... you know the wishes or the things you wish you want to do, but almost definitely will break?

1) I will quit smoking... (for all 2 days.... my longest record)
2) I will not modify my car..... (but I still want 400hp... so I will just tweak it a little... hey... that is not modify ok?)
3) I will treat my wife and baby better.... (yea right, like I haven't treated them well before)

And the list goes on and on... but like I said a few years ago,.... why bother... if you do nothing that you feel should be changed in your daily life, then you do not need to hope to change anything just because of the new year.

Hehehehe.... I am not sure if I will be able to post before New Year.... But HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 to one and all.... And also for those who know I have their numbers... Please do send me and sms to help me recover your numbers... or I will visit you one day... and ask for it... hahahahahaha

A wierd Christmas

2009-12-24T23:24:00.001-08:00

Don't you just hate it when every shop you walk into in every district you go to is playing some form of Christmas song??? Well I am no Scrooge and I do like Christmas, however, when you know that you are a walking ATM and that whenever you walk into a shop, everything your wife buys, be it for herself or for her kid or for me, is from my wallet, I gte kinda depressed. Anyway, it was a wierd Christmas I might just say.

This Christmas is Tine's first Christmas and we went to the Hyatt for a stay... It was free because I had the points to spare. But I sorta walked away with the feeling that my wife really needs support to look after my little monster because I can see her being tired and wanting some time an space for herself. Which is easy to say, but little monster requires her full time... She is also getting more forgetful, perhaps it is due to being tired of what. But seriously, being a mother is no joke...

Especially when at 2 am in the morning, little monster woke up and started to grin at us like and idiot. We were wondering what the heck she had taken because she did not seem to want to go back to sleep at all.

Anyway, for Christmas, I gave my monster a small trip to somewhere other than home, in preparation for the trip to Sg, for my wife I bought her a pair of shoes and I also bought a pair for myself... Oh yea... if some of you supestitious ones out there say that we should not give our oved ones shoes because they might run away... I gave a cery clear statement that in no other simpler language, if she runs away, be prepared to take the monster with her or be prepared to see monster's pic on E-bay the very next day.... In the eyes of the court, especially for a girl, she (I do not think) will be given to a father to care for.... And I will not fight her for custody too.... hehehehe... point blank... wham!!! She can run... but be prepared to
carry some baggage babes.. hahahahah....

But hey, I am a deal she finds too gud to give away man... a walking ATM who gives her everything she wants... wat else can she ask for???

"Eh.... U wanna buy engine"???

2009-12-22T04:03:00.000-08:00

I was shocked that one can steal a million plus dollar object from the army.I remember in my own time, just the loss of a stupid nut to attach a bloody antenae to the base and I had to sign a thousand forms and answer a million questions... and yet someone could stun an engine from the Northland airforce... wow!!!

I can imagine how it went.... (dark alley somewhere in Northland).... "Heyyyy... wanna buy and engine... cheeaaapp cheeaaappp.... Just 10 million only...."? Clients looks around.... "Serious or not bro??"..... Seller goes... "Don wori... sure gud one... if not gud, I give back money"... Well it goes to show how entrepreneurial some people can be..... And imagine the number of forms dat guy had to fill in to officially try to make the engine look as though it is scrap and to scrap it and then push it out the door.... Kudos to him and his party man.... This is really called Northland Boleh!!!! I wonder wat will be the next thing to be sold??? D. M's golden throne?? I am sure that TT Durian had a golden set, D. M will have one too.... One fine day.... he steps into his favourite place to dump and "Ooohhh F**k!!! Where's my loo?"

I guess the saying that money makes the world go round is true... not love... hahaha

But on a serious note... I still feel that love is a very important. I am a guy who falls in love very seldom and when I do, it is almost impossible to stop loving. I may stop showing that love, but then within the heart, it will still be there. And for those readers.... Do not think I am having anything outside of my marriage hor... I am not!!!But seriously though, its like my wife, when I say I love her... it will mean forever... Not just while the nooky is hot... Dats y I stayed for 5 yrs in Japan even after my ex ex.. (hmmm kinda a lot of ex hor... muhahahaha)told me to F O after the 1st year of me going there. It is the same for all other relationships too... even after being told to jump off the highest building or to go c a shrink.. (actually not so bad lah... I will let go and just go to a corner and lick my wounds)... I am not that type of guy.... Even when my wife tried an April fool's day joke one fine day a long time ago... I pissed her off with my answer... She said that we wouldn't work out... and I went into my greatest Mr. Spock impersonation and told her that I expected that and if she found someone better than me... she should give it a chance.. But sometimes... even Spock falls..because he is half human....
hehehehe...

