New Year is Coming!!!

Although it is not mentioned with as much alarm as "a meteor is coming" or "the ice age is coming" or even "holy f**k, my mother in law is coming", but I guess as it is, it is quite an important event that will be met with quite a lot of trepidation.

What do I do for the new year? With my wife and baby coming for almost completely, (they will spend a few months back in Japan) and so many other things to do, and also me beginning to feel my age, I am quite looking forward to 2010.... with a bit of alarm.... Don't wori, I can always hit the snooze button with the alarm in no time.

I guess that is what makes me different from a lot of people in the sense that I can switch off if I really want to. For anything... from feelings to even wanting to do or not do something. Well anyway, not much of an issue there.

You know some people will start to list down their new year resolutions... you know the wishes or the things you wish you want to do, but almost definitely will break?

1) I will quit smoking... (for all 2 days.... my longest record)
2) I will not modify my car..... (but I still want 400hp... so I will just tweak it a little... hey... that is not modify ok?)
3) I will treat my wife and baby better.... (yea right, like I haven't treated them well before)

And the list goes on and on... but like I said a few years ago,.... why bother... if you do nothing that you feel should be changed in your daily life, then you do not need to hope to change anything just because of the new year.

Hehehehe.... I am not sure if I will be able to post before New Year.... But HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 to one and all.... And also for those who know I have their numbers... Please do send me and sms to help me recover your numbers... or I will visit you one day... and ask for it... hahahahahaha

A wierd Christmas

Don't you just hate it when every shop you walk into in every district you go to is playing some form of Christmas song??? Well I am no Scrooge and I do like Christmas, however, when you know that you are a walking ATM and that whenever you walk into a shop, everything your wife buys, be it for herself or for her kid or for me, is from my wallet, I gte kinda depressed. Anyway, it was a wierd Christmas I might just say.

This Christmas is Tine's first Christmas and we went to the Hyatt for a stay... It was free because I had the points to spare. But I sorta walked away with the feeling that my wife really needs support to look after my little monster because I can see her being tired and wanting some time an space for herself. Which is easy to say, but little monster requires her full time... She is also getting more forgetful, perhaps it is due to being tired of what. But seriously, being a mother is no joke...

Especially when at 2 am in the morning, little monster woke up and started to grin at us like and idiot. We were wondering what the heck she had taken because she did not seem to want to go back to sleep at all.

Anyway, for Christmas, I gave my monster a small trip to somewhere other than home, in preparation for the trip to Sg, for my wife I bought her a pair of shoes and I also bought a pair for myself... Oh yea... if some of you supestitious ones out there say that we should not give our oved ones shoes because they might run away... I gave a cery clear statement that in no other simpler language, if she runs away, be prepared to take the monster with her or be prepared to see monster's pic on E-bay the very next day.... In the eyes of the court, especially for a girl, she (I do not think) will be given to a father to care for.... And I will not fight her for custody too.... hehehehe... point blank... wham!!! She can run... but be prepared to
carry some baggage babes.. hahahahah....

But hey, I am a deal she finds too gud to give away man... a walking ATM who gives her everything she wants... wat else can she ask for???

"Eh.... U wanna buy engine"???

I was shocked that one can steal a million plus dollar object from the army.I remember in my own time, just the loss of a stupid nut to attach a bloody antenae to the base and I had to sign a thousand forms and answer a million questions... and yet someone could stun an engine from the Northland airforce... wow!!!

I can imagine how it went.... (dark alley somewhere in Northland).... "Heyyyy... wanna buy and engine... cheeaaapp cheeaaappp.... Just 10 million only...."? Clients looks around.... "Serious or not bro??"..... Seller goes... "Don wori... sure gud one... if not gud, I give back money"... Well it goes to show how entrepreneurial some people can be..... And imagine the number of forms dat guy had to fill in to officially try to make the engine look as though it is scrap and to scrap it and then push it out the door.... Kudos to him and his party man.... This is really called Northland Boleh!!!! I wonder wat will be the next thing to be sold??? D. M's golden throne?? I am sure that TT Durian had a golden set, D. M will have one too.... One fine day.... he steps into his favourite place to dump and "Ooohhh F**k!!! Where's my loo?"

