10 yrs off my life

A very "funny" thing happened on last Fri. The problem is that the energizer rabbit has no one to "need" her and so the only people who will need her will be children as adults will not "believe" in what she says anymore. Further to this, in order to be "friendly" with the children, she will play the good guy and therefore allow them to climb over everyone's head. This is typical childish behaviour and therefore I was not surprised when the whole thing blew up. It seems like my sisters wants to instill some discipline in the children and she is getting grief from mom who will not allow the children to be good. Why would they want to be good when the oldest in the family allows them to be bad? And that is the situation I will face when I bring my family over too. She will want to come and look after Tina and then she will want to spoil her. Of course, when that happens and we stop her, we will become her enemy. It is a vicious cycle and there is nothing that anyone can do. In the end, on Friday, she went to my aunty's house, most probably to complain and then went to play mahjong and her hand phone battery was flat. So no one could contact her and my sister freaked out. For me, I was slightly worried, but then looking at the super chicken that she is, it would most probably be that she went to play instead of her being sad and crying somewhere. In the end, she went back at 10plus pm. Such is the inconsideration of the old and the problem is, it will get worse. How can the government help? I do not think they will help. There are no increase in services for the old and the saying is that you clean your own shit.. Haizzz. So much for life in our little old town... Sometimes I feel it really stinks.

That was actually why I was praying to all the powers that be, both pyshical and also imagined and I put in a disclaimer.... "I am willing to lose 10yrs of my life if I can just have some peace in my home". Some people will ask, what about my daughter and wife, but I am quite certain that if I were to have another 10yrs of this continued hell, it will be better to give it and to have peace. How to have peace? Well it depends on who gets treated and how things change lah. For me, I just want to have a quiet home with no quarrels and no problems. Though this is a very naive view, but hey, who wants to have raging arguments when they come home? And this will only get worse as the energizer rabbit gets older, more infirm and perhaps even is in less control of her mind. I have no problems with that, but it is my sis.

But what to do? I just look at my daughter's pics and vids and just hope that we will be reunited soon.

Another "awwwwww" vid... Can we call this a Kodak Moment?

Do not forget to turn on your speakers for this.

News vid of my princess

This is just one vid... There's more coming

How kids grow

Wifey just sent me some pics of Tina. How kids grow and how fast they grow... That is why one of the greatest pains in my life is not being to be with them. It is the same as your wife, she will grow old as the days go by too. How can we regain the lost days and time? You can't. Can you go back and change things? You also can't... So what can you do? Basically nothing.

I'm back!!!

After about 5 weeks plus away from work, I am back. But I have been busy too. At this time, after being away for so long, there are a lot of things that needs to be done at home. (Oh yea... the amazing energizer rabbit broke another remote control again!!!) It seems that she does not care about things that need to be cared for anymore. Imagine, if her frens were so careless as to break something, wouldn't she get angry and ask them to be more careful? She also left my dining hall chairs in "her mahjong" room, like as though the other parts of the house is not importan. If I had guests coming over, they's be surprised to see a dining table without any chairs... I may be cheap... but I do buy my dining set as a set... And to top it all off, she left another one of my mugs in the bloody sauce cabinet again. How the hell do you leave cups with sauces?

With all this, it really makes me very afraid to allow her to look after my baby.... She can be there, handle her and so on with close supervision from my wife or me... To be left alone with the child is considered dangerous. But what does she know or care? All she cares about is herself. I do not know if it is a fault of all old people or a fault with only her. Just like the other day, I had the shock of my life when I found out how much the T-shirts she bought from Greece or wherever she went to... It was 19 Euros... or close to SGD$20+... They were of low quality and also did not fit!!! And they were for baby.. Mine did not fit too for that matter.

And even before she went, she was complaining that I did not give her enough. It was close to 500 bucks and this is a lot of money to throw away. I know that people will curse me for being unfillial and being a bad son, but hey... why don't you try my Energizer rabbit and see if you can stand it? When dealing with a person who is suffering from Alzheimer's Dementia, the end point sometimes does seem like a heaven send. The big problem is when this will happen?

I am not cursing anyone and I do try not to do so... It is bad karma... But sometimes, life can be a bit difficult for us. But as life is hard, we do have to look at our options and also our own protection. So please hor... do not give judgements till you have had your own experience and are able to say what you will do.