Anyways... I still prefer peace and harmony and to love people even if they do not love back... Because it is only he who has love in himself, who will be able to love others... And when you love someone, you should give your all and just want the other person to be happy.... I will stil love them all lah... no matter what happens and how it ends... bcoz I love everyone...

Wanna buy an engine??? No no serious?? We can talk about price....

What is the meaning of life?

2009-12-21T01:46:00.000-08:00

I have in my hands a new life (my baby), also in my control, an old life (mine lah) and I am just wondering, what is the meaning of life? I might say that I may be slightly or a bit enlightened, but then I am also sometimes troubled by the life I lead and have.

A friend who I recently rediscovered really has a bad impression of me... She said I was a terrible bloke in school...Hmmm... no excuses lah... I can be quite a bastard if I want to be and I admit it. Howeever, I do feel that I should hav changed some in the following years and have matured a little more and also am a better person... But am I?

What does it mean to be alive? Sometimes I really do not know. We make the same mistakes all the time, hoping that this will be the last time we make it, we try to be better people but who do we base ourselves on?

Actually I am going around and around in a loop huh??? Hehehehe... well it doesn't matter... I was just in a mood the other day and decided to be the biggest bastard because of the 2012 "fear". It is said that we will all perish in 2012, so how do I want to live my life till then? Since being a nice guy is no fun... (hey... being nice means u get used and abused) so why not be the biggest bastard and just enjoy life as one?

Well, how many of you out there believe in 2012 and our impending doom? Or maybe I should try to be a nice guy so that I can buy a place in heaven??? Hmmm.... Well for me, I feel that life and death are challenges and so we should take it in our stride and jus do the best we can and enjoy while we can.

More pics and vids and a wierd relationship

2009-12-16T04:44:00.000-08:00

Here are some pics and vids of my little monster, for a monster she is... When she is in a bad mood, especially when she is sleepy, she will scream the whole heaven down.

But you know something??? In the 2 weeks I have been here, I have been to heaven and hell like no man who has never been a father, would have gone to. Of course, in the courtship and mating cycle, you do go to heaven and hell, however, not like this.

Why do I say this? Being a father is a very wierd thing. A father will be the first man a girl loves or hates. This will set her for her rest of her life in the way she treats men. If she has been spoilt, she will want to be spoilt. If she was brought up in a proper manner and treated in a proper manner, then she will also learn the basics of life. However, a father may also love his daughter in the wrong way or improper way... But in every father's mind, his daughter is the little angel who is virginal and chaste and good. I am sure that there will be very few fathers who will willingly give their daughters away in happiness.... Not unless the husband to be is handsome, is as rich as a Saudi prince and is able to give me the rights to a thousand camels, 2 oil fields, 7 yacths, 5 Saville Row stores, 81 brides for my harem and so on... In fact, I swear that I will be worst than Lord Torquemada from the Spanish Inquisition. The potential guy will have to fill in a thousand page data sheet, come for an interview 2 times and pass my "honey pot" test... and I assure you, I will not be using my wife as the honey pot. In some ways, a daughter will remind the father of the woman he fell in love with and married 20 years ago and this makes giving the daughter away even harder. For me, I was cheated into marriage, so my dauther if she reminds me of my wife will be the sore spot of my wrath... hehehe.. but seems like she looks like me... so I kinda ok with that.

But seriously folks, even the movies of father and daugther all inevitably show the father becoming sad and lonely.... For me, I will be standing with my bill totiliser and making sure that little monster pays me back every damn cent....

Anyway, peace out to all daughters and suffering fathers.

Two women

2009-12-14T19:58:00.001-08:00

You know last year I spoke about a girl who's mom was trying to work and look after her because since she was a baby, her mom divorced her dad? Last year was a really bad year and so was this. The mom is trying to hold down 2 jobs and at the same time trying to put the little girl to school and so on... The finances are always shaky because the mom does not earn very much and what little she earns goes into food, rent and so on... But in Japan, people have pride. It is different from ego... Ego is what you think you can be, have been or want to be. Pride is internal, it is what you know you are and have been. So we have pride and we do not like to be called "poor things". So what if someone looks at us with pitiful eyes and says poor thing, it will not bring food to the table. So what if people give a little here and there? Sooner or later, we will have to return it to those who gave us favour.

