Shit man... doom is upon us... The sky is falling

Actually not just yet lah... But seriously we are all in pretty deep shit right now.... Banks are having trying times, companies are under stress and people are under pressure.... You may say what else is new, but this time round, the whole damn world is being affected. I guess that while times are good, no one really complains, but when times are bad, people do more than complain. You will see that crimes will increase in Sillypore this year and next as everyone starts to face the demon of joblessness and also of low economic growth. We did not have that much of a wooohooo!!! sort of growth, but at least it was growth.... Now if we do not shrink... we will be lucky.

I am not a nay-sayer... but the shit from the sub-prime mess has yet to fully hit us. Though banks are furiously writing off the bad debts, the new debts are still to be written off. Citibank will lay off 50,000 staff..... these guys may have some spare change left, but it may not be so... So these 50,000 people will be starting to feel very damn poor by next year.... If they cannot pay their credit cards, home mortgage or whatever.... the banks will have to go through another round of this year's shit.... It will be worse next year and everyone knows that.... Though my little energizer rabbit will say..."yea yea yea... times are bad"... but will she stop breaking my things at home? I don think so... but that being put aside... the thing is that if she knows that next year will be a bad year, then she better start to prepare for it man...

As for all other parts of this fair country... as the informed knows... the Casino's.... ooppsss I mean IR's may have a bit of problem.... It stems from cash flow problems... however, it also is because of the fact that I think that worldwide tourism will be affected. And this will again affect the bottom line of the IR. But in hindsight, the casino should actually be doing well. When times are bad, people will hope that a windfall will help them through and the windfall will be equal to the throw of a dice, bet of a chip and so on.... Come on.. admit it... how many of you buy Toto in the hope that they can strike the minimum of 600k each draw? 600k will help in many many many many many ways... and the bet is only $2.00 for the base bet.... but to help increase your chance... you will buy more right???

For me... I have not bought any 4D or toto for the past few months... I do not feel lucky.... In fact, I think I used up my luck in making the baby, so I am happy with that.... I also calculate that if I were to bet $10 on every draw, there being 5 draws each week, 2 for Toto and 3 for 4D, I will be spending $50 a week and in 1 yr, I will be spending at least $2,600 a year.... and who the hell only bets 10 lousy bucks on any game???? I would be lucky if I stopped at $50....So as you can see, when you use your brain to think about gambling, you will know that a windfall is just a windfall. But if you have to use money to get the windfall, then it defeats the purpose.

So for me, I will just play when the mood hits me and when I feel lucky... which I do not these few days.

Anyway, back to the topic of the world collapsing... or was it the sky.... the shit will be worse next year and that will be when my baby is born.... hmmmmm not sure if I can call it luck or fate or what man.... haizzzz don care lah... jus bear the baby and then we talk about how to bring it up...

But as the sun has risen for the past 4.5billion years, little energizer will want to come and "look after" the kid.... My dad in law once mentioned.... babies are so cute... but are so stupid because they do not understand you.... I think he hit a very good point... So old people want to "look after" babies because it makes them feel useful and also they are sure be smarter than the baby.....hhhmmmmmmm.... For energizer rabbit I will have my doubts man.... after all... if my kid takes after me... he or she will come out of the womb and say... "Yo man... get your hands off me... I'm cool....(to the doctor)... and to the nurse.... hey babe... wanna dance".

But if my kid is butt stupid... then there is no choice lah.... it is God's will.,...hehehehehe... So back to energizer rabbit..... I am seriously having my doubts liao....if she drops the kid and the kid becomes stupid... she will blame the alien that came out from the blue sky and spoke to her in Hebrew.... After all who else can she blame over there??? My wife??? She cannot be that stupid right?? But then.... she may be man.... I do remember that there was one time when she did something wrong in my kitchen... and I caught her on it... and she said she did not know who did it and it may have been my wife... yea right... my home is my kingdom and I run it my way.... even wifey has to follow my rules and my way.... so it cannot be her... How stupid does she think we all are??

But then seriously speaking... it is like being a kid... afraid of losing the love or being looked at in a bad way by someone she needs and therefore she will do anything to look like an angel.... That is why the knee jerk response is "I don't know... must have someone else... anyone else but me".... So I do understand and I do try not to show my frustrations... but times are bad and the sky is falling.... And the Gahmen is not doing anything to help.

