Tired of Life... Tired of Livng

Don't you get the feeling sometimes? This is sometimes known as being depressed. If this feeling continues, then you better consult a psychiatrist and a counsellor.

The reason for this feeling that I have now is most because I will be faced withthe most challenging times of my life next year. I am thinking of starting some businesses, please read the plural form, starting a family with a new kid.... (meaning that I have to be prodctive too) and also trying to keep the energizer rabit from mauling my sister, the energizer part2.

My mom is getting demented. How I kno about it?She talks nonsense and acts like a kid. But the probem is that she also hates the present boyfriend of my sister like hell. I do not think that he is anthing wrong and even if he is, it is my sister's problem and no on else's. Yet my mom just cannot let it go. And her hatred for this guy has become a hatred for my sister too. We as childen try to give her the best of everything. From her own special room in both our houses to even giving her money. But she is never happy.

In fact, she is always trying to make trouble for everyone. In a normal situation, we would be happy if our children have found good mates and are now settling down. Se fears that the children will leave her alone and so on. I find that my mom is like my sis, canno be alone or be lonely. For me, I am like a wolf, I prefer t be alone, to eat alone and to talk to myself. Even if I have an argument with myself, I am able to come to an amicabe compromise.

So once my kid is born.... if I can have a kid, the energizer rabbit will come to my place to "look after" my child. But then, she will spoil the child rotten as this is all she knows how to do. It is also her only way of ensuring that the child wants and needs her and fr her to get a feeling of being needed. But for a guy who is pushing 40 plus and a mother who is also not as young, we cannot afford to bring up a rotten child. We have t ensure that the child s able to look after herself as soon as possible. That is why I am not allowing my wife to work. So that she can be a full time mom and to bring the kid up in the proper way. If not the child is looked after by he maid orthe grand-parent and be spoilt.

So now the situation is that if we do not allow her to spoil the child, guess who the energizer rabbit will turn against???? My wife.... "She not good lah.... she don know how t look after children and so on!!"" The same thing is happening to my sis and my sis is already soiling the children like mad. So now you see why I am in a dilemma. This oso cannot, that oso cannot...


I am tired man.

Time to ponder

Today is unfortunately the 1st Anniversary of the passing of A's dad. In the last 2 years, I have already quite a few friends lose their fathers to illness and sudden death. Mine went in Mar 2002, 5 years ago. It seems like most Sillypore men will be lucky to live to 70 as many of the people that I know of do have problems staying alive till 70. This is of course not the same for women. Like my little energizer battery mom who will go on and on and on and on and on..... they will live to a ripe (I mean she is really starting to have all the grandma smells.... yucks!!!) old age of 80 plus.

I do not really realize the reason why and how the government of Sillypore think that people are living till an older age. Maybe the super rich are living till an old age, but most of the normal people should be happy to live till 70.

Further to this will be the implementation of the annuity scheme in which it is compulsory for all to enter and if we wish it to be disbursed to our children, then we have to payhigher premiums. The poor will die poor and the rich will just live on. This may be hard to swollow, but lets look at it this way my friends, if you had a ton of money, you can consult the best docs and get the best meds. If you were normal everyday joe Sillyporean, if you had to cough up 1k plus for dialysis and di not qualify for subsidy by NKF or any of the other organisations, you are screwed. If normal Jane Sillyporean gets cancer and needs treatment, the anti cancer treatments will also cost 1k plus each month. If she is sick, can she work to get the money? If she did not have any medical insurance, could she pay for it? We are not talking about first class wards or something like that, we are talking about basic survival.

I will not use this blog as an anti government platform, but then seriously, I was speaking to some frens and they also mentioned that Sillypore is not a good place to live if you have not much income. It is only wen u have more than ample income that you will find this place a nice place. Imagine.... many moons ago, I walked into a shop in Orchard road. I was shopping for a good watch like a Tag or something like dat. I was dressed in Bermudas and sandals (as I am always dressed when I am having a slow day), and no one wanted to even approach me. What??? Bermuda and sandal means no money ah?

Maybe I should dress in a tux the next time I want to buy something abve $300. And like the tai driver uncle who had lunch with us yesterday said, taxi drivers are give a bad rep only because of a few rotten tomatoes. It could be the company's fault, it could be the driver's fault and it could also be the passengers fault. But in the end, it is the taxi driver who has to get the shit.

So back to my title.... It is time to ponder where we are going, what this journey will be, where it will lead and when will it end. All very ponderous questions and it is true. We have to ponder them somehow, sometime and somewhere. I have had many deep thoughts and also many deep revelations from all this thinking and my answer is "FARK IT!!!! "


Cheers and peace out.

Rainy days and wierd weather

Its been a rainy past few days and I have not been able to catch the moon clearly, let alone been able to use the big bazooka.