So me and my wife are trying to help by giving them treats, bringing them for buffet meals so that the little one can eat all she wants with as little cost as possible, and we will give them rice and other essentials. In a way, I also live my life and family this way. Little tina wears a lot of hand me downs. The reason for this is because buying clothes is not really an option. They outgrow their clothes so fast.

For me, I feel that in life, we are what we make ourselves to be. If we live with ego, we will come to a fall, but if we live with pride, we are happier people.

A heartbreaker in waiting

2009-12-09T05:57:00.000-08:00

Yes sports fans... after only a few days with my little..... MONSTER.... I have now come to the conclusion that she will be a heartbreaker.... She is so good at making u love her.. Look at shots of some pics we had done professionally of her.... She is so cute and pretty... (don wori lah... I am not gushing and I sure as hell will not be spoiling her).... but seriously, if she grows up and maintain her looks and personality, she will definitely melt many hearts and yet at the same time break them... She is also quite a Jekyll and Hyde sorta thing... if I may say so... at times when she is cranky, she can cry up a storm and also demand that we carry her and so on... but at times.. she can also be such an angel and so nice... Esp wen old aunties come across her on the street and they comment how pretty or cute she is, she will smile and be on her best behavious.... Hmmmm... why isn't she ever cranky in public???

Some new pics

2009-12-05T19:10:00.000-08:00

These are some prelim pics and vids of my baby.. Hope u guys enjoy.

An interesting life and an interesting wife

2009-12-02T19:40:00.001-08:00

Hi Ya'll, tomorrow I will start a new phase of life with my wife and baby girl... I will be going to Osaka and then on Jan, I will bring them back here for good, or till the time when they have to go back again. What is for good, what is permanent. Anyway, a fren did ask me... am I having any problems with my marriage and I responded by saying that when it comes to a marriage, nothing is a problem. If there is any obstacle, we have to work it out together and make it work together.

Wife is scheduled to go back in April next year, maybe for a mth or so. Because she will have to settle some house stuff and also some of baby's medical stuff. I want to establish a clear medical history so that if anything happens, then at least she will be well looked after there.

Now that is where the life gets interesting because it seems that there is no permanence. We seem to be apart and even when we are together, we are also not as loving as most newly married couples... (hey... though we have been married 3 years plus, I have only been with her 9 mths, so can still consider as newly weds lah..

Anyway so I was giving my wife a hard time dis morning... because I just felt like it... I told her that she is expected to meet me at the point where I will be gettin off the cab near our house....
So she better not be waiting for me at home or I will immediately get on the same cab and try to catch a flight out back to Sg..... Just joking in a way... but then
it is really true dat at least she must show an effort to bring the baby to me.... After all, I am her ATM....

I told her... "do not introduce me as ATM.... I am papa... hahaha... Bcoz I am somewhat of an ATM to them right? They only need money from me right? And this ATM does not even need any cards and pin numbers and they can have all the money they want.... oooooohhh.... I think I am getting an ulcer worrying about them and the money part.... But at least next year hoepfully will be a better year and that salaries will rise and things will be easier.... If not... I can always consider selling that little monster of mine... hahahahaha......

Some more vids

2009-11-30T17:46:00.000-08:00

Here's a few shot of me on the track.

This is a vid of how it looks like in the car.

For those who have motion sickness, please avoid watching. Then the next one is the money shot where I was being aggressive and it was a nice vid... guess which car I am.

A Day at the trackssssss

2009-11-29T22:49:00.000-08:00

No silly, it wasn't the race course tack, but the car track.... And oh yea... for those who think of the F1 and so on, it is also not the same. I love speed and driving the car to its limits, but I am also an old man who does not see any importance in showing off and or bragging about things. If I am good, people will surely say it... So no need to brag about it... For me, I like to drive on the track because it allows me to explore the car and how I can drive it. Here is a shot of me coing out of the pits... The vids may not be in sequence, but I will try my best.

I must be getting old

2009-11-25T22:16:00.000-08:00

You know you are getting old when you do not enjoy a lot of things that you used to.... or maybe u are getting wiser??? I would rather call it old lah...