I applaud the idea of creating a fund to assist elderly folk here.... It is true mah.... they have given you... Gahmen a lot in the past years... and were in fact the people who helped to bring Sillypore up.... So you must support them mah.... hint hint hint....

Ciaos and peace out for now....

WTF

I just had a really crummy weekend. In fact, it was quite crummy in the beginning, but that was a different story all together. Then yesterday, I woke up to find my energizer rabbit in the kitchen.... She mentioned that the air con remotes of both her room and the mahjong room were out of battery.... Ok lor... change battery lor.... I changed hers without any problems, then went into the mahjong room.....??? WTF??? WTbloodyF!!!??? The flap that opens and closes when you turn on the power was hanging loose and there was a clothes peg clipped to it...... Ohhhhhh shhhiiiiittttttttt.......

I changed the batteries to the remote and...... ooohhhhhh shhhhiiiittttt.... the LCD was very faint and even no matter where or how I pressed, it would not activate the air con..... so I took the one from her room and turned the air con on and it made an aweful noise...... the flap was not attached to the motor anymore.... So conclusion of the whole thing.... 1)... She being old and her mahjong khakis being old, must have been cold and then they tried to wrangle the stupid flap and it got detached from the motor. Don't know if I need to do any major repairs or just to re-attach it. Then comes the remote.... I shook it and it sounded like the cha cha thingys that bands have..... So what does that mean??? It must have been dropped so many times that it decided it would not work anymore... I do admit that my remotes do drop on the floor and this happens quite a few times... But then the thing is... you must try to be careful not to drop it lor....

So now where the bloody F am I gonna find a spare remote??? I am not angry because I have to spend money... but I am angry because the energizer rabbit just has to take some more responsibility for her own self... I wanted to ask... but then in the end before she even came up with an excuse... I just cut her off and told her forget it lah.. she will either say she does not know or that it is some friend who did it... As a part owner of the house, she should feel a bit more concern man.....

So the question will be that she does not want to admit that she has a problem and when approached about it, she again gets defensive and offensive... So I will only say one thing.... She is really getting on my nerves....

And the sad thing is that the gahmen is doing nothing to help us who are helping these elderly folks... They claim that it will be a problem in 30 years.... uuuhhhh it is a problem now man..... And when they said people are living longer... they did not also say that the longer living ones are actually quite literally out of their minds..... And the thing is there is still no support facilities.... Geriatric Psychiatry is still a domain of the IMH..... yeah... you just mention Woodbridge and you will see that no matter how crazy the old one is... he or she will run even faster away and also claim that they are not crazy... It is not being crazy... it is just that they need support and also help in understanding the problems they are facing and also support as to how to face it... Imagine... losing all powers and abilities... It is a scary thing... but it happens when you are suffering from dementia. Where are the facilities for such old people to go even for the daytime and find a new reason for life? Where are the counsellors and so on who are required to help these people on their end of life journey. I am only saying that as a normal adult who needs to worry about my own family and also my parents who are aged and having a bit of mental problems. But if the support structure is not there and my parents slide further down the slope, then the only choice will be to send my energizer rabbit to a home.... I am serious..... In fact, just think about it... If she can unknowingly put things on shelves where they can be broken or break things just like that, then when my little samurai comes to Sillypore and lives with me, she will come and she will want to look after it... Though my wife will be here looking after it full time... what will happen if she offers to bath the child and she scalds the child?? "It was some green man who came from a space ship and did it".... or some other excuse... and when she is caught with the lie... she will again get deffensive and offensive....

Also she will insist that we are not being good parents and so on just because we will not spoil the kid... In the end.... we will have mayhem... and who do we blame???? Who can we blame???

The Little Curry Puff in the Oven

As the weeks goes by, my child grows ever bigger.Now it is 2.4cm and as you can see, it is now looking more human than the previous pics I have uploaded.... hehehehe.... hope so man.....

I am still not sure if it will be a girl or boy, though by now the lottery of genetics would have already decided for us. Both ways also ok lah.... as I mentioned before, if it is a girl, she will be called Christina Komatsu Yeo Pei Sing, and if it is boy, I will call him Leon Komatsu Yeo Chin Leng or Long.... But since it is a girl... I think we will just settle for Christina.... hehehehe...

