Life and Death

I've been having bad migrains for the past few days. I have them once in a while... like every few months and when it happens, I can't really do anything about it. But then the stakes are also much higher now with my monster and family depending on me. A sudden fear actually struck me that maybe my brain tumours came back though both were benign. What will happen if something bad came back? A lot of times, people will ask me what will happen to my family or what will they do? But for me, I am a practical guy. I do not want to burden them. I will want to go as soon as I can to spare them any more pain. Pain from seeing me suffer and having to pay to see my life extended. Maybe it is just me.

But that is life and that is death. Monster came into my room this morning and was looking for me.... She is really noisy when she crawls, so I know she is coming in. Sometimes she will also make noise of excitment and we know that she is wanting to play. In many ways, I look back and thank god and all above for giving me this opportunity to have such a period of happiness. I can and will go happy.

For me, I have no fear for death and as mentioned, I have seen death so many times. I am not afraid of the beyond, be it in hell or be it in a place where there is nothing. It is a new existence. I guess that is just me. But seriously folks, just be happy with what you have and be satisfied. I am truly happy and satisfied now.