A State of mind

Yesterday I was pretty gloomy because I am faced with a lot of family problems. My energizer rabbit is slowly draining the life forces out of me, like a short circuit draining a battery.

Talking about draining, my car is still in the workshop. The reason being that there is an electrical fault somewhere and it is causing the throttle not to open properly. This causes the car to hesitate sometimes, and especially when the engin is hot and the boost is high. But do not worry my gentle readers, I am not modding my car anymore. I have decided that you cannot make a donkey into a race horse and therefore have given up wasting money. Now the only option is to drive the car till it had come to break even point and sell it away for something else.

Now to lighter things in life. I have been taking cabs quite a few times because of being car'less, not careless hor and I do have great times talking to the taxi uncles. Many of them will talk about their lives and so on. I will also tell them about mine lah. It is like being in an empty bar and you chat with the bartender. But when I say that I am married to a Japanese lady, I do not understand why everyone is so surprised. Maybe because I am short and plump and it is even harder to imagine. (Oh yea... it is not because Ihave a fantastic big d**k or am fantastically rich) But I managed to marry a most wonderfl lady who wakes up every morning, after having to endure my loud snoring every night to see me off to work.

When I get home, dinner is ready and she will prepare the dishes so that my food is hot. Then she washes up and also prepares the bath for me. Hey guys.... u remember my previous blogs about guys peelin prawns for Sg char bor? Well, my prawns are peeled for me.... hehehehehehehe

But then of course, she does not scream "Yamete" or "Iku". She also does tend to be really strong and makes me suffer in nefarious ways when and if I do not do things to her liking. She is the master at psychological warfare and to top it off, it is guerilla psychological warfare. Not the type typically employed by the Sg char bor which is to whine and make herself look cute or pitiful. She does not even have to shout or scream and I hear her properly, loud and clearly. All she does is to give me the silent treatment. Man!!! That is the worst that a guy can have.

It may be every guy's dream to have their char bor clam up and to give them some peace. But then if this "peace" continues for hours and days, then it becomes an even more interesting incident. By the end of the period, you will be pleading for mercy and for forgiveness. Trust me on this my gentle readers.

But I am lucky in the sense that I do not really do many mistakes and when I do it, I know that I made a boo boo and that is when I try to recover even before she starts off on me. Imagine an idiot who gets himself a Jap wife and yet does not know when he does wrong. He will be in so much s**t.

But seriously, back to my topic of a state of mind. Happiness, sadness, anger and so on are states of mind in my opinion. You can feel happy, you can also feel sad, but you can also feel anything but that feeling if you so wish. When something bad happens, you can either blame everyone and everything other than yourself, you can also blame yourself and so on, but in the end, you can also laugh it off and just get on with life.

Of course, I would consider it only under normal circumstance. If someone died and you are laughing and chuckling out loud, then either you really hate the person or you have some problem in the CPU area. However, sometimes it would be okay to laugh at someone's death. For me, I would like to have people remember me and also maybe share a few jokes about my life.... (not my weight or height.. hor) and then fondly remember me. I was also thinking of having a comedy area where people can go to during my funeral just to have a laugh.... Of course I would not want to have gawkers at my funeral, but then it would be a hoot to be able to have someone like that really funny Kumar come and do a few skits.

Many people fear death, but for me, it is a new adventure. I have been on many adventures in life, from being born, going through NS, going to a foreign uni, to even working overseas. I have also faced death many times in my life, from my time in the army, to snorkelling off Krabi to even when I am racing. Not to mention the brain tumours I have had. For me, I think that living is definitely harder than dying.

Anyway, back to another funny episode. This is about the mortality of life and how we face it stoically ad bravely. There was once when during my army daze, we were in Thailand for training. It was really an aweful frame because we had an aweful accident even before we started and it resulted in loss of life. As most guys who have been through army will know, the equipment we use in Kanchanaburi is really old and also been ued by many other people. We were on this training exercise where we were to use this live explosives on a jungle trail. The way in front was blocked by the explosive, our landrover had stalled and the sides of the trail was so packed with dense trees that we could not go to the back. On hindsight, we could have climbed over the top and gone to the back. But being goondoo soldiers, we just sat in front of the great big mine and decided to blow it up so that recovery vehicles could come and bring our landrover out. When I asked the officer "Sir, what will happen if the mine was too big and we are too close?" He just said "hunker down and make as small a target as you can, open your mouth slightly so that the air pressure will not rupture your lungs".... Bloody s**t.... rupture and lungs do not go well in a single sentence man!!!!

In the end, when we blew the mine, the air was filled with smoke and our mouths full of sand... we were glad that we were alive!!! (But on hindsight... how come we did not climb over the damned vehicle and at least have something bigger in between us and the stupid mine????)

But like I said gentle readers... life is such that shit happens..... So please lets have safe fun and be happy with what we have.


Cheers and peace out.