How come I am so convinced that it is a girl??? Firstly because of my age.... Guys who are older tend to produce more girls than boys.... Seems like the *ahem**ahem* carries either an X or Y chromosome and the X which will result in a girl is slightly more lasting.....

I also keep dreaming that it is a girl.... and so did my wife.... And a lot of other people have also said that it should be a girl..... Even my darling Energiser Rabbit also claims she can see the future and says that it is a girl... however... her words are now never based on fact and her gut feeling...(gut already so old and not really functioning liao) is not to be really relied on too.hehehehehe

But I will be damned surprised... though in a good way if it turns out to be a boy.... I only hope that for all the evils that I have done in all my life.... the worst case scenario... which is a girl coming out thinking that she is a boy or a boy coming out and thinking that he is a she does not happen..... Of course the next thing is that the child is safe and healthy.... Like I mentioned before, the expected date of birth is in mid June in the year of the Bull....(ooooohhh boy.... a realy stubborn child man)... but my worst fear is wifey calling me up around March and saying that she is going into labour.... That will be really stinky as most flights to Japan will be around 1am the next morning.... and I will have to transfer to the domestic terminal to take another flight to Akita City.... So that will take most of the whole day... if I am lucky enough to get a flight out.... The worst will be to transit here and there just to get to my wife's side..... No matter how long the birth will be... it should be over by then..... and if she were really an evil person.. she could get the nurse to show me another kid and I will be crying my eyes out at the sight of a kid that is not mine...... hmmmmm DNA tests are in order.... hahahahahaha

Why I have that fear? I was pre-mature too.... I am not sure if it runs in the family... but if it does.... Oh.... boy.....And I cannot afford such a long leave to anticipate a pre-mature birth too. I will be by her side about 2 weeks before the ETB and 1 month after the ETB to help her and her parents adjust.... Better lah... if not mother-in-law will be holding placards saying "Go home".

But anyway.... the baby is growing pretty much on target and wifey is also healthy and that is most important....

Life is strange

You know..... in Sillypore, people do not care or bother about other people.... They only care about themselves.... But the big problem is that if they do not care about others.... how can they ask others to care about them..... Case in point... this morning, I was on my way to work.... I was near my workplace.... and there was a zebra crossing.... There were 2 ladies who were taking forever to cross the crossing.... It is a single lane road... U do not need 3 minutes to cross it....!!! But they were chatting and not caring about others and so I gave them a short beep on my horn.... My horn is kinda weak tho I drive a wonderful car.... Maybe I should change to those big asse air horns that will scare the 7 spirits from a person's body and jus give them a blast. Instead of hurrying up... they jus stared at me.... Wah liao eh... u own the road is it? Just like the other time also, a young lady was crossing a traffic crossing... the light was blinking... and she was talking on her handphone... so I gave her a beep and she has the balls.... ooopppsss.... ladies do not have balls.... to ask..."What??? Not red yet what!!??" If I were to run her down there and then.... can I ask "What???!!!! Green liao mah!!??" Give and take lah..... you do not want people to abise your kindness.. then don abuse others lah shit for brains....... If it were a guy... I'd probably inch closer and see if I can bump him.... no loss to me mah....

But seriously..... I am an ABCD....... don know wat it is??? No... it is not like the typical ABC... which stands for American Born Chinese... who speak which the strange American accent..... I am an Ah Beng Car Driver.... hahahahahahahahaha..... Having an evo... I turn it to look like a Lancer... and now with a big ass and one of the loudest aftermarket exhaust systems.... It is so Beng..... hahahahahahahahaha

But I try not to be an Ah Beng.... To be truthfull.... I have nothing against them..... I have been living continuously for over 10 yrs.... in Aus and in Japan... and yet I come back and speak all my lahs and all my singlish.... I hate people speaking with a fake accent..... I prefer to be normal, speak normal and live normally..... But then it will kill me if my children were to live here and speak with singlish..... It will break my heart... after all, they are half Japanese and imagine them speaking lah here lah there..... Aiyoooooo

Anyway.... Just a warning to those out there hor.... if you do not cross your road fast fast... and if you see and Ah Beng'ed out Evo black colour... u better vocer your ears.... If I get pissed off enough... I will add an air horn and blast you off man......