I am not sure, but I was sure that the rainy season started a bit later in the year leh. But there is always the chance that this Sat will be a bit clearer and we can go and try to see something. Almost everyone agrees that Star Gazing is much better and safer than modding and racing. I must also point that I do not race hor. But it is true lah.... the only thing is that now the battery for the mount is not working properly and I will have to get it changed. I am thinking of going soon because if not, then this weekend I will not be able to move the 8"'s mount.

And if I can't use the 8", then there is nothin much that can be seen. But actually if the wather is cloudy, then there will be nothing to be seen at all even if we use any scope.... hehehehehe

Astrology has always been an interest of mine. To be able to see other planets and stars and to be able to see the moon as clearly as I have using the small scope. I guess that when we have a respect of how insignificant we are, that we will be able to start wondering what is outside our own little world.

Cheers and peace

Oh Shit this is shit

I have a few funny things to tell you brothers and sistas..... My sis bought a dog.... It is a white German Shepard. It is a she and she is so cute. So what happened was that I brought little Snowy back to my place on Fri night. She was so frightened that she followed me almost everywhere. And while I was not looking, she pooped a wet piece of shite on my bedroom floor. Of all places to go, she had to go in my bedroom!!!!! Man it was sinky and wet ad sticky..... ooohhhh sick..... but good practice lah.... Next time have babies also will be the same. Have to clear the shite from the baby's butt. Then that night I had such a clear dream about me and M having a baby girl.... She was so cute.... So according to everyone, I will most probably have a baby girl.....

Hai... no choice lor... girl girl lor.... With my faulty piping and old sperms if can ave a kid already very good liao.

Some more with the pressure of my work, I will be lucy if I can produce enough. But the god thing is that if I have any problems, I wll make such a big stink and blame it all on the company.

And talking about stink... ladies and gentlemen, please d not fly SQ and if you are a frequent flyer, convert to some other carrier. I have had enough of paying through my nose to have some char bor with a wierd english accent serve me and trying to accrue miles just to qualify for some stupid use of some stupid lounge and possibly better check in services. The reason why I am so pissed off is because they have a stupid system of having t qualify or Gold every year. Last year, I was short by a thousand mile or so and could not extend my qualification period and this year I qualifed way ahead of time and cannot push the rest o my flights to the next qualification period. I have another trip to Switzerland in Dec and the 10k miles will be wasted. Shite on you SQ!!!! Shame on you for short endng all your loyal supporters.


Today is a bad day for me I guess... heee heeee.... looking forward to making babies with M because she will be here tomoo night,

Cheers and peace out

A simple Girl, An attached Lady, A married Lady, A singapore Girl and A China Girl

These are all expression of a certain type of girl or lady that a guy has an inpression on. This is my take on the following:

1) A simple girl:
This human being is either very hard to find or does not exist. The reason why I say this is because in everyone, there is a trade off. A girl may be simple, she may have simple tastes or wear simple clothes. She may even wear light or simple make up or is easily made happy. I do know of such girls...... But then there will be somewhere within this girl who is not simple... ater all... if she is all that simple and in demand.... she would most probably be married and someone else's simple darling.

2) An Attached lady:
A lady is only attached in so far as and when she feels happy. This is quite different from a guy.... A guy is never attached or heaven forbids....MARRIED..... just ask any lady on the road to ask any guy on the road...."Are you married or attached?"... If the lady asking is quite pretty... You can bet your bottom dollar that the answer will be "No... not married or attached"

But for ladies, if she feels secure, if she feels loved.... she will always be attached. Even if she is havng the shits from the guy, she will stay true to him...... Unless it is a girl from Singapore..... that wierd creature will only be attached to the most hndsome, tall and rich guy..... (but little secret hor.... this type of guy does not exist!!!!). So you guys have it easy. Make your char bor feel nice and she is yours....

3) Married Lady:
In Singapore, the divorce rates are rising. This is because the above mentioned species of the Singapore General population have an overgrown ego and a sense of pride. While dating, the guys are trying to get into her pants, so he will do everything for her. (Even peeling the prawns). If he is caught with his hands in the "cookie" jar... he will have to marry her!!! That is when the perception of "well being" falls down. Now he will not peel prawns for her, will not call her dear, but th shock is too great for the married woman and she wants a divorce.... That is life for you man.