Anyway, I will be going to Sepang for a race because there is an invitation for all Evo 10's to do a few rounds there.... Wooohoooo.... But unlike previous times and episodes, I did nothing much this time.... In fact.... I did nothing... hehehehe... While the others were setting their cars up, changing their tires, programming and so on, I am just sitting by... Why? Because I am old... no lah... there is nothing much to set up if you are not going to be aggressive and not going to attack the track like a maniac... I will just drive at my own pace and enjoy myself lor....

In fact.... yesterday, I tried to drive at high boost, which is supposed to give my car around 380 horses... I chickened out very soon.( ai serious... I heard round objects drop on the road when I was stepping hard on the accelerator and I am pretty sure they came from me....)... Why do I need so much power and why do I want it? So I am happy with my car as it is and even on the track, I have nothing to prove.... I must be getting old....

It is just like womanising and gambling... I have not bought 4D in a jolly long time... Not just weeks, but months... It is only when the inspiration strikes me that I will buy and if I do not hit... I will curse at myself for being mis-inspired.... hehehehehe... And I have not bought Toto for years... I think gambling is really not worth it, though some people may think that it is their chance out of the sh*t that they are in.

Womanising is also the same... I wud rather spend time and money in my car or family than a lady.... Of course the 2 ladies, wife and Tina will be having all they want and need. But when it comes to having an affair or another girl... I also feel that it is not worth it... Some guys may want to have some form of thrill and or a feeling of a girl loving them in both emotional and physical way... However, perhaps I am getting old.... Man I must be old... I am repeating myself... hahahahaha..But seriously, why do men do it??? My wife gives me everything I need and my daughter takes away everything I have... so why need another girl to do the same things? hahahahaha.

Some guys have ego, but being short and plump all my life, I do not have any ego.... Nothing to be egotistical about lah.. hahahaha.... Drive a hot car?? So what... I am paying through the nose for it.... Have a hot wife... she is not so hot in bed..... Earn a lot of money... man... you have not seen me spend my money.... So nothing great lah...

Anyway, back to the race... Many say that it is dangerous and or exciting... depending on who says it lah.... But the good thing is that there will be very few cars and i will be among the last ones.... A long long way away from the rest.... In case the front cars collide and then I am unable to brake in time... and I do not want to be in front bcoz I do not want any pressure from young hot blooded kids.....I am an old man who has a weak heart... hahahahahaha....

But seriously though, I am feeling my age... But do not wori, I will not be enjoying second childhood and so on anytime soon.... my first childhood has not even finished yet.

Anyway.... I was realy lucky in the sense that I have added some things to my car, but... But... BUT they were all free..... yess freeeeee..... why..... barter trade... heee heeee... I got a new set of brakes..... which are only slotted.... why??/ because my fren got his set and they were only slotted.... mine has holes in them some more... so it looks nicer... ok lor... changeeeeeee....Then I have a HKS painted on my intercooler... did I buy it? Nope... the garage painted it on for freeeee.... why bcoz I said it would be their advantage...Since they are the main distributor of HKS products... hehehehehe...

Then my friend gave me a set of exausht guards because I have been treating him for dinners and lunches and so on.... not bad hor???? Must be nice to be a nice old man... hahahahaha

Anyways... I am looking forward to having fun on Sat man....

A lemon or a Cherry?

2009-11-23T19:09:00.000-08:00

Good question isn't it? My "ex" has so many recalls that I will become a regular at the dealer because the problems have to be fixed. My SST gearbox is also so hard to fix that only the dealer will be able to plonk in a new gearbox if mine blows up.... That is why I am biting the bullet and going to them for regular servicing. Thank god I am not driving a merc or beemer, but the servicing fee is still quite hefty!!! So did I get a lemon or is it still a cherry? The jury is still out on that because I myself do not know.

It is just like the recent controversy of the HDB, the HDB says that they are providing the bare necessities that we require and even Minister Mah says that in his time, a 3 room flat was a palace. Well, brother, I am from the same era.... Yes we did live in rather squalid conditions where water was taken from the kampung well and it was a scary adventure to go out in the middle of the night to pee or take a dump... Especially when you have a stupid mother who says "beware of the pontianak" when you go out!!! But brother, if you ask a kid how he shits now, he or she will say a toilet bowl.... Most of the post 1980's batch do not even know that a squatting toilet ever existed. Well, the 1980's batch is now the young new generation who are looking for houses. Of course they will want to have better facilities than what they had before. If they came through a childhood where they had to run all the way to the outhouse and be aware of the pontianak, then they would know what a palace is!!!.... Again, lemon or cherry???

