Life and Death

As we enjoy a new life in our midst, we mourn death in our society. The great M J has passed and the babalicious Farrah F too... What is life and death? That is a question that comes into my mind all the time. The answer??? I guess Life or Death does not really matter as much as how you have lived. Some people live to achieve and obtain material things. Some live for other things. Some people are easily happy, others are not.

To take into example, the fren of my wife who divorced her husband and is too poor to even buy her kid shoes had her phone cut off. Her handphone and also house phone was unreachable when my wife tried to call her. She is working 2 jobs and is trying to make ends meet and sometimes the ends just do not meet. It is the same as the time when I was nearly hauled to bankruptcy court because the bloody energizer rabbit just kept asking for money though she was already getting 1.4k a month plus 2k. I had to give her the money and not pay my bills.

The problem is much better now, but only for a short time. Her idea of how much money is worth is really troubling. It will never be enough as she will spend it all. So I gotta protect myself and my family.

But back to life. Will giving her money help? No because the saying, give someone a fish, he will eat one meal... give him a fishing rod, he will eat for life... How can we give her a fishing rod when we are all also trying to survive? A very kind fren offered to give a "small" amount to help her, but that would break her pride... not like some rabbits with no bloody pride and will take all that you have... even if you give her a sizeable amount, she will not think that it is enough. And she will try to use it all up while she is still alive!

The fren's daughter will enter school next year and my wife and I will be giving her an extra 5000 yen a month as assistance for her child... It is not much, but it will at least help her a bit.. We will also be sending her rice and whatever vegs our family grows in our farm. Will it be enough? Of course not, but at least it will help.

Now back to life... (damn.. I am wandering all over today huh) I guess it is because I am really tired. Having a baby is fun.... until the time when the baby starts to cry.... Changing diaper... is fun... we (wife and me) try to make things fun and no matter how hard life is, if we laugh, we are better off..... So little shit monster will fart all day long, let go huge amounts of fecal matter and then we have to change it. It is an experience because she does not really like to be changes and will cry and struggle... And when she cries or struggles, she will use force and more s**t comes out.... Man.... wife and me now play "scissors paper stone" to see who will be the one to change the diaper and if the one changing is unlucky enough to be "blessed".

Well I guess that everyone, good or bad, young or old will die one day and that is why for me, life is so precious... We must really cherish each day we have on this earth and all the people who are part of our lives.... We never know when they will not be around. My dad-in-law's relatives came yesterday... The eldest is the siter of my grandma-in-law.... (grandma already passed away liao hor)... So she is the grand aunt of Tina.... She is 76 and is a really well preserved little prune... Speaks with all her senses and also is able to move around without any problems... (not like some rabbits).... Her husband passed away when she was 30 plus and so she brought up 2 children since then... I find that this is what life is... Finding a reason to live and living the reason... But of course... we must find the right and good reasons lah....

Anyway, I really do hope that the departed will be at peace. RIP.