What is the meaning of life?

I have in my hands a new life (my baby), also in my control, an old life (mine lah) and I am just wondering, what is the meaning of life? I might say that I may be slightly or a bit enlightened, but then I am also sometimes troubled by the life I lead and have.

A friend who I recently rediscovered really has a bad impression of me... She said I was a terrible bloke in school...Hmmm... no excuses lah... I can be quite a bastard if I want to be and I admit it. Howeever, I do feel that I should hav changed some in the following years and have matured a little more and also am a better person... But am I?

What does it mean to be alive? Sometimes I really do not know. We make the same mistakes all the time, hoping that this will be the last time we make it, we try to be better people but who do we base ourselves on?

Actually I am going around and around in a loop huh??? Hehehehe... well it doesn't matter... I was just in a mood the other day and decided to be the biggest bastard because of the 2012 "fear". It is said that we will all perish in 2012, so how do I want to live my life till then? Since being a nice guy is no fun... (hey... being nice means u get used and abused) so why not be the biggest bastard and just enjoy life as one?

Well, how many of you out there believe in 2012 and our impending doom? Or maybe I should try to be a nice guy so that I can buy a place in heaven??? Hmmm.... Well for me, I feel that life and death are challenges and so we should take it in our stride and jus do the best we can and enjoy while we can.