And talking about pontianaks, we were really a simple bunch of goondoos back then. Being told that some ghost or ghoully would scare the heck out of us back then. Imagine, energizer rabbit told me one fine dark... scary morning before I walked through a slightly forested place, next to a river to school... "Be careful hor... people say a pontianak escaped from Malaysia hor"... Seriously I think her lack of brain power sorta was a long term sort of thing that came from when I was young... It may not be Alzheimer's dementia... But she is just plain stupid?

Haizzzzz. Lemons and cherry's... No matter how sweet something is in the beginning, it will still become sour in the end... heee heee....

And talking about sour, just a few days ago, I was really suspicious that my wife's milk..... The reason, we chinese have a saying... "on the 7th month, the baby will sit down, the 8th she will crawl and 9th she will start to sprout teeth". So Tina is beginning to sit and my father in law bought her a chair and she was trying it out. And it tickled her so pink that she was laughing out so loudly and for so long that I suspected that my wife's milk was fermented and Tina was drunk... Hee heee... I really miss my two darlings.....

This is stupid!!!!

2009-11-19T18:46:00.000-08:00

I almost hate Nokia now... I lost all my contacts again!!!... sob sob sob... so pls everyone.... pls sms me yr numbers as soon as you read this... if not.. do not blame me for not contacting u... but of course for some of you who think that I will not be contacting you and disturbing you... I have my ways of finding out... so be a good boy or girl and sms me before I come and find you.......

Anyways, life is really interesting... I have been eating more packed food... most probably because I have been busy, but also perhaps because mom is not really feeling good and also the new maids are not real great cooks... So I buy food home and eat.... Man I wish my wife was here.... at least I will have properly cooked food.....

Anyway.... do you remember Homer Simpson and how he goes "Dope!!!" everytime he screws up??? I had a night full of "Dope!!!" a few nights ago... What happened was that I love my packed rice to be drowning in curry.... Perhaps I am getting old and do not like solid food or perhaps the fact that most cooked rice is not dat nice.... So I asked for extra curry to hide the flavour.... and while at home, I was trying to put it onto my tray to bring it into the room to eat... and I poked my finger through the base of the darned styrofoam box.... Curry came pouring out thru the bottom.... "Dope!!!!" and so I turned it over in the hopes that it would not run out... but "dope!!!" the whole pack, food, rice and stuff fell thru the top..... DOOM on me MIKEY!!!!! Luckily... I pride myself in having a clean kitchen top and floor... so like the satay bee hoon incident... it was scrape scape.. curse curse... mumble grumble and I had a pretty unhappy dinner.....

Hehehehehehe

Pure Madness???

2009-11-17T18:33:00.000-08:00

I read with great sadness.... the news that our great MM now regrets having made a policy to force us, the children of the late 60's and 70's to learn a second language. It is ok to learn a second language but to be penalized for not being good at it???? How many of us had to run to overseas uni's because we were just not proficient enough in our second language to go to the next level?? How much did our parents sacrifice to enable us to go overseas? At that time there were also only 2 uni's in Sillypore, how many of us could get in? Night time and part time courses in Uni and other schools to enable us to get our degrees were also non existent... And to top it all off, what is this bloody obsession over degrees in the first place anyway??? Have a cert and you are smart??? Ooohhhhh... that is the biggest mistake one can make in life man... And he who assumes that because he has 7 "A" and is a superior being is an idiot!@!!!

But not knocking anyone or anything now... So now how??? Brown cow?? Will the gahmen pays our poor parents back for the money they spent on the lost generation? We are the lost generation for sure... Neither here nor there.... All results of social and educational experiments that in hindsight were wrong. 2 is enough is also another big gripe I have... now we do not have enough and have to import foreign talents. Our reliance on foreigners of all colours and races is amazing!!!

I was walking down the bottom of my block and I met PRC and Philippino.... Our heartland is not our heartland any more. I am not saying that it is wrong.... but hey... what about us who went through hell and back... in the educational system, in the army and now in society??? What do we get? But then like I have always said, I have no need or any want to ask for anything from anyone or anything.... I will survive on my own and earn my own keep.... I do not want to be called... "poor thing"