4) Singapore Girl:
This is a very wierd sub-categorisaton of the above. Not trying to make broad sweeping statements and I know that there are some really nice gals out there, but to be frank... I would rather marry a dog than to marry the Singapore Girl. She thinks only of the 5'C, Good Company, Credit Card, Car, Condominium, Cash, Diamond Carrats.... waaaaahhh more than 5C's liao..... Wake up lah..... If you think you can marry into money.... almost 3/4 of the other population would be thinking the same thing lah..... And to top it off... the guy must peel prawns for her...... But to ask yourself this... what do you have that a guy with 5+c's will be interested in you... let alone peel prawns for you??? (Which I might add is a highly dangerous endeavour because most Singapore guys I know do not wash their hands after going to the toilet!!!)

The Singapore girl also has a great tendency to come up with wierd accents. I must admit that I have lived abroad for almost 10 years.... I came back an Ah Beng... speaking with all the lahs and so on.... in fact.... my usual speech with a typical Singapore guy friend will be... "what the F** lah.... don wan lah.... haiya u h!!!!" But most gers who are a bit more attractive think that with a foreign accent, theybecome more attractive..... (chey..... all also cannot make it lah....)

In fact, there was once... many moons ago, I was at White Sands Mac's, while I was about to move into my flat, I was dressed in simple T and shorts... smelt of sweat and paint and the lady in front.... and indian.... looked at m from head to toe.... The hed to toe did not take that long because I am short.... hehehehe... but then she turned around in a disdainful look and spoke with some godawful parody of an American Accent. When I am with Ang Mo... I do not even slang or use accent man..... Anyway, I must have dropped her jaw when I dropped into my highly modified... (Ah beng) car and vroommed off.... imagine and ah beng who can drive such a nice car.... maybe can hor..... hehehehehe

Anyways... now to the last of the women of Singapore... The China Girl:
This is only meant for those who come straight from China hor.... They suffer a bad reputation here... Many come here to make their bundle... their fortune or whatever you wish to call it. Some come here under social visit visas, some come under the "Pei Du Mama"(meanings following the children to study) and or study visas and will try to work here. Some will work in seemingly proper places like markets and factories for their money, while others will try to work in massage parlours and so on. But if you give them a horny old man who knows nothing better, they will try to marry the guy for his money and his passport. In Japan, there have been many cases of wives from China killing their husbands so that they end up with the insurance.... But I guess this does not only apply to Chinese brides... any bride will also consider killing their husbands for money.... The case in point should be that China women have Higher Propensity to off their husbands for money... after all.... they already have the passpots liao mah....

But actually how can we blame the guy for falling for them... Most China girls are damn pretty and they peel the prawns for the guys...(Thats why hor guys..... if the char bor do not wash their hands and peel prawns... technically it will not be murder and most possibly be a very unfortunate accident hor).

Please forgive the emphasis on the peeling of prawns but I am just trying to have some fun at the opposite sex.... whichever class they belong to.


Cheers and peac out.

Life and Death and the Energizer Battery Rabbit

This will be a serious piece my frens, because V's dad passed away. People of my age of 30 plus and perhaps even 40, are now facing the severe possibility of our parents passing on. My dad passed over 5 years ago from a stroke. He was 65. The sad fact is that as we are growing older, so are our parents. Those whose parents are lucky to be still alive, will have to face the inevitability of their passing.

I am always saying that in life, the only thing confirmed or the only thing we will never escape is death. We can escape from poverty, we can escape from having bad looks, or whatever, but we will all still die.

I am not afraid of death, having faced it a few times in my lifetime already. It is in fact a new adventure for me. But the fact that I will be leaving behind a whole shit load of worries and problems is a worry to me.

But the are some people who are afraid of death. Like my mom.... she is like the Energizer Battery Bunny.... she goes on and on and on and on..... Anyone who sees her knows that she will have a long life...... But she is spending so much money that even if she has a long life.... she better hope that it is not that long... Both me and my sister are sure to kick off before her.

I am not being negative or what lah.... But I would rather go early than to go late and suffer the indignities of being sick or being in the care of someone..... And in the case of the Energizer Battery Rabbit.... making life a living hell for all who come.......

Sometimes a full and proper life is better than being rich and so on. I was just thinking about certain friends who came into my life and were idiots in everyway. I do not wish them bad or what, but I would never want to be their friends again. Some who I do want to be friends have gone away, either to meet the maker or we just lost contact. And this is also sad.

Well, Uncle Pik called up twice yesterday hoping to have some company in going to the tuner Wil used. But the tuner asked us to erase the boost cut from our ECU's first. The last time this happened, my engine exploded. This was because the boost was most probably too high. Now if I were to do the same thing again, with my power level, the chance is there that I will again piang my engine..... IS it worth it or not? hmmmmmm damn bloody good question man..... If Wil can do at least 250 with his td035...... I can do better... But the thing is whether the engine will meet its maker again or not..... Haizzzzzz.... better be good boy and don do anything.... If not... wifey willl tear me a new arsehole and I already have 2...... hhahahahahahahahaha


Peace and bye for now man.