Man its been a wierd 2009

Remember my second last post, where I said that my lymph node was swollen?? That was my left side... then on last Fri, my right side swelled up too.. Damn... did I not take an anti-biotic that would have killed a horse? So how come it came back? And the left side was still a bit swollen... So I had a pretty crummy... and I mean really pretty crummy weekend. I did not even want to go anywhere.

But then I had to clear some small problems that my little energizer rabbit created.... The first being the stupid air con.... The vendor came and gave me the remote control which cost me 100 bloody bucks......!!! And then when he opened the air con to try and fix the motor.... the clip was broken and I had to get another one..... How much more man???? How come old rabbit cannot just do things using her brains a bit? And still wanna how lien and say she got nothing wrong???? She beat a puppy because it was lonely and wailing!! So what about my baby man??

So that brings me to the second mess she has created.... She called up my first aunt and just said that we will all not be going to her place for reunion dinner this year.... It has been a family thing for so many years... So I went to my aunt's place to see what was happening and to see if there was any damage control needed to be done. We as a Chinese family do have to follow certain rankings and so on... So I was afraid that mom would have stepped on some toes inadvertantly. Well she did not really step on Aunty's toes, but aunty did feel kinda odd. Furthermore, we always bring aunty for New Year's visit every year and nothing was arranged with her this year. Mom is also claiming that she will cook some things and everyone will come on the second day of new year, but seems like no one was informed.... Man if she is flying.... she has just flown all the way to the moon....

But Alzheimer's is like that... You forget, you change and you also neglect... When I was in Japan, I saw this documentary about how people with Alz can use glue to annoint their toes because the tube of glue looks like a tube of ointment and they just think it is ok. Seems like the most affected part of the brain is the fore-brain which handles higher thinking, eg ettiqutte and so on... And so when a person has Alz... he or she does not know if he or she is doing something wrong... And further to this, they will not know if what they are doing is right or wrong!!

So now comes my precious baby.... I do not think that it is safe to leave it to my energizer rabbit's care.... Of course wifey will be there to look after it too... However, it is cries, instead of trying to find out why... mom might just strike out at it... It can happen to a puppy... it can happen to my baby.... After all, people with Alz cannot really be trusted to be thinking.... And she may also have some wierd way of caring that may be totally unsafe. Imagine... she can place my mugs in the place for sauces... spoil my air con, and so on... how can she be trusted to care for a baby when she cannot even care for herself. Some more, she does like to tell lies to cover herself nowadays and the lies are pretty damn weak... She will say that her friends did it or someone else... The big problem is that she has to take responsibility so that she can be allowed the responsibility.

I do not know which stage of Alzheimer's she is in, but it is surely pretty bad now...But it sure as hell is getting to be harder on the caregiver... In Sillypore, it does not matter whether you are rich or poor... But sickness hits all... The big problem is whether the sickness is chronic and whether something can be done to it.... The government does not really care.... It just says that rooms are subsidised... medication is subsidised and so on... However, it is not free and we still have to pay for it... even if it means drawing on our CPF and or medisave and whatever medi you have.... This of course means that if you cannot afford it... you better not fall sick or else.... For me... I do not really care lah... my life can come to and end after my child is born.Some people say that it is not fair... Well sorry my friends... in this world... nothing is fair.... hehehehe