I give up

Hehehehe... My wife went for another check up... one of many while you are pregnant and I asked her to get the doctor to see if I had a boy or a girl... Deeeeeeepppp inside me, of course I would like to have a boy because then I can throw balls at him... oooppss I mean throw balls with him.. and teach him how to go after girls... ooppsss I mean be a better person... Girls... till a certain age are fun, then they become no touch areas for dads... After all, though perverted I may be... I am not that perverted mah.... Unless she is damned beautiful, has a great body and loves her daddy... (boy... I am doomed to spend an eternity in hell)

But back to the check up, no matter how the doctor check, and how they tried to look, still could not give a 100% diagnosis... Which makes me wonder if my kid has a problem and or the Japanese doctors really suck...But anyway... the doctors said... "most probably a girl lah" .. Ok lor... girl can look after the next baby lor.... haizzzz... beggars can't be choosers lah... Some more it was so difficult to get the baby in the first place...

But seriously though, I sometimes feel a bit sad to think that my dad is not around to see all this.... There was a big fuss on the forums about euthanasia and so on... No... it is not a new continent or country... It is the "killing" allowing a patient with terminal disease or incurable disease to "go". For me... I have always been proud about my mind... other than my mind.. there is nothing else really useful about my body... So I guess if my mind goes.. it is time for me to go...

But the question is, if the person has left instructions, then it is easier for the care-giver.... If not, then how does the caregiver decide? I have seen some people derided for allowing their aged parents to "go". Because the problem is, it is until we are faced with a situation, we can role play all we like.. ask what if all we like... adopt all the pre-concieved notions we like... but we will have to make the decision when the time comes. I will take the example of my grandfather-in-law... He had cancer and it was advanced by the time he went to the hospital. He was past 70 and my dad-in-law told the doctors to allow the old man to go in peace and painlessly. I have also heard of a fren who's dad-in-law has terminal cancer and he does not want to die... So what can he do? In all, it depends on the person and the caregiver... But I tell you, it is not a decision one can make easily.

As for other topics, as you may well know, AIG is in a world of trouble because it gave the very executives who brought the company down, multi million dollar bonuses and also retainment fees.... And to think about it... what the hell are they doing to demand so much money? Money is never enough for anyone.. but think of all the poor people who have nothing to eat. It brings back to mind the NKF debacle... how a man can have golden taps when the money comes from the man on the street? I am not a communist... I am a humanist... it is different from being socialist... communist or what... I think of the human beings and their feelings...

Well, I do hope that karma will catch up with them and that they will learn that what they have done to all is bad... A lot of times, when you reach a position of power and are one of the elites... be it in a corporate climate... political climate and so on, you will soon forget you are human... You may think of yourself as a god or at least a demi god... why not... in the Chinese culture... there are so many gods and demi gods and dieties and so on... that you have to have the brain the size of an entire encyclpedia to remember who is who and who does what.... I may be a chinese, but thank god I am a Buddhist... or should I say thank buddha...

As for the energizer rabbit... haizzzz.... going to Turkey or Greece or lord knows where and she will be asking for more money again... As her children, we are her walking ATM machines and there is no withdrawal limit... Even if this ATM is sucked dry and has to eat bread for a whole month... I do not think she will really control herself... So sometimes... I feel that death for me is and will be a pleasure....

Anyway... I will not go just yet... wanna wait til at least when my kid is born...