I guess the saying that money makes the world go round is true... not love... hahaha

But on a serious note... I still feel that love is a very important. I am a guy who falls in love very seldom and when I do, it is almost impossible to stop loving. I may stop showing that love, but then within the heart, it will still be there. And for those readers.... Do not think I am having anything outside of my marriage hor... I am not!!!But seriously though, its like my wife, when I say I love her... it will mean forever... Not just while the nooky is hot... Dats y I stayed for 5 yrs in Japan even after my ex ex.. (hmmm kinda a lot of ex hor... muhahahaha)told me to F O after the 1st year of me going there. It is the same for all other relationships too... even after being told to jump off the highest building or to go c a shrink.. (actually not so bad lah... I will let go and just go to a corner and lick my wounds)... I am not that type of guy.... Even when my wife tried an April fool's day joke one fine day a long time ago... I pissed her off with my answer... She said that we wouldn't work out... and I went into my greatest Mr. Spock impersonation and told her that I expected that and if she found someone better than me... she should give it a chance.. But sometimes... even Spock falls..because he is half human....
hehehehe...

Anyways... I still prefer peace and harmony and to love people even if they do not love back... Because it is only he who has love in himself, who will be able to love others... And when you love someone, you should give your all and just want the other person to be happy.... I will stil love them all lah... no matter what happens and how it ends... bcoz I love everyone...

Wanna buy an engine??? No no serious?? We can talk about price....

What is the meaning of life?

I have in my hands a new life (my baby), also in my control, an old life (mine lah) and I am just wondering, what is the meaning of life? I might say that I may be slightly or a bit enlightened, but then I am also sometimes troubled by the life I lead and have.

A friend who I recently rediscovered really has a bad impression of me... She said I was a terrible bloke in school...Hmmm... no excuses lah... I can be quite a bastard if I want to be and I admit it. Howeever, I do feel that I should hav changed some in the following years and have matured a little more and also am a better person... But am I?

What does it mean to be alive? Sometimes I really do not know. We make the same mistakes all the time, hoping that this will be the last time we make it, we try to be better people but who do we base ourselves on?

Actually I am going around and around in a loop huh??? Hehehehe... well it doesn't matter... I was just in a mood the other day and decided to be the biggest bastard because of the 2012 "fear". It is said that we will all perish in 2012, so how do I want to live my life till then? Since being a nice guy is no fun... (hey... being nice means u get used and abused) so why not be the biggest bastard and just enjoy life as one?

Well, how many of you out there believe in 2012 and our impending doom? Or maybe I should try to be a nice guy so that I can buy a place in heaven??? Hmmm.... Well for me, I feel that life and death are challenges and so we should take it in our stride and jus do the best we can and enjoy while we can.

More pics and vids and a wierd relationship

Here are some pics and vids of my little monster, for a monster she is... When she is in a bad mood, especially when she is sleepy, she will scream the whole heaven down.

But you know something??? In the 2 weeks I have been here, I have been to heaven and hell like no man who has never been a father, would have gone to. Of course, in the courtship and mating cycle, you do go to heaven and hell, however, not like this.

Why do I say this? Being a father is a very wierd thing. A father will be the first man a girl loves or hates. This will set her for her rest of her life in the way she treats men. If she has been spoilt, she will want to be spoilt. If she was brought up in a proper manner and treated in a proper manner, then she will also learn the basics of life. However, a father may also love his daughter in the wrong way or improper way... But in every father's mind, his daughter is the little angel who is virginal and chaste and good. I am sure that there will be very few fathers who will willingly give their daughters away in happiness.... Not unless the husband to be is handsome, is as rich as a Saudi prince and is able to give me the rights to a thousand camels, 2 oil fields, 7 yacths, 5 Saville Row stores, 81 brides for my harem and so on... In fact, I swear that I will be worst than Lord Torquemada from the Spanish Inquisition. The potential guy will have to fill in a thousand page data sheet, come for an interview 2 times and pass my "honey pot" test... and I assure you, I will not be using my wife as the honey pot. In some ways, a daughter will remind the father of the woman he fell in love with and married 20 years ago and this makes giving the daughter away even harder. For me, I was cheated into marriage, so my dauther if she reminds me of my wife will be the sore spot of my wrath... hehehe.. but seems like she looks like me... so I kinda ok with that.