Peace and cheers out

Damn tired man

This is a pic of my "it" (since I do not know if it is a boy or girl yet) taken 2 weeks ago while I was in Zurich..... It was now 1.1cm and still growing.... It is miraculous that it grew almost twice its size in a week because the week before, it was only 3.7mm.... Dats really bloody small man..... I even have prostate stones bigger den dat man..... hehehehe.... gud idea.... if my wife bitches that we men do not know how it feels like to be pregnant.... I can say..... I do.... I had a stone about 1cm in my bloody prostate..... I will not say gonads because I am not ever sure where the bloody hell those are but I think they are in the same place....And if she complaims that we do not know how painful it is to give birth.... I can also say.... I do.... I jus pee'd out a stone the size of Mt Fuji before I went to Japan in Sep.




As you can see..... its not a small piece of thingy man... and it came out of the pee-hole..... (Sorry to be crude hor...please don censor me hor....ooops I mean censure)

Anyway, seriously though, a guy will never know how it feels to have a kid... but nowadays... many fathers are taking more effort in helping the wife to look after the kid..... They used to be running away with the excuse of having to work, but now, they are actually staying at home to help..... For me.... I will be buying a NBC (nuclear, biological, chemical) suit..... Imagine when the baby poops and you are faced with a chemical or biological disaster!!!! Help you wife change the diaper, wipe the butt of YOUR kid, talcum powder it and then replace the diaper without gagging or throwing up and looking green... Your wife does it mahh.... We are just pussies and so will do it within the comfort of an NBC suit..... hehehehehe....

In Japan there are actually paper masks that have inserts that you can insert pads with scent infused.....ooooohhhh.... idea.... no need NBC suit lah.... hahahaha...


Anyway, now it is a great guess as to whether my child will be a boy or a girl.... For me it is the same any and either way..... as long as it does not come out as a boy/girl or girl/boy..... Or worse still.... a boy who thinks he is a girl or a girl who thinks he is a boy...... But then seriously speaking, we cannot control what we have any also have to accept what we get.... So I am prepared lah.... I came across this add on the internet.... it was about how a baby girl was born and the father promised to love her and take care of her for life.... I think that it is some sort of add for teen pregnancy... but the story goes that the girl grew up... got pregnant and the father was about to bash the shit out of her when he remembered his promise and so on and stopped..... Well.... what can I say.... We cannot choose our children as much as children cannot choose their parents.... So when you are strapped with your own version of my energizer rabit.... you may want to bash the shit out of the rabbit, but no choice lah... just let them be lah.....

Just like dis weekend on Sat... I brought the energizer out.... we had a good talk.... She said... "If I have cancer... I do not want anymore treatment...(phhffft!! yea right.... !!!) But then if you start to think about it.... if she really doesn't care anymore, then why the hell is she still seeing the stupid geriatric dr every month or so.... has liver test... blood test and all the blah and keeps moaning about it? If you don wanna have treatment, den don go for the tests lah.... haiyoooo.... waste money only..... brains don know growing where man..... say one thing... do another and so on...

Anyway..... cool down cool down.... if not then my child will really come out and have a really aggro'd dad man.... hehehehehe

Cheers and peace out!!!

Trouble trouble toils and bubble tea

As you can see from the title, life is pretty interesting. For me, no matter what happens in life, I always look at the positive side and feel better. My little nephew was just diagnosed with a cyst or something like dat in his brain.... It is impacting on a blood vessel or something like dat. You should see it feels liek s**t and sad when you hear of one so young having a problem.... and it is also no joke. But then having actually gone through the same problem before, I would say that in life, we will always face problems, be they big or small. But then the most important thing is that as a parent, we must always put a strong face in front of the children, we must not break down. I saw my mom and sis crying like as though the kid was dead or dying and I really worried if the kid would not be permanently scarred.... Hey kids do have pretty damn good memories and they will remember in future hor..... I still remember my parents in Tokyo tower when I was 5 and they were arguing about whether to enter or not. Mom wanted to go, but me and sis were there and we would be scared until our shit turned green..... So what did my parents with great iq's do? They turned us to the back and carried us in.......

Oi.......

