Tired of Life... Tired of Livng

Don't you get the feeling sometimes? This is sometimes known as being depressed. If this feeling continues, then you better consult a psychiatrist and a counsellor.

The reason for this feeling that I have now is most because I will be faced withthe most challenging times of my life next year. I am thinking of starting some businesses, please read the plural form, starting a family with a new kid.... (meaning that I have to be prodctive too) and also trying to keep the energizer rabit from mauling my sister, the energizer part2.

My mom is getting demented. How I kno about it?She talks nonsense and acts like a kid. But the probem is that she also hates the present boyfriend of my sister like hell. I do not think that he is anthing wrong and even if he is, it is my sister's problem and no on else's. Yet my mom just cannot let it go. And her hatred for this guy has become a hatred for my sister too. We as childen try to give her the best of everything. From her own special room in both our houses to even giving her money. But she is never happy.

In fact, she is always trying to make trouble for everyone. In a normal situation, we would be happy if our children have found good mates and are now settling down. Se fears that the children will leave her alone and so on. I find that my mom is like my sis, canno be alone or be lonely. For me, I am like a wolf, I prefer t be alone, to eat alone and to talk to myself. Even if I have an argument with myself, I am able to come to an amicabe compromise.

So once my kid is born.... if I can have a kid, the energizer rabbit will come to my place to "look after" my child. But then, she will spoil the child rotten as this is all she knows how to do. It is also her only way of ensuring that the child wants and needs her and fr her to get a feeling of being needed. But for a guy who is pushing 40 plus and a mother who is also not as young, we cannot afford to bring up a rotten child. We have t ensure that the child s able to look after herself as soon as possible. That is why I am not allowing my wife to work. So that she can be a full time mom and to bring the kid up in the proper way. If not the child is looked after by he maid orthe grand-parent and be spoilt.

So now the situation is that if we do not allow her to spoil the child, guess who the energizer rabbit will turn against???? My wife.... "She not good lah.... she don know how t look after children and so on!!"" The same thing is happening to my sis and my sis is already soiling the children like mad. So now you see why I am in a dilemma. This oso cannot, that oso cannot...


I am tired man.