But seriously folks, even the movies of father and daugther all inevitably show the father becoming sad and lonely.... For me, I will be standing with my bill totiliser and making sure that little monster pays me back every damn cent....

Anyway, peace out to all daughters and suffering fathers.

Two women

You know last year I spoke about a girl who's mom was trying to work and look after her because since she was a baby, her mom divorced her dad? Last year was a really bad year and so was this. The mom is trying to hold down 2 jobs and at the same time trying to put the little girl to school and so on... The finances are always shaky because the mom does not earn very much and what little she earns goes into food, rent and so on... But in Japan, people have pride. It is different from ego... Ego is what you think you can be, have been or want to be. Pride is internal, it is what you know you are and have been. So we have pride and we do not like to be called "poor things". So what if someone looks at us with pitiful eyes and says poor thing, it will not bring food to the table. So what if people give a little here and there? Sooner or later, we will have to return it to those who gave us favour.

So me and my wife are trying to help by giving them treats, bringing them for buffet meals so that the little one can eat all she wants with as little cost as possible, and we will give them rice and other essentials. In a way, I also live my life and family this way. Little tina wears a lot of hand me downs. The reason for this is because buying clothes is not really an option. They outgrow their clothes so fast.

For me, I feel that in life, we are what we make ourselves to be. If we live with ego, we will come to a fall, but if we live with pride, we are happier people.

A heartbreaker in waiting

Yes sports fans... after only a few days with my little..... MONSTER.... I have now come to the conclusion that she will be a heartbreaker.... She is so good at making u love her.. Look at shots of some pics we had done professionally of her.... She is so cute and pretty... (don wori lah... I am not gushing and I sure as hell will not be spoiling her).... but seriously, if she grows up and maintain her looks and personality, she will definitely melt many hearts and yet at the same time break them... She is also quite a Jekyll and Hyde sorta thing... if I may say so... at times when she is cranky, she can cry up a storm and also demand that we carry her and so on... but at times.. she can also be such an angel and so nice... Esp wen old aunties come across her on the street and they comment how pretty or cute she is, she will smile and be on her best behavious.... Hmmmm... why isn't she ever cranky in public???

Some new pics

These are some prelim pics and vids of my baby.. Hope u guys enjoy.

An interesting life and an interesting wife

Hi Ya'll, tomorrow I will start a new phase of life with my wife and baby girl... I will be going to Osaka and then on Jan, I will bring them back here for good, or till the time when they have to go back again. What is for good, what is permanent. Anyway, a fren did ask me... am I having any problems with my marriage and I responded by saying that when it comes to a marriage, nothing is a problem. If there is any obstacle, we have to work it out together and make it work together.

Wife is scheduled to go back in April next year, maybe for a mth or so. Because she will have to settle some house stuff and also some of baby's medical stuff. I want to establish a clear medical history so that if anything happens, then at least she will be well looked after there.

Now that is where the life gets interesting because it seems that there is no permanence. We seem to be apart and even when we are together, we are also not as loving as most newly married couples... (hey... though we have been married 3 years plus, I have only been with her 9 mths, so can still consider as newly weds lah..

Anyway so I was giving my wife a hard time dis morning... because I just felt like it... I told her that she is expected to meet me at the point where I will be gettin off the cab near our house....
So she better not be waiting for me at home or I will immediately get on the same cab and try to catch a flight out back to Sg..... Just joking in a way... but then
it is really true dat at least she must show an effort to bring the baby to me.... After all, I am her ATM....

I told her... "do not introduce me as ATM.... I am papa... hahaha... Bcoz I am somewhat of an ATM to them right? They only need money from me right? And this ATM does not even need any cards and pin numbers and they can have all the money they want.... oooooohhh.... I think I am getting an ulcer worrying about them and the money part.... But at least next year hoepfully will be a better year and that salaries will rise and things will be easier.... If not... I can always consider selling that little monster of mine... hahahahaha......