Good God....!!!

You know guys and gals.... there is no God!!!... Just joking lah... But seriously though, sometimes, when things are really bad, it is the time you ask yourself if there is a higher being and the reason why you are in such a shitty situation.

Why do I say this??? Well, the energizer rabbit is demented.... and she does not know the value of money at all!!! She spoke to me last night and said... "My MRI will be about 900 plus and then my chinese doctor will be 100 plus so you must get ready 1k plus for me on Friday".... Yea right and where the hell are we gonna find that money? If she spoke with a bit of apologetic tone or shows that she is trying to save money... I still will be a bit more happy... But she just throws money into the wind and yet expects us to pay for it!!! Imagine... she wants to go for a trip to Oslo and whereever for 14 days... we will have to pay for it.. She crushed her finger during Chinese New Year and cost another close to 1k!!!! If she doesn't die... we will all surely perish!!!! And that is my gripe in life... Who will help me? Where can I find help? In Sg, medical is so expensive and even if you have Medisave, it can be wiped out so easily... Then what choice do we have but to wait for death?

And even if we could afford it, the family reserves will be so whacked that in the end, there is nothing for the survivors.... Everyday, I worry about not even having enough to pay for her funeral... My stupid sister will definitely want to have a flash and show... so it will be another big bundle... But then of course, the question will be when Energizer will actually go? At this rate... it does not seem all that near.... And to make things worse... she is losing her mind and yet not doing so fast enough... If she is a vegetable and is in a vegetative state, it will not be so bad... but she isn't and will not be there for a long while.Hai... life really stinks... and the thing is nothing can be done about it....