Same problem from a different angle..... But back to the serious talk.... For me.... like I mentioned before, everything has a time and a place.... My wife went to the sensei to get treatment.... Everyone here freaked out.... Of course wifey was smart and I also told her a great number of times, no pressing of the body.... But to be truthful, if she did anything stupid and she lost the baby, so be it lor.... We try to make another one lor..... At least we can make babies mah....

Life is like that, it is full of hardship and also full of pain... it is just how to handle the hardship and pain.... For me, when I heard that I had a tumour,(in fact 2), I just asked the doctor what was the best course of action. Even the GP who sent me to the neurologist called me to give me comfort, but I was ok..... Tumour only mah..... as long as it does not grow bigger.... and two some more!!!... My ex girlfriend of that time asked if I was going to die some more.... choi choi choi!!!!

But it is true lah..... we are lucky to have found it out in the little kid and now we can make changes to his lifestyle to ensure that he is ok. It is far better that the little monster keeling over and dying den we find out right? Think positive lah...

Now comes the bitching part.... If the kid had something terminal and needed an operation, it would cost at least 20k...... how to find enough money and to pay for it? As a kid, you want to give him all the chances of living mah..... Not like my little Energizer rabit who keeps going on and on and on.... She keeps visiting the hospital every month, bragging that she will undergo this test and that test and it will cost so much..... uhhh... hello.... not being a bad son... but imagine spending over 300-400 a month on medical and tests.... What happens if there is really something wrong? She wants to go because she does not want to die.... But then the oxy-moron is that if she is found with something serious.... then how? At 70 plus, she will be going on to 80 and maybe even 90.... energizer mah.... ever-ready would have gone kaput by now. Would you do chemo on a 70yr old? He or she would be having such a shitting bad quality of life.... And would be feeling so bloody bad..... And treatment will probably allow you another 5-10 years.... Non treatment depending on disease will be 3-4years? Natural life is 8-10 yrs? So you see... sometimes the financials of things and also the point of treatment is very important. If she gets treatment and she responds and is happy, she is ok.... but she is not and her Alzheimers is getting worse.

Haizzzzzzz.... I really think I need a bubble tea liao.......

Back from another trip

I just got back from Switzerland this weekend. Man I have been tavelling too much and am now too damn tired. And my cough is not much better man. Its been almost 4 months, but then considering the other medical problems I have been having, I think that it is not much of an issue.... only an irritation.

It snowed while I was there in Zurich... which is damned strange.... People think global warming is a myth, but it is staring straight at us right now. Most of us will think that it is some other person's problem, but it is actually our own and also our children and their children.

But talking about children, having one is not cheap man.... even while it is inside the body, it is already costing me plenty of money.... the hospital visits, the supplements and so on... all are things that cost money... then you bear the child.... hospital and doctor fees too.... Depending on a C Section, Epidural or natural birth... again all the money is to be factored in. The most expensive will be of course a C Section.

Then bringing up the child is another cost... Education, transport... allowance and so on.... And if the child is not too bright... tuition and so on..... So how on earth does the gahmen think we can afford to bring up or even to have children??? They put it so easily... have more children... it is good... but lets look at it this way lah... it is not cheap..... and they are not giving us much help to bring up our children.

It is just like the movie SICKO by Michael Moore, the famous director of Lord of the Rings and also Ferenheit 9/11.... He may take a very dim view of the Bush administration, however in Sicko, he took a very dim view of the health insurance scheme of the US. And I draw some very sad but realistic references to our own system. In the US, most people have to buy health insurance in order to be assured a good quality of treatment. We too have to pay for health insurance to ensure that if we fall seriously ill, we are covered. But insurance companies will always try to find ways of not paying for something. That is their business. So no matter how well you are covered, you may not be covered.... and that is the truth..... Since this is the case, then we truly have to worry about how to get enough money to pay for treatments if we do fall ill.... If we need to get dialysis, we need to pay about 1k a month.... It is also the same for cancer treatments..... That does not cover any surgery or so on....

So now the question is to how to pay for something if you do not have the money??? Don't have it? The gahmen promises that we will get the most basic of care.... but if we go for a means test, will we be able to fall into the criteria of being able to enjoy a subsidy.

So ladies and gentlemen..... we are all screwed....